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Posted 12 years agohttp://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4890371/
Certainly not something that is in dire need of your attention, but this sounds lovely, and if you've got a couple bucks, you could help someone achieve their dream! :3
Certainly not something that is in dire need of your attention, but this sounds lovely, and if you've got a couple bucks, you could help someone achieve their dream! :3
10 days of Confessions! (Day 9)
Posted 12 years agoThis'll be short...
Day 1: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day 2: Nine things about yourself.
Day 3: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day 4: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day 5: Six things you wish you'd never done.
Day 6: Five people who mean a lot to you (in no order whatsoever).
Day 7: Four turn-offs.
Day 8: Three turn-ons.
Day 9: Two emoticons that describe your life right now.
Day 10: One confession.
1. ᴗ_ᴗ (tired. waiting. sleeping.)
2. :'3 (hopeful.)
Day 1: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day 2: Nine things about yourself.
Day 3: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day 4: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day 5: Six things you wish you'd never done.
Day 6: Five people who mean a lot to you (in no order whatsoever).
Day 7: Four turn-offs.
Day 8: Three turn-ons.
Day 9: Two emoticons that describe your life right now.
Day 10: One confession.
1. ᴗ_ᴗ (tired. waiting. sleeping.)
2. :'3 (hopeful.)
10 days of Confessions! (Day 8)
Posted 12 years agoAnyone notice that day three (eight things) and day eight (three things) are basically the same? xD I'll try to focus more on physical turn-ons here, I guess? I feel like I already covered mental/emotional turn-ons in #3.
Day 1: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day 2: Nine things about yourself.
Day 3: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day 4: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day 5: Six things you wish you'd never done.
Day 6: Five people who mean a lot to you (in no order whatsoever).
Day 7: Four turn-offs.
Day 8: Three turn-ons.
Day 9: Two emoticons that describe your life right now.
Day 10: One confession.
1. Tall, curvy/chubby, big-framed women. Oh my goodness gracious... *blush* oh my goodness, goodness gracious, I get flustered in the best kind of way around big/tall women.
2. Femboys! :3 Cute, girly little femboys. Let's play femboy games together! *hops*
3. Bears. x3 Big, broad, fuzzy bears. Heee~♥
Day 1: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day 2: Nine things about yourself.
Day 3: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day 4: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day 5: Six things you wish you'd never done.
Day 6: Five people who mean a lot to you (in no order whatsoever).
Day 7: Four turn-offs.
Day 8: Three turn-ons.
Day 9: Two emoticons that describe your life right now.
Day 10: One confession.
1. Tall, curvy/chubby, big-framed women. Oh my goodness gracious... *blush* oh my goodness, goodness gracious, I get flustered in the best kind of way around big/tall women.
2. Femboys! :3 Cute, girly little femboys. Let's play femboy games together! *hops*
3. Bears. x3 Big, broad, fuzzy bears. Heee~♥
10 days of Confessions! (Day 7)
Posted 12 years ago~SEVEN DAYS~ o_o
This one was less fun to write. xP
Day 1: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day 2: Nine things about yourself.
Day 3: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day 4: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day 5: Six things you wish you'd never done.
Day 6: Five people who mean a lot to you (in no order whatsoever).
Day 7: Four turn-offs.
Day 8: Three turn-ons.
Day 9: Two emoticons that describe your life right now.
Day 10: One confession.
1. Drugs, as in recreational. Like most of my turn-offs, I fully support other people's right to do what they want. But recreational drug use make me super, super uncomfortable, even marijuana. I honestly don't know why. Drinking used to make me uncomfortable too, which was what finally made me try alcohol myself, just so it wouldn't be so painful to me when my friends told me about their drinking escapades. The more dangerous the drug, the more uncomfortable I get, which explains part of my distaste, certainly; the last thing I want to see is someone I care about ruin themselves with addiction or overdose. But again, even pot makes me uncomfortable, so... *shrugs*
2. Guns. I feel like I don't know the scientific reality of whether or not it's actually safer to own a gun in certain places or not... statistically, people who own guns are more likely to get shot, but that may be because people who own guns are usually in more dangerous neighborhoods, but then again, how much of a neighborhood's danger has to do with the fact that everybody has guns~? Regardless, I don't have a problem with our constitution or with most gun control measures, but people who have guns make me uncomfortable to be around, especially when they actively enjoy playing/practicing with them. Like the drugs, this is somewhat odd to me, especially given that more "quaint" weapons like swords or even antique guns don't bother me as much. I suspect it's just the idea of owning a tool (particularly a modern one that people actually use) that was designed for the specific purpose of ending a human life (even if you don't use it that way). I honestly don't know why this fact doesn't bother other people more, but I know I'm a lot more sensitive than most people, too.
3. Alternative medicine. Sorry, but as an enthusiast of mainstream, modern medicine, alternative medicine usually makes me wince or, in cases where it's more harmful than useless, feel disgusted (anti-vaccination practitioners being chief amongst this category). Mostly, I find it upsetting the things that people believe about alternative medicines that generally show a serious misunderstanding about how medicine actually works. Even for something like herbal medicine, where you're talking about substances with the actual capacity to affect your body, there are a number of bizarre beliefs that go along with it: That eating the entire plant instead of the isolated substance is somehow better for you, or that herbal medicine has fewer "side effects" and is safer. The former is based on a completely unfounded theory of holism and flies in the face of existing science that says the more precise the dosage the better, and the latter is just a fundamental misunderstanding of the difference between desired effects and side effects. (Protip: There is none. Drugs just do stuff to your body, and we take them when one or more of those effects are desirable.)
4. Lack of empathy. This can be just selfishness, which is a huge turn-off, or it can be downright cruelty. My heart goes out to cruel people, because so many of them are that way because people were cruel to them. That, or they're actually psychopathic to some degree, and their brains are literally incapable of processing empathy. Either way though, I don't feel like I have any capability to help these people, and that being the case, I'd generally prefer to have nothing to do with them.
This one was less fun to write. xP
Day 1: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day 2: Nine things about yourself.
Day 3: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day 4: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day 5: Six things you wish you'd never done.
Day 6: Five people who mean a lot to you (in no order whatsoever).
Day 7: Four turn-offs.
Day 8: Three turn-ons.
Day 9: Two emoticons that describe your life right now.
Day 10: One confession.
