The nights and days grow longer without my loving rabbit to love me. I don't know what i should do now. I cry every night when i think back about the good times we shared. I can't believe how foolish i am. I miss him greatly. My heart it broken pieces. My soul is weakening. Life is escaping. What should i do do. My ex lovers smile keep apearing in my mind. Haunting me so. Bringing tears to my eyes. All i wanted for him is to be happy. And i hope he is happy now. It's all i want. If i am to never get him back i shall walk this dying earth alone. Being in the shadows watching from afar. Becuse he made me feel so alive and now i am dead yet again.

Ive lost everything thats dear to me. My most loved soul mate is gone by a simple mistake that i made. My computer and some of my important gifts were stolen. Things that are dear to me are gone. I only have my life thats worth noting. Ive got noting left. Everything that i worked to achive is gone. My soul is empty now. My life is in ruin. I dont see any point of living anymore. But i will keep on living

I'm so amazed with you people. You people are so social. I don't know how you people do it. You people can talk to anyone with out fear. You people can talk endlessly is groups. Making up jokes so fast. You people must be really quick minded. And those people that are online a lot that post messages everyday on forums and blogs and stuff. How do you people do that? I've seen people with over a 1000 forum posts. How do you know what to say in those forums? Or how do you think up topics and stuff like that? It's amazing.

You people have like no fear. You go up to one another and give hugs and kisses. You people can also sing and dance. Not afraid of what other people might think of you. I'm really amazed. You people can also visit friends on your own will, go to group gatherings and party like you people do.


I also seen a lot of narrow minded people. I think more then 50% of them are in the higher class. I just call them "drones" They seem to go though life on a breeze most of the time i think? Well i call them drones because they they are quite closed minded. They think in a box and let other people like the media, government and religion think for them and bring up all the answers for them. They are born and they die, they eat, they sleep, they marry then maybe 60% divorce? Most of them work little and get paid so much.

Well that is all for my thoughts for today. This is just rough observations. So please don't bite off my head for a small detail that wrong or something is untrue on what i said. I don't really care. All what i said means noting to nobody. It's just there. My thoughts drifting inside of the internet.

I have seen you people making a huge fuss about something that means noting.

Like for example you might had made a simple spelling mistake in an essay or something then some people go crazy about it and just want to start a meaningless fight about noting.


I'm done

First off my internet has been running on a very low level. A low vibe. My messengers won't sign in.
Not even web messengers.

I am also maybe but i will move to Pretoria in about 6-7 days or maybe 8-9 days. My father have a new girl friend and she lives in Pretoria. Well i am actually happy my dad met her otherwise id have no place to stay in the future. The main reason why me and my father is moving there is because my dad got fired from his job here from blowing red at the front gate. My dad simply can't afford this place anymore. But there is always bigger opportunities in bigger places? I am going to do my best to get a job there too.

Hostile fur space is on hold for a while. I am getting great ideas for it though and i am writing them down. So I am going to wait to settle down a bit in a new place. But i will work on it on small bits though. Expect the undead there too. Undead in space! Only one undead creature though.

I also observed our world for the past few days that i get the feeling that the world is going to change somehow in the next few years maybe. Like society is going to change. Like almost noting is going to be the same anymore. We can all admit the world has gone wrong. But so little effort is made by us to make this place a better place. instead we go out and kill each other for crazy things and believes. Maybe the world might be a better place if the entire world unite? Maybe under one stable government that isn't a democracy? Less fighting i think. And maybe more peace which means faster advances in tech and then maybe we can explore the stars as a whole. But i as i said maybe a change is coming. Might be good or bad. It might not even come at all. Maybe i am just tired and high on too much coffee? Coffee sure does taste good.

For now i am going to take a good hard sleep and hope my internet is working better when i wake up.

I have a runny nose and a painful cough, My chest and throat really hurts like hell, each time i want to drink my throat hurts even more. With a big cough i can taste blood in the back of my mouth. I hope this is just a normal cold.

I hope you will at least look at the website and or give other people the website :)

http://myworld.ebay.com/dominicus8

All the money will go to his grandparents who are one of the hurricane Katrina survivors. There will be new stuff almost everyday.

