The past year has been crazy. It all feels like one huge trip. Even now i am tripping.

But a lot has happened and yet noting has happened this year.

I finally beat depression to the ground. Those dark days now was really a waste of time that i could used better. But oh well, you have to crawl before you can walk.

As i got up and started to walk i became more clear, i see things that i never saw before.

Any of you guys know anything about meditation?
It's a thing that i really want to do but just reading about it doesn't help too much, specially on the web.
Anybody with the experience maybe have some tips or something that they can share with me?

on Tuesday i saw snow for the first time in my life. It wasn't much but snow shouldn't be here at all!


Damn... These days I'm so stoned i don't know what goes for what. But it's great! Feeling alive.

My mother brought for me some awesome Ganja today that fucked me up.

I'm learning to draw so any good websites to look at? Pretty soon I'll post a pic that i'm drawing of my new fursona. My friend i live with is teaching me to draw a little. So any advice would be great.

I'm tired of having a plain boring fursona that i make up in a half and hour. So can anybody give me some tips of making a nice fursona?
I'd like to be a half lizard and a steen bok combo. So any advice please?

Whats up with the world of today?
Everybody steals money without any say.
They get away and don't even pay.
The world is going downhill everyday.

People fight eachother while we kill the planet.
Bombs fall to our soil every minute.
Evil attatched to us tightly like two magnets.

We should bright out our inner peace.
Can't we put away our evil sides for a time please?
when we work together as one we will have all the keys.
To unlock a green advanced world thats not attatched to a leash.

Put love together for a better future.
Put aside the constant torture.
Each of us should live ours lifes while we draw breath.

The world can be a cold place.
Everythings goes at a fast pace.
At night you might be killed without a trace.
You will loose life with such grace.

Money is the main cause of our everyday pain.
Without it we will go insane.
Humans want gold more heavy for even a craine.

Wish we could just be free and live in peace.

Why does hate follow me like iron to a magnet.
My nose snow white from my straw and plate.
hatefull humans kicked me through this dreaded gate.
Now I'm stumbling around alone as it's a planned fate.
Some friends tried to save me but it is years late.

Wish i could really explain on how i feel.
But i can't because this pain is what i have to deal.
My soul starts to peal away as the darkness consume me everyday.
I really dont know how to explain or what to say.

Life is so lonely and full of hate.
Being good at noting and being looked down at.
Emptiness and being worthless is what i am everyday.
Making mistakes day by day.
Wondering alone, always on my own mission.
Getting drunk or high is what takes the pain away.

looking at the sky is all that gives me hope.
Looking at the stars as they help me to cope.
I imagine falling of a mountian slope.
Merry jane is my dope.
She makes my brain right without any fout.

Feeling the warmth of the sun on my skin is all that makes me feel warm.
The beams so bright.
I'm loosing my life without any kind of fight.

Day by day i empty bottles of wine.
Smoking my weed likes it's not a crime.
Smoking my pipe and the feeling of a throught full of slime.
Making a strange alcoholic drink that looks like lime.
When i'm high or drunk is the only time i feel fine.

Each night i want to cry but my eyes are too dry to try.
I'm so used to the pain i could just die.
Time passed by.
So quick to even to think of a lie.

As i said i wish i could explain my feelings.
But being forced into this hate i don't think i got any feelings left.
I'm hollow as a nut without the nut.
I'm into the shadows.
Nobody wants to look at me really.

Buts thats it. I wish i could be among the stars.
To be one of the suns that burns bright.
To bright day to the cold night.
To bright sight to those who want to fight.
To win with all of my might.

I'm now a steenbok but the name is the same.
A halfbreed steenbok with a fox. I'm working on a new story too that connects with exiled dragon.

I feel great now that i have a job. I work at a car workshop so i ill smell like oil. So far i get 100rand a day.

Every day i cry.
But my tears are so dry.
My soul has gone away.
I have noting inside so why do i even try?
So many years has gone by and i'm still empty till this day.

All i've got left is the THC left in my husk of a body.
Its giving me some hope in this life.
Some meaning with thoughts of happiness for a short while.
I'd be suprized if i could walk an extra mile.
If i could walk and not be eaten by a crocodile.