1. Drugs, as in recreational. Like most of my turn-offs, I fully support other people's right to do what they want. But recreational drug use make me super, super uncomfortable, even marijuana. I honestly don't know why. Drinking used to make me uncomfortable too, which was what finally made me try alcohol myself, just so it wouldn't be so painful to me when my friends told me about their drinking escapades. The more dangerous the drug, the more uncomfortable I get, which explains part of my distaste, certainly; the last thing I want to see is someone I care about ruin themselves with addiction or overdose. But again, even pot makes me uncomfortable, so... *shrugs*
2. Guns. I feel like I don't know the scientific reality of whether or not it's actually safer to own a gun in certain places or not... statistically, people who own guns are more likely to get shot, but that may be because people who own guns are usually in more dangerous neighborhoods, but then again, how much of a neighborhood's danger has to do with the fact that everybody has guns~? Regardless, I don't have a problem with our constitution or with most gun control measures, but people who have guns make me uncomfortable to be around, especially when they actively enjoy playing/practicing with them. Like the drugs, this is somewhat odd to me, especially given that more "quaint" weapons like swords or even antique guns don't bother me as much. I suspect it's just the idea of owning a tool (particularly a modern one that people actually use) that was designed for the specific purpose of ending a human life (even if you don't use it that way). I honestly don't know why this fact doesn't bother other people more, but I know I'm a lot more sensitive than most people, too.
3. Alternative medicine. Sorry, but as an enthusiast of mainstream, modern medicine, alternative medicine usually makes me wince or, in cases where it's more harmful than useless, feel disgusted (anti-vaccination practitioners being chief amongst this category). Mostly, I find it upsetting the things that people believe about alternative medicines that generally show a serious misunderstanding about how medicine actually works. Even for something like herbal medicine, where you're talking about substances with the actual capacity to affect your body, there are a number of bizarre beliefs that go along with it: That eating the entire plant instead of the isolated substance is somehow better for you, or that herbal medicine has fewer "side effects" and is safer. The former is based on a completely unfounded theory of holism and flies in the face of existing science that says the more precise the dosage the better, and the latter is just a fundamental misunderstanding of the difference between desired effects and side effects. (Protip: There is none. Drugs just do stuff to your body, and we take them when one or more of those effects are desirable.)
4. Lack of empathy. This can be just selfishness, which is a huge turn-off, or it can be downright cruelty. My heart goes out to cruel people, because so many of them are that way because people were cruel to them. That, or they're actually psychopathic to some degree, and their brains are literally incapable of processing empathy. Either way though, I don't feel like I have any capability to help these people, and that being the case, I'd generally prefer to have nothing to do with them.
10 days of Confessions! (Day 6)
Posted 12 years agoI kinda already have this is my signature. xD But eh.
Day 1: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day 2: Nine things about yourself.
Day 3: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day 4: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day 5: Six things you wish you'd never done.
Day 6: Five people who mean a lot to you (in no order whatsoever).
Day 7: Four turn-offs.
Day 8: Three turn-ons.
Day 9: Two emoticons that describe your life right now.
Day 10: One confession.
1.
thetakogun, my ex-boyfriend and closest friend. He's family, and I love him to pieces. ♥♥♥
2. A.B., my friend with benefits and the first girl I was ever with. *blush*
3. Rheva, my lovely and wonderful cousin! ^_^ She's like my little sister. <3
4. Amy, my lover. She makes me feel happy and pretty, though I wish we lived in the same city already! :I
5.
stush! She's a total sweetie, and I <3 her muchly! :3
Day 1: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day 2: Nine things about yourself.
Day 3: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day 4: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day 5: Six things you wish you'd never done.
Day 6: Five people who mean a lot to you (in no order whatsoever).
Day 7: Four turn-offs.
Day 8: Three turn-ons.
Day 9: Two emoticons that describe your life right now.
Day 10: One confession.
1.
thetakogun, my ex-boyfriend and closest friend. He's family, and I love him to pieces. ♥♥♥2. A.B., my friend with benefits and the first girl I was ever with. *blush*
3. Rheva, my lovely and wonderful cousin! ^_^ She's like my little sister. <3
4. Amy, my lover. She makes me feel happy and pretty, though I wish we lived in the same city already! :I
5.
stush! She's a total sweetie, and I <3 her muchly! :310 days of Confessions! (Day 5)
Posted 12 years agoHalfway through! D: EVERYBODY PANIC
Day 1: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day 2: Nine things about yourself.
Day 3: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day 4: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day 5: Six things you wish you'd never done.
Day 6: Five people who mean a lot to you (in no order whatsoever).
Day 7: Four turn-offs.
Day 8: Three turn-ons.
Day 9: Two emoticons that describe your life right now.
Day 10: One confession.
1-6. Nothing.
I know this sounds weird to some people... to me it seems perfectly natural, but I've had strange reactions to it in the past. But quite frankly, this is my life, and while I may not be totally happy with the way it is, everything I did in the past shaped who I am today. If I had a time machine, I wouldn't use it to change anything in my past, period. The idea terrifies me, because who knows who I'd turn out to be? And while I have my flaws, like any person, I like who I am for the most part. Even if I wanted to change parts of myself, the implications of suddenly becoming a different person (aside from the natural growth that comes from living) raise creepy existential questions.
This might be a different case if I had seriously screwed up my life somehow (I'm talking like, killing someone, for example), but that would be quite unusual. There are things I've done that I regret, but to me that means "I won't do them again," not "I wish I could go back and undo them."
Day 1: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day 2: Nine things about yourself.
Day 3: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day 4: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day 5: Six things you wish you'd never done.
Day 6: Five people who mean a lot to you (in no order whatsoever).
Day 7: Four turn-offs.
Day 8: Three turn-ons.
Day 9: Two emoticons that describe your life right now.
Day 10: One confession.
1-6. Nothing.
I know this sounds weird to some people... to me it seems perfectly natural, but I've had strange reactions to it in the past. But quite frankly, this is my life, and while I may not be totally happy with the way it is, everything I did in the past shaped who I am today. If I had a time machine, I wouldn't use it to change anything in my past, period. The idea terrifies me, because who knows who I'd turn out to be? And while I have my flaws, like any person, I like who I am for the most part. Even if I wanted to change parts of myself, the implications of suddenly becoming a different person (aside from the natural growth that comes from living) raise creepy existential questions.
This might be a different case if I had seriously screwed up my life somehow (I'm talking like, killing someone, for example), but that would be quite unusual. There are things I've done that I regret, but to me that means "I won't do them again," not "I wish I could go back and undo them."
10 days of Confessions! (Day 4)
Posted 12 years agoThis meme's actually pretty fun. :3 I like the countdown aspect of it, somehow.
Day 1: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day 2: Nine things about yourself.
Day 3: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day 4: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day 5: Six things you wish you'd never done.
Day 6: Five people who mean a lot to you (in no order whatsoever).
Day 7: Four turn-offs.
Day 8: Three turn-ons.
Day 9: Two emoticons that describe your life right now.
Day 10: One confession.
