I was actually here as Gil Softpaws, but you know what.. no... I made up my mind.

I will re do this page again, take the cow webs off, and start anew here X3

I have been mostly on twitter in case tou have been curious, this is my handle https://mobile.twitter.com/gil_softpaws

So, I will change many things here, and begin my stuff again X3 nya!

SOOOOO BECAUSE ITS MY BIRTHDAY I... eh.... I.... will eat my own pillow XP.... nomnomnom.... there.. its gone XP... its on mah belly... now I will become a kitty pillow XP.... ANY WAAAYS I am 22 now and I will nom nom cake yay AND EGG NOG >//< <3<3<3 EGG NOG I LOVE IIT (thank you soo much to the creator of egg nog drink meowwwwwwwwwwwwwww and cya laterz meow n///n)

Here are the ones I am interested into and nya n.n

 Arctic_foxes_of_FA  FApaws  Pansexual_Furry

More will come by n.n thanks and if you can help me too to find more that I might interested in, PLEASE tell me here<3<3 love you guys<3

... what should I do then... so its true I am maybe anoying? Or I have too many masters? Or I have a wonderful love? Or I have many pets? Or I meow too much? Or I have many forms or I am dessesperated always for friendship and real life friends and I get very sad when I am left out ignored or pushed away... so what now? ... why many get mad for all this... why I most be hated? Why people get mad to me and ignore me and dont evetell me a why.... even when I open myself... then what?... what should I do? What should I say? Am I a jerk? When I care a lot.... even to the ones that dislike me? Am I stupid? Am I retard?... or.... I just dont fit...

... what should I do then... so its true I am maybe anoying? Or I have too many masters? Or I have a wonderful love? Or I have many pets? Or I meow too much? Or I have many forms or I am dessesperated always for friendship and real life friends and I get very sad when I am left out ignored or pushed away... so what now? ... why many get mad for all this... why I most be hated? Why people get mad to me and ignore me and dont evetell me a why.... even when I open myself... then what?... what should I do? What should I say? Am I a jerk? When I care a lot.... even to the ones that dislike me? Am I stupid? Am I retard?... or.... I just dont fit...

Its not fair T.T I dont know what I did wrong.. but I hope you some day forgive me.... you were a great friend of mine... I shall never forget you T.T and I hope you may forgive me... you were a great friend T.T... I love you hun....

My fursona *the primal form* its capable of changing of creatures and even mix them, I have been cat/fox/dragon for almost 5 years n.n I am thinking in to be more Moogle like, I want to change to Moogle and be all cute still meowing and purr but now even saying kupo too n///n ooo maybe cut the meowing a little and say more Kupo XP its just thought.. what ya guys and giirls think? You are my people, I want to hear what my people *and new comers* what do you think n.n also I need to update my information... something I hvent done in 3 years cause I AM LAZZZZYY AS A BANANAAAAAAA XP.

It WAS AWESOOOOME n///n she was a lil shy but my goooooosh she was very fun n/n  ninja-mei I trully thank you for such wonderful time and you drawing too n//n was very beautiful and cute meowwww //n.

I gave to her some sketches n//n very silly ones too X3 and plus a card of thanks and plush meow Meow n//n we went to eat and shopping and I got a Conker the Squirrel plush! N//n and we went to the movies *wich was even way fun too*, thooo I got lost on the place and I needed her help to be able to be found to be picked up x.x aaagh... but well n//n was a great great time! I am trully happy for such a fun time! Thank you Mei n//////n I trully thank youu n//

The Niagara Falls are amazing o.o I saw in New York Side and Canadian side, and of course I visit the Niagara forts *well, what its left of the one in Canada XP.. no much to see cause was litteraly transformed into dust o.o...* I saw big. Long.. thing with elevators.. I DIDNT GOT CLOSE BY THAT LOOKED SCARRY

Now, SECOND NEWS my friend  Ninja-Mei I has been talking to her in text and we found out we live Very VERY VERY VERY CLOSE sso II well ffor the first time in my life meet a Furry from FA in real life and will be Mei n.n Oh MY GOSH MEI ITS ON HISTORY YAAAAAAAAAAY O//W//O I AM EXITED MEOWWWWWWWWWWWW she even studies on my same college Eeek EEEEEEEEK Eeeeeeeeeeeek... EKeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeekk O//w//O so we TOALLY gonna meet, I CANT wait to see ya Mei n.n


well thats all meowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww mewwwwwwwww eww mew mmew mew mewmemw emw and tons of my craziness and silliness kitty like ways meow n//n bye bye and thank you for reading me n//n II hope you get 9000 blessings reader!

Well I will be 2 days in Canada to see the nature and explore it!

*if I am lucky, to find their honney, people say hhoney from Canada its the best one, so I neeeeeed to taste it, even Pooh says it sso @.@*

So yaaaaaaaaaaaa yaaaaay I hope there are tons of things there meowwwwwwwww goooing tomorrow


Thank you for reading me n//n I loooove yojuuuuuu tons of licks and purrs and kisses and sniffes to your cute feet n///n.