But with dry tears even a croc would leave me be.
To suffer for another day, one step at a time.
All i really need is some love to bring my tears back alive.
All i need is love to bring back my kind soul of mine.

I know that finding it will never happen and i continue to cry dry tears

Where has all the good times gone to?
The earth is going downhill and there is noting that i can do.
Where are the days that the water were blue?
The ice on the mountians are melting and i know this is true.

The soil is getting weaker untill noting can grow.
As we destroy the forests our oxygen is getting low.
We stand back and watch as the poison in our air flow.
Whe spend our time fighting and killing eachother.

We humans are like a black plauge on a pure world.

But i know this planet will survive.
Everything will come back to life.
Our planet had worse things and had a worse strife.

Im waiting for the clear waters and skies.
It will happen as soon as our bad ideas dies.
Ive seen the earth in ages past.
We will live free with no lies.

I saw the great ice storm came by.
Many things will die.
Can we save this land?
Why dont we even try?
So many creatures perish in the sand.
Why is it that man is intend to lie.
The world is in a constant cry.

Is there a way for this lonliness to end? I swear i cant take it anymose. My heart feels heavy. It pains littarly. Such a real pain i cant get rid of.

Well im learning to play the guitar, im learning it quite fast. I even made a song without me knowing. All i need is lyrics for it and perfecting to play it.

Peace to all of you

Okay! Well ive started on making a new hostile fur space story. This time im gonna make it in a full story series with a lot of changes since my crappy one. I'ts going to be a sci-fi adventure with fantasy. And its going to start by my home planet.

Part 3 is almost finished.

Well i thought about changing my fursona and my self thought lizard race with a tiny change. Im going to add a third eye on the fore head.

Yep, i wont post anything here anymore. Just wasteing my time when i do. I found a better place to post my stories and poems now. Im even gonna write a part 3 of my exiled dragon story which i didnt even planned to do untill people wanted one! And it wasnt here!

Hey again fur peeps... -noms- mmmm! Hold on... -noms again and mumbles with a full mouth then swallows- damn what a meal! Have you ever tried human fingers fried in butter with tomato and union? Its to die for!

But anyway thats not what i wanted to tell you. I've updated my profile and all but one thing seems to be missing... -quickly shows my empty pockets- umm yeah... I need a new image.. a new avatar but i aint got no money. Would anybody be kind enough to help this reptile? Ill write you a nice poem or something... Or! I put you in as a charecter in my new story.

Okay! Well furies! I started to write the prologue of my new story. But i am sad to see that part two of exiled dragon is as dead as a dead man that i use as a chair.

I hope this new story will be better then my first crap story.

Thanks for reading.

A new story called "warrior for Ssol.Ar" not a story for puny kids of for the faint of heard as there will be lots of blood and guts and eating of the evil flesh hehehehehehahahahaha. So! In this year or next year it will be for reading man. Stay tuned for the evil and reptiles beautiful writing man and woman. I say read it or ill kill you! And eat you dirty filthy humans! Cuz im the shit!

In life things happen so fast.
No matter what you do things never last.
So end life now and put your mother in a cast.

Life is so great that i dont need a date.
I wont need another mate as thats my fate.
Shhh... Im luring this human in with bait.

Got ya now!
Im going to make you fatter then a fat cow.
And im going to feed you to my big cat called moew meow.

She would love that fat and bloody guts.
Each time she smells a human she goes nuts.

But anyway i also got a pet bear.
See him outside the window there?
Hes busy chowing on tony blair.
Ohhh! Look at that! Hes tairing of his head by pulling on his fake hair.

But thats all for my side.
This crazy lizard dude wont die even if i died.
Ill just come back as the undead and continue the big fight.

Well my stop mom promiced me a job and my own place. Im going to live in a one room apartment by myself. And im going to be an car engineer aprentance. Im also going to try to learn the digiroo (i know i cant spell)

I just woke from a whole day of hard drinking with my dad and i woke up feeling great with no hangover! Also me and my dad had deep talks, must be why im also feeling so great.

In other news, my niece has about a week to go before giving birth to a girl.

Its finnaly finished with a lot of weed, alcohol and Bob marley. All i need is money to upload it. Its not that interisting but part 3 will have action in it and a human raid. Near death and romance ^^

all i need for part 3 is more weed, alcohol and Bob marley :-P