1. Love. I tread a strange line with love in my mind... it's wonderful, it's lovely, it defines a huge part of who I am, but I'm well aware, too, of the grandiosity it's given sometimes. It isn't perfect. Firstly, it is a real physical thing, it's not a magical emotion that necessarily arrests your heart forever. You can fall out of love. It's also not a panacea; love is beautiful, but it can't fix all your problems. A meaningful relationship can go a long way in making someone happy, but there's no reason to expect it to remove the effects of traumatic events from your life, or to even improve your self-esteem for certain. That being said, I feel my life would be nothing without it.
2. Entropy, and endings... but also the reality of beginnings, and their origins.
3. My, uh, particular taboo kink, especially the more significant (but less represented in my gallery) maternal version of it... -<.<-; Mommies, in other words. It honestly is more about the archetype than any actual relation (that just makes it kinkier), but more and more I've been finding it oddly more significant to me than I realized. That kind of relationship (again, the archetypal mother/son roles, not necessarily any actual relation) as romantic is just something I find really strangely sweet and even very comforting, through the naughtiness. I don't want to get too Freudian here (especially with most of his work being disproven and studied more by English majors than psychology students), but I can't help but wonder if it's relevant that I have such an awful relationship with my own mother.
4. Medicine! It's so fascinating, so inspiring. I love to read about new medical developments and the science behind drugs and treatments. Unusual diseases/disorders and how we might treat them, and our incredible ability to actually eradicate diseases completely at times! It's all so beautiful, frightening, and amazing.
5. How I can be a better person. I worry a lot about my flaws... one of which, ironically, is neurosis. ^^;; I want to be an open-minded and accepting person, I want to be good to people and help them. I know that I can be—besides neurotic—overly sensitive, clingy, far too curious for my own good, or a poor teacher of rights and liberties that I believe in. And I accept that some of these are simply the other side of the coin to an attribute that I feel is a strength. But that doesn't mean I can't or shouldn't try to improve upon those flaws.
6. How to get back into the habit of writing, and what I want to write, and what I want to do with my work.
7. The people I care about... you are always on my mind.
This is my winter song
December never felt so wrong
Cause you're not where you belong
...inside my arms~♥
Day 1: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day 2: Nine things about yourself.
Day 3: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day 4: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day 5: Six things you wish you'd never done.
Day 6: Five people who mean a lot to you (in no order whatsoever).
Day 7: Four turn-offs.
Day 8: Three turn-ons.
Day 9: Two emoticons that describe your life right now.
Day 10: One confession.
1. Love. I tread a strange line with love in my mind... it's wonderful, it's lovely, it defines a huge part of who I am, but I'm well aware, too, of the grandiosity it's given sometimes. It isn't perfect. Firstly, it is a real physical thing, it's not a magical emotion that necessarily arrests your heart forever. You can fall out of love. It's also not a panacea; love is beautiful, but it can't fix all your problems. A meaningful relationship can go a long way in making someone happy, but there's no reason to expect it to remove the effects of traumatic events from your life, or to even improve your self-esteem for certain. That being said, I feel my life would be nothing without it.
2. Entropy, and endings... but also the reality of beginnings, and their origins.
3. My, uh, particular taboo kink, especially the more significant (but less represented in my gallery) maternal version of it... -<.<-; Mommies, in other words. It honestly is more about the archetype than any actual relation (that just makes it kinkier), but more and more I've been finding it oddly more significant to me than I realized. That kind of relationship (again, the archetypal mother/son roles, not necessarily any actual relation) as romantic is just something I find really strangely sweet and even very comforting, through the naughtiness. I don't want to get too Freudian here (especially with most of his work being disproven and studied more by English majors than psychology students), but I can't help but wonder if it's relevant that I have such an awful relationship with my own mother.
4. Medicine! It's so fascinating, so inspiring. I love to read about new medical developments and the science behind drugs and treatments. Unusual diseases/disorders and how we might treat them, and our incredible ability to actually eradicate diseases completely at times! It's all so beautiful, frightening, and amazing.
5. How I can be a better person. I worry a lot about my flaws... one of which, ironically, is neurosis. ^^;; I want to be an open-minded and accepting person, I want to be good to people and help them. I know that I can be—besides neurotic—overly sensitive, clingy, far too curious for my own good, or a poor teacher of rights and liberties that I believe in. And I accept that some of these are simply the other side of the coin to an attribute that I feel is a strength. But that doesn't mean I can't or shouldn't try to improve upon those flaws.
6. How to get back into the habit of writing, and what I want to write, and what I want to do with my work.
7. The people I care about... you are always on my mind.
This is my winter song
December never felt so wrong
Cause you're not where you belong
...inside my arms~♥
I don't know what this says about me xD
Posted 12 years agohttp://www.cracked.com/blog/the-5-l.....f-as-skill_p2/
"The ocean is famous for being a harsh mistress, but let's not forget that, in many important respects, it's also quite a large mistress."
...this sentence aroused me far more than it should have. xD;;;
(Oh who am I kidding, I know exactly what it says about me. xD)
"The ocean is famous for being a harsh mistress, but let's not forget that, in many important respects, it's also quite a large mistress."
...this sentence aroused me far more than it should have. xD;;;
(Oh who am I kidding, I know exactly what it says about me. xD)
10 days of Confessions! (Day 3)
Posted 12 years agoThe days don't have to be consecutive, right? xD;;
Day 1: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day 2: Nine things about yourself.
Day 3: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day 4: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day 5: Six things you wish you'd never done.
Day 6: Five people who mean a lot to you (in no order whatsoever).
Day 7: Four turn-offs.
Day 8: Three turn-ons.
Day 9: Two emoticons that describe your life right now.
Day 10: One confession.
1. Be kind, compassionate, sympathetic, and understanding. I'm attracted to altruism and selflessness, and it's something I strive for myself. This includes not just tolerance but active understanding of non-"mainstream" people. Don't take the easy way out!
2. Be affectionate; hugs, snuggles, cuddles and kisses, pettings, nuzzles, rubs and squeezes! I'm a super affectionate boy, and being able to express that intimacy is really important to me! :3
3. Be gentle with me. I admit that I'm a bit high-maintenance and very sensitive, and there's only so much I can do about it. I can deal with the brusquer types if they've got a lot to offer, but I feel much more comfortable with people who can work with me on that issue.
4. Be honest. I trust easily, I don't deny that, and it's pretty hard to lose my trust. But honesty is one of the most important things to me, as part of the grander and more complicated facet of communication in general.
5. Be cute. ;-; I'm not talking physical appearance alone, just the general air of cute. Gah, I love cute so much. Cute things just beg to be hugged and loved!