This... IS THE BEST DAY EVEEEEER n///n its so happy and lovely meowwww n//n and I love to see those cute bunny pics with feet been shown meowwwwrrrrr n//n its sweeter than the chocolate meowr...

hehehe Any way, I hope every one of you have a Great GREAT GREAT Merry eggsmass n///n and wait for Santa bunnypaws n///n meow! *gives tons of eggs of chocolate for every one of you* Confetti TIIIIIIIME O//W//O

Ya that horrible my humor is XP at least thats how my mom describes it because my jokes are always related to insult or something like that XP why I do this? Well because many found it funny, I find it funny, and because is a way to relax from all the pain in the balls for so many kicks :x

but oh well, the thing is that I might do some sex, acid, toxic, black jokes on pics, and I have MAAAAAANYYYY cause I am always complaining about many things an. well some times just making fun of things that happens around me and about me... ya I have no life so I waist it doing crazy jokes and all that stuff XP LETS PUT THOSE INSULTS RUNNING!

For the ones that know what happened to my relation, you know how I still feel... I am lil better now.. but I see now the yiff as another thing. I just am not totally ok with the yiff any more, and I mean in pics and real life. So I shall reduce it to 10%, so now it will be rare for me to do that, or fav pic of that, mostly would be only if it has feet on it but nothing more. I am just not any more confortable with myself about all that u.u I hope and please understand my position...

Of course, it does not mean I will change my attitude, of course I will stay more on my line, but I will still be the lovable and nice kitty you all know... and open hearted as always... nothing will ever change that because that its what makes me 'ME'...

I hope I dont get drama pms about my desition nor drama messeges here nor insults and nothing... so please I hope you can understand my position and how now things around me are turning to different road...

thank you very much for listening, I hope you all have great day *hugs you all and cheek licks for every one.

I just toped with it ramdomly haahaha.. nyaaa x///x so shyyy.... well here here meow. N///n


http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4295384/

Now go there and WIIN WIIN WIIIIIIIIN MUAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA MUAAAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA aksdjeAHAHHSHJMJSDHEMWDMKADMKEMHKSJNXHJDKEUIWMANDXHJKSJD,S,Eryfhdjksrijfl

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EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEK EKKKK EEEP EEEEEEEk EEEEEEEEEEEEEK n///n oh my goooosh one of my favorite cousins will get married n///n she asseppted yesterday on a concert of lady gaga and she assepted so now she will get married Mewwwww MEWWWWWW MEOWWWWWWWWWWW ME SO HAAAPPPYYY MEOWWWWWWWW n///n aand will be my first time attending to a weading oh my gooosh n///n.... I hope I catch the flowers XP so I can get even more probabilities of gatting married with my Asa purrrrrrrrr hiii sexy Asa murrr purr purrrrrr n//w//n

oh my gosh I am too exited OwO

Go to the journal please, I know that my friend will be very greatfull!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4240950/

Thiiiis was taken from  ninja-mei meow n///n


How long have you known me?
Are we friends?
How did we meet?
Use one word to describe me.
How much do you know about me?
What animal reminds you of me?
How would you greet me if we ever met in person?
Do we have anything in common?
What was your first impression of me when we met?
Would you consider going to anthrocon with me?
What's the square root of 36?
Will you post these questions on a journal to see what I say about you?

meow n//n... Gerard approves XP

Hissssss meowww mewwww purrr awrffff squeeaaaak raaawr and more n//n me happyyyyy finally I will play again my games, my old wii wasent able to play games any more sooo now I can again Xp is the black one, or like people around my town call it "tha nigga wiiU bro..." XP.. I hate racist expressions buuut wreeeeeeeell is a thing not person soo who gives a turd Xp well me will be instaling it and theen me want some friends to have ma cooode....

I hope you all have great night meowww I love every one of you sexy boys and girls purrrrrrr n///n kitty happy with you all n///n

Oh and today I got pine tree to decorate and do meow meow stuff with it XP I will put pics on the pine tree of me and my character and saanta and cute deers n//n I Looove deers n//n they cuuute and sexy and.. and.. and meowwwww n///n just like reptiles and canines and otters and felines and mooooooore n//n

YYuuush today its my hatch day, II hatched exactly at 6:20 pm meow n//n aaaaand i was blond *yyep, true thing . But at . My hair became black, II the heeelll dont know hoe genetic can eexplain that x.

xAnother thing II wanna share with you gguys, its my special story. See, II hatched with big problem, II had a organ that was with mmalfunction, and I neeeded a surgery at the time of 4 months, II had 99% probability of die without ssurgery, and 99% probability of have died with it. The odds were with me, and II was that 1%

II am happy II birth as a fighter since my very young age! The mark of the surgury its between my tummy and below my left nipple. Its my mark of survivor, and the clear and perfect example and fact... that always even a 1% counts... and that GGod... or who ever is... or life... something wants us here fora rreasson...

meow n//n well, II hope you all have a great day and guess wwhat? I dont know what tto do ttoday.... man... II suck at times x.x

