IT'S HAPPENING

https://twitter.com/tobyfox/status/.....56452316901376

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HOLY SHIT GUYS DID YOU KNOW "COCK" IS ALSO A WORD FOR ROOSTER?!

(This is not directed at anybody specifically, I didn't even start thinking of it because of anyone on this site, so don't get the wrong idea thinking that it's a response to somebody. <3)

Okay but seriously, can we pleeeaaaase stop with this habit? I mean, I know it's just human nature, but it's always so embarrassing seeing people make public comments/journals and spending so much writing down exactly how little they care about whatever the other person did or the other person themselves. I can't be the only one who finds it painfully transparent, right?

Haha, the last post I made was a year ago when I beat it, Lord.

Anyway, almost missed posting it, but one year of Undertale is out! I don't normally celebrate game anniversaries (??? Who does, right?) but it's been such a big influence on my life and my main partner's life, I just can't help but think about it.

It's been a really great year. <3

I am coming out of lurk mode to tell you guys one thing:

Play UnderTale.

It is simply i n c r e d i b l e . (It's also quite furry.)

Start playing for Toriel. Finish playing for EVERYTHING ELSE. ♥

So there was very briefly a message that Zido/Starrykitten was removed from the staff and has his access to the servers taken away too, ¹ but it's gone now, so iunno? Dragoneer started referring to him in the past tense about 7 hours ago, so that's something, I guess, but then 'Neer also said that Starrykitten was never an "admin," (something that Starrykitten himself seemed unaware of ²) and that he was only "officially" brought on a few days ago (whatever that means, seeing as Starrykitten says he was "a hidden admin" for over a year and that he also answered trouble tickets, at least. ³)

So, he's gone... probably? And FA's promise of full transparency is, well... obviously we've got a ways to go. :\

What exactly separates being "officially a member of the staff" and "being an admin" from whatever it was that Starrykitten has been for over a year? Can we at least get that, maybe?

Goddamn it FA, really?

Like, even if you have rock-solid evidence that the guy intends to turn over a new leaf, you don't put them in charge of the main site first, you put them at the helm of the quarternary backup server or something. xP

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5966515/

Who else is going to take them from you? You probably need to clean out that room anyways, right? Here's your excuse! <3

My Will to thetakogun going to his first day of work:

"Are you coming back? Cause Andy likes you a lot, and he'd be really sad if you don't come back."

Awwww, he was worried about me being sad because he loves meeee~♥♥♥

[Edit: This is supposed to be talking about my issues, not some sort of "issues with the community." I just don't get to that for like a paragraph, but... yeah, it's not as emoragey as it sounds at first, I promise. =P]

Been away from FA for almost 9 months now. It's... hard coming back. I miss furries, miss being involved in the community, but whenever I'm here, the nastiness of others keeps coming back to mind, even when it's not new drama. I'll never forget the lovely furs I've met here, but I'm also finding it difficult to forget the fur who unsolicitously told me he wanted to roughly fuck me, then told me he was disgusted with me when I asked him to please refrain from comments like that. I still remember the 19-year old condescension of the fur with whom I tried to have a civil debate on trans issues... and the assisted passive-aggression from one of his sycophants (wanted or not, I didn't stick around to find out). I still remember the militant social justice warrior who polarized a social issue and vilified anybody who didn't agree with his exact position (he was so absurdly adamant in his split-mind thinking that he was taken aback when someone simply assumed he was a troll). I still remember all the dumb, hateful, stupid shit that I've encountered over the years, ugh.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying this is a "furry problem," or something specific to FA. I mean god, it's a social site on the internet, of course this stuff happens. I've always found calling drama "a furry problem" to be a silly (and easy) way to excise the subtlety from the situation. I just didn't expect it to be this difficult.

I dunno, maybe it's just that getting a bit older has left me with less patience for this sort of thing than I used to have. I'm not really sure.

Not sure how many people read my journals after such a long absence, but I'd love to hear about other people's experiences. C'mon, we can all be sane together. <3

Yes, of a person! Not a little animal or anything!

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12926994/

"Some people were real worried about the link between aspartame and cancer in lab rats. Well, don’t worry so much. We found out it was something else. Not aspartame. Different thing. Can’t remember the name offhand, but it was real different."

It's called SACCHARIN. SACCHARIN, you dumbshits. There's never been a link between cancer and aspartame in lab rats. #failedsatire

http://the-toast.net/2013/10/24/spo.....soda-real-bad/

Hey people reading this,

For anybody who's been wondering where I am, sorry for being offline for so long with no notice. I'm currently battling some kind of unholy plague version of a cold, which of course means the only things I can take for it are zinc and symptom relief. It's been at me for well over a week now. Hopefully it'll be gone soon. xP

Love, Zek

If you complain that there are so few women to date out there because you don't date women who are overweight, trans*, have any kind of psychological condition, or whose face and features you can't see and judge before getting to know them as a person... suffice to say, you are not exactly tugging at my heartstrings, man.

...is how long I've been around!

Happy birthday to me! *fwee*

Two people clash, and break off, the conflict unresolved.

He gets increasingly stressed as the conflict continues to be unresolved.
She gets increasingly stressed at any attempt to resolve the conflict.