6. Be sensual and sexually open. I love intimacy, and while the pure and simple connection is lovely, sometimes it can be fun to try silly naughty things! ^.^ I like people who are open to that kind of variety.
7. Be a lifelong learner. This one isn't quite as important as the others, but I love to learn new things and I shudder to imagine ever giving up on it. Fellow inquisitive minds attract me. ^.^
8. Be yourself! I really love people, and it's not hard for me to want to be close to someone. Chances are, I like you for you, you don't have to pretend to be someone else. :3
All these seeming "requirements"... but I really do fall for people pretty easily. ^^;;
Day 1: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day 2: Nine things about yourself.
Day 3: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day 4: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day 5: Six things you wish you'd never done.
Day 6: Five people who mean a lot to you (in no order whatsoever).
Day 7: Four turn-offs.
Day 8: Three turn-ons.
Day 9: Two emoticons that describe your life right now.
Day 10: One confession.
1. Be kind, compassionate, sympathetic, and understanding. I'm attracted to altruism and selflessness, and it's something I strive for myself. This includes not just tolerance but active understanding of non-"mainstream" people. Don't take the easy way out!
2. Be affectionate; hugs, snuggles, cuddles and kisses, pettings, nuzzles, rubs and squeezes! I'm a super affectionate boy, and being able to express that intimacy is really important to me! :3
3. Be gentle with me. I admit that I'm a bit high-maintenance and very sensitive, and there's only so much I can do about it. I can deal with the brusquer types if they've got a lot to offer, but I feel much more comfortable with people who can work with me on that issue.
4. Be honest. I trust easily, I don't deny that, and it's pretty hard to lose my trust. But honesty is one of the most important things to me, as part of the grander and more complicated facet of communication in general.
5. Be cute. ;-; I'm not talking physical appearance alone, just the general air of cute. Gah, I love cute so much. Cute things just beg to be hugged and loved!
6. Be sensual and sexually open. I love intimacy, and while the pure and simple connection is lovely, sometimes it can be fun to try silly naughty things! ^.^ I like people who are open to that kind of variety.
7. Be a lifelong learner. This one isn't quite as important as the others, but I love to learn new things and I shudder to imagine ever giving up on it. Fellow inquisitive minds attract me. ^.^
8. Be yourself! I really love people, and it's not hard for me to want to be close to someone. Chances are, I like you for you, you don't have to pretend to be someone else. :3
All these seeming "requirements"... but I really do fall for people pretty easily. ^^;;
Femboy raffle!
Posted 12 years agoFrom 
tktktk, whom I've had bookmarked for some time now. x3
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4843279/
Raffles are a great excuse to finally go through someone's gallery and watch them. xD
tktktk, whom I've had bookmarked for some time now. x3http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4843279/
Raffles are a great excuse to finally go through someone's gallery and watch them. xD
10 days of Confessions! (Day 2)
Posted 12 years agoDay 1: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day 2: Nine things about yourself.
Day 3: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day 4: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day 5: Six things you wish you'd never done.
Day 6: Five people who mean a lot to you (in no order whatsoever).
Day 7: Four turn-offs.
Day 8: Three turn-ons.
Day 9: Two emoticons that describe your life right now.
Day 10: One confession.
More meming. Still thetakogun's fault. x3 This... kinda turned into a running essay of sorts, which I guess works. xD
1. I want to get along with everybody. I know, I know, you can't. But it hurts me so much when I see that somebody and I can't be friends, when stupid differences keep me from getting close to so many people. I love people, I really do, and I wish people loved me. I don't mean that as an emo statement... plenty do, but the reality is that people in general never will. There are too many differences, too many blocks in people's minds about who their friends and enemies should be. It breaks my heart.
2. I don't bring this up often (see #1), but there isn't anything that makes me roll my eyes more than the claim that seems so popular amongst my generation: People are stupid. Oh, how stupid people are. Well the vast majority of the time when you look at another person and judge them to be stupid, it's because of hindsight. Hindsight is a logical fallacy that says that people think something that has occurred was more likely to happen all along, and we are very susceptible to it. Either that, or it's simply because someone disagrees with your opinion, or because you know something that nobody taught them, or an endless stream of other reasons. There are no stupid people. There are only people, and people do stupid things. You do, I do, all of us. It's the fatal flaw of being human.
3. Because of how ingrained the first and second things are to my being, I am constantly fretting about the best way to reconcile opposing beliefs. There are at least two camps to every issue, and it is deeply important to me in understanding why. Sometimes (rarely), it's simply because people have different opinions, or values, that's all. But usually it's that people have different beliefs about what the reality of a situation is. And almost always, the truth lies somewhere in between the talking heads. I find it incredibly important to seek that truth out, even when it's unattainable.
4. Because of #3, science is one of the most important things in the world to me. The one true human project for determining objectivity. I think it's the best thing that has ever happened to the world, and I wish it were central to every issue at hand today. The scientific process is beautiful and awe-inspiring to me (seriously), and its continued progress makes me optimistic about our future.
5. Because of #4, however, I find it very, very difficult to tolerate beliefs that are not scientifically supported, or people who dismiss sound science because it goes against their viewpoints, or pseudo-science and science-"inspired" ideas. It doesn't matter if it's something as simple as thinking that aspartame is a dangerous substance, or if someone uses vague ideas of quantum physics to weave New Age theories, or steadfastly gives me a single anecdotal story as if it is solid evidence against a body of scientific studies, it all makes me cringe.
6. I am very pro-science, and I am an atheist, but I am also a very spiritual person. Love is what gives me spiritual meaning. Love and intimacy are so important to me; there's nothing that makes me feel more alive and joyful than someone I care for, a bed, and hours of privacy. Whether that entails sex, or cuddling, or anything in between, it doesn't matter. I'm extremely affectionate for this reason, as well as #1.
7. There are enormous swaths of music that makes me cry, every time, usually with happiness. But then, I cry pretty easily in general.
8. When it comes to intimacy, I would rather give my partner an orgasm than have one myself. Giving my partner pleasure of any kind is what makes me happy.
9. I care about you, and I want you to be happy. Yes, you.
Day 2: Nine things about yourself.
Day 3: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day 4: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day 5: Six things you wish you'd never done.
Day 6: Five people who mean a lot to you (in no order whatsoever).
Day 7: Four turn-offs.
Day 8: Three turn-ons.
Day 9: Two emoticons that describe your life right now.
Day 10: One confession.
More meming. Still
thetakogun's fault. x3 This... kinda turned into a running essay of sorts, which I guess works. xD1. I want to get along with everybody. I know, I know, you can't. But it hurts me so much when I see that somebody and I can't be friends, when stupid differences keep me from getting close to so many people. I love people, I really do, and I wish people loved me. I don't mean that as an emo statement... plenty do, but the reality is that people in general never will. There are too many differences, too many blocks in people's minds about who their friends and enemies should be. It breaks my heart.