I just Installed Slenderman, an incredible game of first person horror. This game has become popular and I can honestly say that its creepy thanks yo the sounds and the ambient of the game. This plus the music, makes an effective way to make the person be scared as in hell. Slenderman, the enemy of the game, is the one you need to avoid. you most not see him for a period of time or, hell catch you, and game over. objective of the game, pick 8 papers and then, return were you started to survive. as you collect the papers, Slenderman appears even more, and making the game harder ( and scarier )

I just Downloaded it today, BUT because I saw how as played and I saw one of its roots Sanatorium, I wanted to start with one I never saw to make it fair and square. So, I downloaded Mansion, one that caugh my attention because I LOVE mansions and well... nothing bad to give it a try and see how well the programers and skilled graphic designers made the mansion. I was AMAZED with such beautiful graphics and details for a game that its free and its simple.

The HORROR of this root of the game of Slenderman is the ambient, stormy, dark, and lonely and with MANY rooms to go. This facts makes it scary and, to say the correct word with the correct feeling... a pain in the balls. BUT NOT ONLY THAT makes it a pain in the balls, but the FACT that you need to collect this time not papers BUT ITEMS! AND 12 OF THEM!!!!!! AND WORST, THE ITEMS DONT GLOW. So you need to pic a ramdom guess and click what ever you think could be the item. PLUS this terrible thing of collecting items that dosent glow and are 12, its to PICK UP KEYS!!! YEAAAA... KEYS... making the game harder, difficult, and BRIGHTLESSLY cool... ( meaning that if its not bright, now is ZERO BRIGHT DAMN IT >< )

With this facts it makes the game hard, but guess what... ITS NOT ENOUGH WITH THAT GOD DAMN IT >< NO! You are trying to collect the pices, you see one the next room and guess what? SLENDER MAN IS THERE NEXT TO THE ITEM YOU NEED TO COLLECT!!! ok ok... then you need to GO BACK and make a WHOOOLE new route and then return, but now WHAT?? YAY!!! YOU PICK UP THAT ITeM, BUT SLENDerMAN RE APEARS NEXT TO YOU AND BURN YOU OFF THE GAAAAAAME AAAAAAAAGH ><

This should have been a horror game, and it was to be honest, but there is a line between horrooor and difficulty and trolling.. AND THIS ONE ITS TROLLING LINE >< but oh well... still, is a good game, scary as hell, GREAT graphics and I most say, the dudes did a nice job, but they reaaally make at least THAT one hard x.x... well.. I might make another reviewwwws.. who knooows.. I love to get mad about games and make sarcastic jokes and be ironic and satiric x.x... oh welllll... play the game for this halloween! I BET YA it will be WAAAY fun than going out to a old and boring graveyard and catch a cold or a flu x.x

~Zauriel Mooncat~

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Nya... on these days I just one to talk to some one... me slightly sad and me feel like I really need to have some one that will be whiling to be called nya... So, who its open mew?

Meow... Long time haven't talk... ( a tear comes down ) mew... lately I try to be what I was.. all cute and nice... but the pain its still there... that's how I already loss 3 of my most big friends... only for being too lovable? Instantly makes me fall... instantly makes me fear... fear of love and fear of what its inside it.... I just don't know... I just cant see what was truly the love, it was not to give yourself to some one and love it with all you have? or its to not show many feelings.. and just be like a cold rock on a swamp filled up in many different things, representing emotions and ideas that fly by and that you want them to land on your rock... but you most keep them aside to be one with the swamp you so much love... ( well maybe I don't explain myself very well, sorry ) but... in short words... I am just... afraid of love again, because what ever I do.. I already know I will lose him/her in short time.. for what ever reason ( ears drops ). I am afraid of losing more friends... I am afraid of having problems just by the way I FINALLY felt so free... Now what to do.... should I stay white and be free and finally out of the jail inside my head... or be black... and be jailed not only inside my head... but inside my heart... and never be able to scape again... ( falls on the ground )

I am not saying I am giving up... but I just... am too injured... What I was once... the moon upon the nights... and those person my stars.. that its fading away... and I want so badly to regain that.. but would I just pushing others to end in tragedy? mew...

I feel like I want to hide... to not be discovered... and... to not... let others down ever again... mew ( cires and hides

I have seen not only in MANY houses but in buildings ( apartments ) that the most common and used light, are the ones that are yellow/cream/orange, what ever color it is. But its not common to use the white light! Normaly, ( at least in my opinion ) the White Light let the things look clearly and even vividly! AND has a better percentage of capacity of illumination! at night, the light bulb has an even powerful light than the yellow one. So, let me ask, why the yellow light ( bulub ) its more used in houses???

... I broke my damn ankle while I was playing Badminton ( MY FAV SPORT ) aaandI jump to try to hit the bird and I land with my ankle ) which hurts VERY ALIKE to a hammer hiting your ankle very hard ) sooo I am now on a chair with my leg up and my little paw discovered T.T I hate my family looking at my paw... T.T this sucks.... AND FOR WORST I LOST T.T I NEVER LOSE IN BADMINGTON!!! COME OOOON THIS IS ZErO COOL T.T