Both people's stress should be respected. What do you do?

*happy lion*

You're in my mind
all of the time
I know that's not enough
But if the sky can crack
there must be some way back
to love and only love
U2, "Electrical Storm"

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4980046/

 tyreenya has been diagnosed with stage 5 renal failure, and is looking at spending the rest of her life on dialysis, three times a week, unless she can get a new kidney.

If any kind-hearted soul out there with A-negative or O-negative blood type would be willing to donate a kidney, it would change someone's entire life for the better. Even if that person isn't out there, any donations towards it would help her a lot! <3

Okay, so I know that getting into an internet debate is stupid and pointless for the most part. It doesn't have to do with people, it's just that in a debate, it's difficult enough to convince someone in person, and almost impossible through the veil of anonymity on the internet.

But what's really bad is that for me, it's an incredibly, severely stressful experience, mainly the waiting for the response. You see, unlike in person, with that anonymity, people are much more likely to be insulting to you at certain points; it's just easier. It's not even outright mudslinging either, which is easy to ignore, more things along the lines of "Wow, I didn't realize you were so ignorant," or whatnot. Sometimes it's subtler than that, sometimes it isn't. Tone makes things incredibly difficult too. A certain sentence can be read as insulting or not depending on the tone, which is very difficult to convey through text.

I am very very sensitive to these insulting treatments. It's mainly what makes the waiting for a reply so incredibly panic-inducing for me. And I accept that sometimes I read insults where they aren't there. There's no way to verify it either; if the person insulted you passive-aggressively, they're obviously going to deny that it happened just as fervently as they would if they meant nothing by it.

But there's a certain level of exasperating bullshit that happens, and something similar just happened now. When I tell somebody that there has most likely been a misunderstanding on my part, and that we're most likely in agreement, but that I have to stop due to anxiety... and then I keep getting pressed anyways? I just... I have no response to that sort of thing. I can't say I expressed those feelings with the full eloquence I am capable of due to my spiraling into anxiety, but surely—SURELY—most people would be able to see that I have said I am having anxiety issues and take that into account.

I just feel like absolute shit right now, especially from having to block people because they don't seem to be getting the whole "please stop talking to me about this, I'm having an anxiety attack" angle.

I don't know. I know it's more complicated than that. For instance, another aspect of my anxiety is that as long as things are heated, I'll feel shitty for a week if I end the conversation myself by not responding to a comment, because they will have said some assumption, insult, point that I can clarify, etc. that I will want to have a chance to respond to... and then of course they'll respond in turn. It can theoretically be stopped at any time by just ceasing to reply, (unless they're super-douchebags and start harassing you) but it doesn't generally help my anxiety. So as long as I'm replying, people are probably going to assume I want to keep doing so... but they must know about the desire to have the last word themselves as well. This isn't something utterly unique to myself, it just bothers me more than most people. (And God forbid, apparently, that I say I'm going to stop commenting and then change my mind when I find it too difficult.)

It's much, much easier when they just go into full-on crazy harassment mudslinging mode, because then I stop caring... but that's not what happened this time. They just seemed to completely fail to understand what I was saying... or maybe they were enough of a jerk that it didn't matter. I don't know.

When you've told the other person you think they're right, and ask them to stop talking about it for the sake of your mental health, and they keep doing it, I just don't know what to think. Are they that much of a jerk? Am I that bad at communicating? What am I missing?

*sighs, covers eyes with paws*

The last day, omg~ o_o

Day 1: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day 2: Nine things about yourself.
Day 3: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day 4: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day 5: Six things you wish you'd never done.
Day 6: Five people who mean a lot to you (in no order whatsoever).
Day 7: Four turn-offs.
Day 8: Three turn-ons.
Day 9: Two emoticons that describe your life right now.
Day 10: One confession.


1. One confession... this one has been on my mind since I started this. There's very little that I keep to myself. I've been thinking for a long time about what I could possibly have to "confess." Sure, I could pick something that I happily tell people, but may have not specifically mentioned here, but... that feels like kind of a cop-out. I mean, it's a confession; surely it should be something you don't normally tell people, right? Of course, it's just a silly meme. I'm under no obligation to reveal a secret just because some conformative activity told me too. But hey, I'm doing this because I wanted to. And it's always good for people to step outside their comfort zones every now and then! But... what the hell do I even have to confess if I'm following that guideline? There isn't a lot. So I've been thinking about it for some time, sifting through my small pile of secrets, or trying to think about things I keep to myself that only I might know—things I've never had the chance to tell others. After perusing it all this time, I came up with something, but... it hit a nerve, and revealed some anger, and I don't think I want to post it. So here's this for you instead, one of the few "scandalous" things about me~

When I was 20, I developed romantic feelings for someone of the age of 12. Relax, the only things felt were emotions. =P I won't lie, it was a bit of a weird experience, but since I don't make a habit of this sort of thing (they are still the only one so young—by a wide margin—to have charmed me thus), I didn't think too much of it. I enjoyed my crush through their simple company and the occasional hug. ^^ Now this person is 19, and still gives me butterflies, and I'm wondering if I should ask them out. ->.>-