2. I don't bring this up often (see #1), but there isn't anything that makes me roll my eyes more than the claim that seems so popular amongst my generation: People are stupid. Oh, how stupid people are. Well the vast majority of the time when you look at another person and judge them to be stupid, it's because of hindsight. Hindsight is a logical fallacy that says that people think something that has occurred was more likely to happen all along, and we are very susceptible to it. Either that, or it's simply because someone disagrees with your opinion, or because you know something that nobody taught them, or an endless stream of other reasons. There are no stupid people. There are only people, and people do stupid things. You do, I do, all of us. It's the fatal flaw of being human.
3. Because of how ingrained the first and second things are to my being, I am constantly fretting about the best way to reconcile opposing beliefs. There are at least two camps to every issue, and it is deeply important to me in understanding why. Sometimes (rarely), it's simply because people have different opinions, or values, that's all. But usually it's that people have different beliefs about what the reality of a situation is. And almost always, the truth lies somewhere in between the talking heads. I find it incredibly important to seek that truth out, even when it's unattainable.
4. Because of #3, science is one of the most important things in the world to me. The one true human project for determining objectivity. I think it's the best thing that has ever happened to the world, and I wish it were central to every issue at hand today. The scientific process is beautiful and awe-inspiring to me (seriously), and its continued progress makes me optimistic about our future.
5. Because of #4, however, I find it very, very difficult to tolerate beliefs that are not scientifically supported, or people who dismiss sound science because it goes against their viewpoints, or pseudo-science and science-"inspired" ideas. It doesn't matter if it's something as simple as thinking that aspartame is a dangerous substance, or if someone uses vague ideas of quantum physics to weave New Age theories, or steadfastly gives me a single anecdotal story as if it is solid evidence against a body of scientific studies, it all makes me cringe.
6. I am very pro-science, and I am an atheist, but I am also a very spiritual person. Love is what gives me spiritual meaning. Love and intimacy are so important to me; there's nothing that makes me feel more alive and joyful than someone I care for, a bed, and hours of privacy. Whether that entails sex, or cuddling, or anything in between, it doesn't matter. I'm extremely affectionate for this reason, as well as #1.
7. There are enormous swaths of music that makes me cry, every time, usually with happiness. But then, I cry pretty easily in general.
8. When it comes to intimacy, I would rather give my partner an orgasm than have one myself. Giving my partner pleasure of any kind is what makes me happy.
9. I care about you, and I want you to be happy. Yes, you.
10 days of Confessions! (Day 1)
Posted 12 years agoYeah, I'm bored enough to do this. xD thetakogun's participation made me, so blame him. =P It's kinda cute though.
Day 1: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day 2: Nine things about yourself.
Day 3: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day 4: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day 5: Six things you wish you'd never done.
Day 6: Five people who mean a lot to you (in no order whatsoever).
Day 7: Four turn-offs.
Day 8: Three turn-ons.
Day 9: Two emoticons that describe your life right now.
Day 10: One confession.
And yes, I modified this cause I wanted to include two irreverant ones. xD So... here we are, twelve different things to twelve different people. xD
1. I wish you were here right now. I love you... I know some would disapprove of measuring love, but I love you more than anybody else in the world, and I expect I always will.
2. I wish you were here right now. I love you, and I'm still giddy that you're a tall redhead. xD But I trust you know it's not just your body that I like. <3
3. I wish you were available more often; I love spending time with you (especially for snuggles!), but of course your son comes first.
4. I can't wait for you to move over here! You seem like such a sweetheart, and I think we'll get along really well.
5. I could really fall for you... and I'd love to teach that cutie you're with the joys of boys. x3
6. I hope I haven't made things awkward for you by telling you my feelings. I'm glad I finally did it after all these years, but I worry what it might do to our friendship.
7. I hope that when the right time comes to tell you I'm poly, that you won't be hurt. I know it means you probably won't want a relationship with me, but I hope we can at least still be friends.
8. He isn't good for you.
9. I hate to say it, but you've lost my trust... and that is not an easy thing to do. I can't tell if you're rewriting history, if you honestly believe what you're telling me, or if it's actually true, but it doesn't matter—I don't know what to believe anymore, and I don't know any longer if you are a part of my future.
10. Why?
11. Thanks for listening to my rant about aspartame. xD I hope I didn't annoy you or your friend too much.
12. I know you just want to give your little girl the world, but I'm not just your little girl: I've got my own life, and I've got my own plans. I hope you understand and like the way that I am, cause I want your respect, and I want to be here. But I don't want to rule the Nightosphere.
It occurs to me that there's always the possibility of you, dear reader, wondering if you are one of "the bad ones." xD But rest assured, none of the subjects of those are watching me, or are even furries, for that matter.
thetakogun's participation made me, so blame him. =P It's kinda cute though.Day 1: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day 2: Nine things about yourself.
Day 3: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day 4: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day 5: Six things you wish you'd never done.
Day 6: Five people who mean a lot to you (in no order whatsoever).
Day 7: Four turn-offs.
Day 8: Three turn-ons.
Day 9: Two emoticons that describe your life right now.
Day 10: One confession.
And yes, I modified this cause I wanted to include two irreverant ones. xD So... here we are, twelve different things to twelve different people. xD
1. I wish you were here right now. I love you... I know some would disapprove of measuring love, but I love you more than anybody else in the world, and I expect I always will.
2. I wish you were here right now. I love you, and I'm still giddy that you're a tall redhead. xD But I trust you know it's not just your body that I like. <3
3. I wish you were available more often; I love spending time with you (especially for snuggles!), but of course your son comes first.
4. I can't wait for you to move over here! You seem like such a sweetheart, and I think we'll get along really well.
5. I could really fall for you... and I'd love to teach that cutie you're with the joys of boys. x3
6. I hope I haven't made things awkward for you by telling you my feelings. I'm glad I finally did it after all these years, but I worry what it might do to our friendship.
7. I hope that when the right time comes to tell you I'm poly, that you won't be hurt. I know it means you probably won't want a relationship with me, but I hope we can at least still be friends.
8. He isn't good for you.
9. I hate to say it, but you've lost my trust... and that is not an easy thing to do. I can't tell if you're rewriting history, if you honestly believe what you're telling me, or if it's actually true, but it doesn't matter—I don't know what to believe anymore, and I don't know any longer if you are a part of my future.
10. Why?
11. Thanks for listening to my rant about aspartame. xD I hope I didn't annoy you or your friend too much.
12. I know you just want to give your little girl the world, but I'm not just your little girl: I've got my own life, and I've got my own plans. I hope you understand and like the way that I am, cause I want your respect, and I want to be here. But I don't want to rule the Nightosphere.