So come down and look at the lovely selection ^^

Though at the moment i don't see any items on sale yet. But don't go away! Stay tuned and be updated!

I have been wondering if a guy from out of south Africa and they marry a guy in south Africa will they become a citizen of south Africa?

Well, who knows about aspartame? It's found in diet products and dried food stuff. It's actually a deadly poison. It gives you severe health problems and brain tumors. so i will list two websites and hope you all who read them will stop the use of products with the chemical called aspartame.

www.dorway.com
www.sweetpoison.com/aspartame-side-effects.html

All is well with me. Less drama and less sadness for me! I'm a happy little gecko finally!

Yesterday i got sick for some reason. It started with stomach pain and now my head hurts and i feel weak and sleepy. yesterday i slept for more then 15 hours i think. I just feel so weird. Last night my joints really started to hurt. After a few hours i felt fine but now my head and stomach hurts again. I don't want to eat or drink anything. I just want to sleep. *Yawn* And i feel very very warm!

1. Your Name:

2. Age:

3. Fave Color:

4. Are you a virgin?

5. Are we friends?

Do you have a crush on me?

7. Would you take care of me when I'm sick?

8. Do you want to tell me something that you couldn't before?

9. Would you walk on the beach with me?

10. If you heard a rumor about me, would you defend me?

11. Do you talk about me?

12. Do you think I'm a good person?

13. Would you change anything about me?

14. If you could ask one question, what would it be?

15. Would you come over for no reason just to hang out?

16. Where do you live? if US what state?

17. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?

It is my birthday. I am 20 now.

What a damn boring day. Also damn tired. Does anybody know good games maybe? Free online games i can play?

Also January this year i am turning 20. I sure am getting old. Only like yesterday i can remember doing things when i was small boy and counting off days till i was an adult but, it happened so quickly.

My fears.. :

[X] public speaking
[x] staying single forever
[x] Rejection
[ ] being a parent
[ ] giving birth
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces
[ ] heights
[ ] dogs
[ ] fish
[ ] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants
[ ] that scary guy
[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
[ ] deep water
[ ] snakes
[ ] silk
[ ] the ocean
[x] failure
[ ] success
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[ ] rats
[ ] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] crossing hanging bridges
[ ] death
[ ] heaven
[x] being robbed
[ ] falling
[ ] clowns
[ ] dolls
[x] large crowds of people
[ ] men
[ ] women
[ ] having great responsibilities
[ ] doctors, including dentists
[ ] tornadoes
[ ] hurricanes
[ ] incurable diseases
[ ] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] ghosts
[x] poverty
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[ ] being alone
[x] becoming blind
[x] becoming deaf
[ ] growing up
[ ] creepy noises in the night
[ ] bee stings
[ ] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[ ] needles
[ ] blood
[ ] dinosaurs
[ ] the welcome mat
[ ] high speed
[ ] throwing up
[ ] falling in love
[ ] super secret



If you wish to post this in your journal, it's been requested that you title it I'm afraid of __ out of 75 common fears. (Blahblahblah.. I DIDN'T LISTEN, HAH.)

If you get more than 30, I strongly recommend some counseling.
If you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.
If you get 10-20, you are normal.
If you get 10 or less, you're fearless.
People who don’t have any are liars.

I believe in palm readers and psychic abilities from now on! My dad's and his gf's friend has this special abilities. She held my hand tightly and she read me like a book then she read my palm and even more read me like a book! I was freaked out. She doesn't even know me or anything. I was really amazed.

Wow! I'm tired! Need coffee! But no sugar! No coffee... What can i do? My head hurts! Can't think straight! So sleepy...

I came back from the furmeet, I'll post the little pictures i have of the meet. I really loved being there.

i almost thought i was spitting out blood, almost thought i might had lung cancer or something but it was just the tomato juice that was left over in my mouth, when i spitted some red blood like stuff was in my spit, almost worried there.

my internet is expiring in about a few minutes. i will be back in a few days, i still will be on IM's though but not on the pc.