It occurs to me that there's always the possibility of you, dear reader, wondering if you are one of "the bad ones." xD But rest assured, none of the subjects of those are watching me, or are even furries, for that matter.
Well that's a cute trick, Skype
Posted 12 years agoOkay, so very occasionally I have to block a person who is being horrible to me. x.x What can I say, it happens.
Only had one person blocked, a pretty awful Skype contact that I get sick of looking at whenever I poke through the options and see the blocklist, and I figured it shouldn't matter to actively block them anymore, since I already have everything set to "only those on my contact list can contact me."
So I delete/unblock, right? No problem, they aren't on my contact list.
...until Skype sees that I've unblocked them and OH SO HELPFULLY adds them back to my contact list. x_____x
Thank the gods they weren't online, at least.
Only had one person blocked, a pretty awful Skype contact that I get sick of looking at whenever I poke through the options and see the blocklist, and I figured it shouldn't matter to actively block them anymore, since I already have everything set to "only those on my contact list can contact me."
So I delete/unblock, right? No problem, they aren't on my contact list.
...until Skype sees that I've unblocked them and OH SO HELPFULLY adds them back to my contact list. x_____x
Thank the gods they weren't online, at least.
To be (amused and subsequently disgusted) or not to be
Posted 12 years agoSaw two things tonight—one funny, one disgusting—that in retrospect... weren't really funny or gross at all. I think?
(Not) Funny: Pizza Hut delivery car in the drivethrough for the fast food restaurant I went to. xD?
(Not) Disgusting: Guy who appeared to wash/rinse his hands under the soda fountain's water spout inside said fast food restaurant. xP?
(Not) Funny: Pizza Hut delivery car in the drivethrough for the fast food restaurant I went to. xD?
(Not) Disgusting: Guy who appeared to wash/rinse his hands under the soda fountain's water spout inside said fast food restaurant. xP?
Am I a nudist yet?
Posted 12 years agoSo since it was freaking 100° today, I moved the A/C downstairs to my computer room, and it had an enormous reservoir of disgusting, oily condensation for some reason... I've moved it before and that's never been a problem, so I dunno why, but there were literally just cups and cups and cups of brown disgusting water everywhere, on the bed, on my floor, on my clothes...
So since I'm alone here, I've been chilling around the house in nothing but my socks while that gets clean, and... I gotta say... I really like it. xD Can I just keep doing this? I used to be super embarrassed about being naked, but I've lost a bunch of weight since then. I mean, I'm still fat, but still.
It's so comfy!
So since I'm alone here, I've been chilling around the house in nothing but my socks while that gets clean, and... I gotta say... I really like it. xD Can I just keep doing this? I used to be super embarrassed about being naked, but I've lost a bunch of weight since then. I mean, I'm still fat, but still.
It's so comfy!
Trans Pride!
Posted 12 years agoWent to Trans Pride today! It was really awesome and made me very happy. ^.^ And there was only one of those really loud people there, so I liked that.
It was such a great turnout, more than my lover or I expected! I had one of the best days I've had in a long time. ^.^ It went great. <3
It was such a great turnout, more than my lover or I expected! I had one of the best days I've had in a long time. ^.^ It went great. <3
For anybody who communicates with me online...
Posted 12 years agoI do have a connection but, uh, communication is going to be difficult for awhile, because, well...
http://i.imgur.com/H2HoYZD.jpg
http://i.imgur.com/H2HoYZD.jpg
Greetings from Seattle!
Posted 12 years agoHi furs!
Taking a trip to Seattle to meet some great people (and visit my lover). Seattle is such a wonderful place, though downtown is a bit busy for me to be frequenting it often. Someone help me out here though; there are all these arterial streets that looks like they have a far right lane, but there are cars parked in it. Is it... is it a lane? Or just a dotted line cordoning off the parking strip, for some reason?
Finally meeting someone incredibly sweet whom I've been meaning to meet for like, two years now. <3 Should be fun!
Taking a trip to Seattle to meet some great people (and visit my lover). Seattle is such a wonderful place, though downtown is a bit busy for me to be frequenting it often. Someone help me out here though; there are all these arterial streets that looks like they have a far right lane, but there are cars parked in it. Is it... is it a lane? Or just a dotted line cordoning off the parking strip, for some reason?
Finally meeting someone incredibly sweet whom I've been meaning to meet for like, two years now. <3 Should be fun!
Smart move, Microsoft
Posted 12 years agoWhat do you do when a prejudice starts to invade your mind?
Posted 12 years agohttp://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4748831/
Drama drama drama, etc. I'm not really here to comment on the issue, I would expect everyone to know where I stand.
But one thing that I cannot help but notice is the absolutely shocking homophobia from a terrifying amount of Russian furries in this thread. And now, I find myself looking at the Russian furs on my watchlist, and I can't help but wonder... is this another one of those angry, ignorant people? I suddenly find myself balking when I see Cyrillic, I'm suddenly looking through Russian furs' galleries and feeling extremely uneasy when there is no homosexual art.
...and needless to say, the fact that these reactions are building in me makes me very uncomfortable. Thanks to whatever cultural aspect of Russia that has been building so many virulently anti-gay individuals, I now associate Russians with homophobia. And that is not good, especially not when that homophobia is only coming to light because of all of those who are supporting gay rights in Russia, straight or otherwise.
But I fear my inability to control my emotional response to it. What do you do when you know, intellectually, that thoughts or feelings are prejudiced, but you can't stop them from coming anyways?
Drama drama drama, etc. I'm not really here to comment on the issue, I would expect everyone to know where I stand.
But one thing that I cannot help but notice is the absolutely shocking homophobia from a terrifying amount of Russian furries in this thread. And now, I find myself looking at the Russian furs on my watchlist, and I can't help but wonder... is this another one of those angry, ignorant people? I suddenly find myself balking when I see Cyrillic, I'm suddenly looking through Russian furs' galleries and feeling extremely uneasy when there is no homosexual art.
...and needless to say, the fact that these reactions are building in me makes me very uncomfortable. Thanks to whatever cultural aspect of Russia that has been building so many virulently anti-gay individuals, I now associate Russians with homophobia. And that is not good, especially not when that homophobia is only coming to light because of all of those who are supporting gay rights in Russia, straight or otherwise.
But I fear my inability to control my emotional response to it. What do you do when you know, intellectually, that thoughts or feelings are prejudiced, but you can't stop them from coming anyways?
You pervs~♥
Posted 12 years agoI'm terribly amused that over this weekend, I've suddenly gotten a few new faves on, oh let's see, these exact pics and no others.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8893180/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9390614/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10544022/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8693389/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10526186/
Belated happy Father's Day. xD
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8893180/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9390614/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10544022/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8693389/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10526186/
Belated happy Father's Day. xD
To all artists
Posted 12 years agoo.o I dunno how well this thing works, but the concept is brilliant:
http://shutupandtakemymoney.com/digital-sketch-pen/
http://shutupandtakemymoney.com/digital-sketch-pen/
Back home, thinking about poly (too much)
Posted 12 years agoBack from driving through Alaska/Canada/Idaho with thetakogun. He's off now to the rest of his trip down to Arizona. I miss him so much already... =(
I want to say something else here, but I just... can't find a good way to express it, I guess. Part of it is because I've always really tried to keep from complaining and saying sad or particularly emotional things from my journals. I mean, if I have something to say, I can say it directly to my friends. Putting it up here just feels odd, and... attention-seeking. But I don't think that when reading many other furs' journals along the same line, I just think they're venting. It's just hard not to see that in my own writing.
I dunno. Suffice to say, I miss being with my loved ones. I'm still afraid of my decision that I am poly, and still uncertain of it. It also comes with an immense palette of new responsibilities.
Concerns.
My life's direction.
Will I look back on myself and laugh at this "phase" when I'm older? Will I get stuck in this lifestyle, and regret going this path? Am I poly just because I so well fit the anxious-preoccupied model of attachment?
Logistics.
Is this something I tell my family? The ones who become very close to me I still want to introduce to my family... it's going to be hard to hide the fact if I'm introducing multiple people to them, but still telling them, "No, I didn't break up with LastPerson."
And what about being near my loved ones? They're currently somewhat spread around the country... is it always going to be like that? I can only afford and find time to visit them so often, and that's without the commitment of a job.
Love.
There's only one person in my life right now whom I truly love as more than a friend, and it's because I was able to let things grow with him. I do not believe love diminishes with multiple people, but available time does diminish, and the less time you can spend with someone, the longer it takes for those deeper bonds to form. Is that what I'm stuck with now? A group of people whom I care for but may never truly love simply because I don't have the time, money, energy, etc. to commit to them long enough to fall in love?
Jealousy.
Jealousy is odd for me. In a committed relationship where someone is nearby, compersion is easy for me. I love to see a mutual friend and a lover get along. But when I don't even know the person? Well, it gets exponentially more difficult. And I probably can't simply know all of them.
Differing standards.
Related to jealousy... I generally am only intimate with people when I truly care for them, at least as more than just a friend. My friend with benefits is far emotionally closer to me than most other people I call friends, though many of my friends could easily be closer than they are, as well. But some of the people I care for really do simply have sex with friends. Some have sex with strangers. And while that doesn't change the fact that I care for these people, it makes me... very, very uncomfortable. I don't know what, if anything, to do about that.
STDs and STIs.
Yes, this is a real concern. Love and sex are wonderful, but they both come with risks. Love's concerns may be handled with emotional maturity, and there's at least a certain beauty in heartbreak and strife that mitigates the pain, I believe.
But the ramifications of sex are much less pretty and graceful, and handling them is all about responsibility and the capabilities of medicine. And being poly means I'm significantly more at risk for those ramifications, no matter how careful I am. I could go further into this, but I won't.
They're all things in my head right now. Really though, at the moment, I guess I'm just lonely. All the people in my life, reaching out and connecting to me at various moments, sometimes briefly, sometimes longer, but sometimes I worry that it will never be enough.
thetakogun. He's off now to the rest of his trip down to Arizona. I miss him so much already... =(I want to say something else here, but I just... can't find a good way to express it, I guess. Part of it is because I've always really tried to keep from complaining and saying sad or particularly emotional things from my journals. I mean, if I have something to say, I can say it directly to my friends. Putting it up here just feels odd, and... attention-seeking. But I don't think that when reading many other furs' journals along the same line, I just think they're venting. It's just hard not to see that in my own writing.
I dunno. Suffice to say, I miss being with my loved ones. I'm still afraid of my decision that I am poly, and still uncertain of it. It also comes with an immense palette of new responsibilities.
Concerns.
My life's direction.
Will I look back on myself and laugh at this "phase" when I'm older? Will I get stuck in this lifestyle, and regret going this path? Am I poly just because I so well fit the anxious-preoccupied model of attachment?
Logistics.
Is this something I tell my family? The ones who become very close to me I still want to introduce to my family... it's going to be hard to hide the fact if I'm introducing multiple people to them, but still telling them, "No, I didn't break up with LastPerson."
And what about being near my loved ones? They're currently somewhat spread around the country... is it always going to be like that? I can only afford and find time to visit them so often, and that's without the commitment of a job.
Love.
There's only one person in my life right now whom I truly love as more than a friend, and it's because I was able to let things grow with him. I do not believe love diminishes with multiple people, but available time does diminish, and the less time you can spend with someone, the longer it takes for those deeper bonds to form. Is that what I'm stuck with now? A group of people whom I care for but may never truly love simply because I don't have the time, money, energy, etc. to commit to them long enough to fall in love?
Jealousy.
Jealousy is odd for me. In a committed relationship where someone is nearby, compersion is easy for me. I love to see a mutual friend and a lover get along. But when I don't even know the person? Well, it gets exponentially more difficult. And I probably can't simply know all of them.
Differing standards.
Related to jealousy... I generally am only intimate with people when I truly care for them, at least as more than just a friend. My friend with benefits is far emotionally closer to me than most other people I call friends, though many of my friends could easily be closer than they are, as well. But some of the people I care for really do simply have sex with friends. Some have sex with strangers. And while that doesn't change the fact that I care for these people, it makes me... very, very uncomfortable. I don't know what, if anything, to do about that.
STDs and STIs.
Yes, this is a real concern. Love and sex are wonderful, but they both come with risks. Love's concerns may be handled with emotional maturity, and there's at least a certain beauty in heartbreak and strife that mitigates the pain, I believe.
But the ramifications of sex are much less pretty and graceful, and handling them is all about responsibility and the capabilities of medicine. And being poly means I'm significantly more at risk for those ramifications, no matter how careful I am. I could go further into this, but I won't.
They're all things in my head right now. Really though, at the moment, I guess I'm just lonely. All the people in my life, reaching out and connecting to me at various moments, sometimes briefly, sometimes longer, but sometimes I worry that it will never be enough.
Greetings, from Canada! (Also, a raffle!)
Posted 12 years agoBeen riding shotgun with thetakogun for the past two days as he drives himself from Fairbanks, AK allll the way down to Arizona! ^_^ I've been offering morale support, company, and my fine taste in musical playlist selection! :D
I have to say, you Canadian furs have damned beautiful and unspoiled swaths of country, at least way up north. (I can't speak for the rest of the country, but I'm sure it's lovely. <3) We spent literally hours driving through the Yukon territory without seeing a single sign of human habitation aside from the (surprisingly well-maintained) road upon which we drove; justmiles and miles kilometers and kilometers of gorgeous forests, lakes, and marshes strewn across hills and valleys. We saw lots of sweet little brown bears, some bighorn sheep, lots of bison (with adorable little calves, omg), and a beaver that I missed. :c It was wonderful, though.
...that being said, it's downright terrifying to blow a tire in the middle of all this nature when it's literally been multiple hours since you've seen so much as a tiny little shack, and you know you're about 300 km to the nearest town. One of the perils of having an average of only one person for every 14km². ^^;;
But we had our tiny, tough little spare tire, and while it struck a blow to the good time we'd been making so far, we made it to Fort Nelson just fine (juuuust after midnight, when all the restaurants closed).
In other news, you guys should enter my puppy's raffle! :3 http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4683122/ Get a chance for some special time with the red wolf Theta or Epsilon, or bird-dog Arcadian!
Also, OMG people, read through the directions, there's only one furry who's actually followed them. >.>;;
thetakogun for the past two days as he drives himself from Fairbanks, AK allll the way down to Arizona! ^_^ I've been offering morale support, company, and my fine taste in musical playlist selection! :DI have to say, you Canadian furs have damned beautiful and unspoiled swaths of country, at least way up north. (I can't speak for the rest of the country, but I'm sure it's lovely. <3) We spent literally hours driving through the Yukon territory without seeing a single sign of human habitation aside from the (surprisingly well-maintained) road upon which we drove; just
...that being said, it's downright terrifying to blow a tire in the middle of all this nature when it's literally been multiple hours since you've seen so much as a tiny little shack, and you know you're about 300 km to the nearest town. One of the perils of having an average of only one person for every 14km². ^^;;
But we had our tiny, tough little spare tire, and while it struck a blow to the good time we'd been making so far, we made it to Fort Nelson just fine (juuuust after midnight, when all the restaurants closed).
In other news, you guys should enter my puppy's raffle! :3 http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4683122/ Get a chance for some special time with the red wolf Theta or Epsilon, or bird-dog Arcadian!
Also, OMG people, read through the directions, there's only one furry who's actually followed them. >.>;;
~Friends and Lovers~
Posted 12 years agoWhen I was a kid, and growing up in a strict Catholic school, it was a given to me that one day, I would meet some lovely person, get married, and live out the rest of my life in wedded bliss with them. Other things Catholic school tried to instill fell away pretty quickly as I grew older and began to question how they became part of me to begin with. (I never actually believed them; they were simply expected of me.) But through it all, I had the same matter-of-fact conceptions about what my relationships should be like.
Over these last three or four years, I've learned how much I adore people. <3 Of course, there are always those I won't get along with, not to mention the selfish, bigoted, or willfully ignorant. But I still care for them, too. In realizing my feelings, I decided to try forging more connections. When I began searching, I discovered so many personalities I wanted to get to know! Especially, well, intimately. Soon, potential experience gave way to practical experience, and I found that my desires weren't just theoretical.
But through all of it, I never put away that idea of settling down with my one true love, someday. I certainly wasn't sleeping around with strangers, but I also didn't see myself as looking for love. As such, I also never considered myself polyamorous, something that was okay for others, but not for me. I'd often said in the past that "if I died and went to hell right now, I'd be in a poly relationship." But a lot has happened since then. I met some actual self-identified polyamorists, and realized many of my notions of polyamory were not typical. More significantly, last week I began another new relationship, one with more emotional depth than I'd experienced since becoming single. And it got me thinking.
As of this writing, I have a friend with benefits, an ex I still love, a possible boyfriend on the horizon, and a new person in my life whom I call my lover. And I care for all of them deeply. I don't want to give any of them up, I want to let things last for as long as they are positive experiences. And yes, people may come and go, and each relationship may have its own terms and conditions——but there's nothing wrong with that.
I love people. So many have touched my life and made me feel special, and when they do, I feel attracted to them. I want to reciprocate, get closer to them, and show them how much I care. Sex is certainly not the only way to do that, and absolutely not all I want with them; I greatly value other types of intimacy as well. But it is still a wonderful thing that begets deeper connections, and gives me a chance to make my affection tangible. I'll remember these people and our time together forever. I know that seems saccharine and romanticized, but it's true. I am not necessarily "in love" with all of them, but they are more to me than close friends. These are wonderful individuals, and I want them to feel good, happy. Every one of them.
If you made it through my lengthy monologue, thanks for reading. Take care, all. <3
Over these last three or four years, I've learned how much I adore people. <3 Of course, there are always those I won't get along with, not to mention the selfish, bigoted, or willfully ignorant. But I still care for them, too. In realizing my feelings, I decided to try forging more connections. When I began searching, I discovered so many personalities I wanted to get to know! Especially, well, intimately. Soon, potential experience gave way to practical experience, and I found that my desires weren't just theoretical.
But through all of it, I never put away that idea of settling down with my one true love, someday. I certainly wasn't sleeping around with strangers, but I also didn't see myself as looking for love. As such, I also never considered myself polyamorous, something that was okay for others, but not for me. I'd often said in the past that "if I died and went to hell right now, I'd be in a poly relationship." But a lot has happened since then. I met some actual self-identified polyamorists, and realized many of my notions of polyamory were not typical. More significantly, last week I began another new relationship, one with more emotional depth than I'd experienced since becoming single. And it got me thinking.
As of this writing, I have a friend with benefits, an ex I still love, a possible boyfriend on the horizon, and a new person in my life whom I call my lover. And I care for all of them deeply. I don't want to give any of them up, I want to let things last for as long as they are positive experiences. And yes, people may come and go, and each relationship may have its own terms and conditions——but there's nothing wrong with that.
I love people. So many have touched my life and made me feel special, and when they do, I feel attracted to them. I want to reciprocate, get closer to them, and show them how much I care. Sex is certainly not the only way to do that, and absolutely not all I want with them; I greatly value other types of intimacy as well. But it is still a wonderful thing that begets deeper connections, and gives me a chance to make my affection tangible. I'll remember these people and our time together forever. I know that seems saccharine and romanticized, but it's true. I am not necessarily "in love" with all of them, but they are more to me than close friends. These are wonderful individuals, and I want them to feel good, happy. Every one of them.
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This is who I am. And it's still new and different to me, and a little bit scary to think about... I've been holding on to a very different relationship ideal for a long time. But despite being frightening, it feels right.
If you made it through my lengthy monologue, thanks for reading. Take care, all. <3
