Now taking applications for riding companions to FC. We (myself and Michael Lugo) will be renting an SUV to drive to FC, and should have some space for one or two people to ride with. we will leave early early Thrusday morning, and return Monday night. the expectation is for you to help with the cost of gas and car rental. (3 people will be 120 a piece + gas, 4 people will be 90 a piece + gas) It will be a 12 - 14 hour drive, smokers are okay, but you won't be able to smoke in the rental car, and please be someone that is very aware of hygiene concerns.

A big heart felt thanks and deepest respect to my family, my friends, and every stranger out there that helped ensure my freedom by serving in the armed forces. We can never thank you, our veterans, enough.

this conversation really happened. as i was getting home and enjoying the start of my days off. it was amusing.

7:58:27 AM <hisscreenname> Hello
7:58:32 AM <hisscreenname> Good morning
7:58:34 AM <myscreenname> Hi there
7:59:49 AM <hisscreenname> How are you doing today?
8:00:21 AM <myscreenname> Doing good, just got off work.
8:00:46 AM <hisscreenname> Oh ok...
8:00:51 AM <hisscreenname> Nice having you online
8:01:54 AM <myscreenname> Hmm? I'm not familiar with your screen name
8:02:17 AM <hisscreenname> This is James from Match
8:03:27 AM <myscreenname> Ahh, hello there james
8:04:34 AM <hisscreenname> Hell How ar eyou doing
8:04:34 AM <hisscreenname> ?
8:05:04 AM <myscreenname> Im pretty good :) had a good day at work.
8:05:14 AM <hisscreenname> Ok good to hear
8:05:21 AM <hisscreenname> do you mind if we get to know each other?
8:07:23 AM <myscreenname> I never mind chatting :)
8:07:53 AM <hisscreenname> ok
8:07:59 AM <hisscreenname> tell me more about your self and your name
8:08:00 AM <hisscreenname> ?
8:08:28 AM <myscreenname> I wouldn't mind seeing your profile though
8:08:44 AM <myscreenname> Or mine for that matter lol
8:08:55 AM <hisscreenname> ok search for : <his Match.com profile>
8:08:57 AM <hisscreenname> on match
8:10:47 AM <myscreenname> Match?
8:10:55 AM <hisscreenname> yes
8:11:00 AM <hisscreenname> i just winked you
8:14:14 AM <myscreenname> Help me out here, What website? I know you keep saying Match But I didn't even know I had a profile there
8:14:25 AM <hisscreenname> match.com
8:17:05 AM <hisscreenname> hello
8:17:10 AM <hisscreenname> dpo you mind if we chat latter?
8:19:04 AM <myscreenname> Im always up for chatting... but im a bit confused. Why is a 53 year old straight man in LA wanting to get to know me? Lol
8:19:27 AM <hisscreenname> lol
8:19:31 AM <hisscreenname> how old are you?
8:20:34 AM <myscreenname> 34. Male in Arizona.
8:20:47 AM <hisscreenname> male?
8:21:04 AM <myscreenname> Im a guy.
8:21:18 AM <hisscreenname> ok
8:21:19 AM <hisscreenname> bye

On Tuesday the 11th of October 2011, Athus was involved in a severe car collision that ended his time here with us. The 29 years of his life were filled with amazing stories, incredible adventures and outstanding creativity and talent. He shared his love of life, affection for others and sense of humor with many wonderful people. In memory of Athus and his special life, his closest kin have created a website for others to share their experiences with Athus as well as share photos and artwork. An email address has been established to send your wishes in to be posted on the site athus@athusnadorian.com. Thank you for your kind words, love and support through all of this. Remember to love life, hold your friends close and have a little fun - Athus wouldn’t have wanted it any other way.

Please visit the site we have established www.athusnadorian.com and use the email address athus[at]athusnadorian.com to share your wishes to allow time for his closest kin to mourn peacefully.

i hereby add 5 years to my year of birth, i was now born in 1982. yesterday was my 29th birthday!!!

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Forwarded message

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From: "Joshua Nichols" <link.drako@gmail.com>
Date: Aug 20, 2011 10:28 PM
Subject: Slander is illegal
To: "zenothecat@gmail.com" <zenothecat@gmail.com>

I'm asking you nicely one time to stop slandering me to people. You think these people are your friends and won't tell me but most do talk to me.

If you continue to slander my name, I will be forced to seek retribution through a civil case. This is not a threat. No violence. You will hear from my lawyer if I hear about you slandering my person any longer. Have a good day and good life.

P.S.
For someone who thinks I'm a stalking him, you sure can't keep me out of your mind cause my name keeps popping up with you. Please just forget I even exist. Don't approach me, message me, or talk about me in an ill fashion any longer. You are not welcome in my life. I hope this is the last I ever have to speak with you.




</quote>

I find this laughabe. I feel sorry for him.

wow, had an amazing day with Zin Wulf, Dr. Mo, and not-mo. Lite rail rides, browsed at Phoenix Art museum, ate at the Tilted Kilt restaurant, yelled at a UFC match, watched the new Planet of the Apes movie. then parted ways. then Zin Wulf and i went to Charlies and had drinks and watched some drag queens. *pants* so tired must sleep.

such a shame Tsukaza fell asleep and missed it all.

anybody that wants to go on the next tubing adventure on July 9th, here is the info. http://bit.ly/mPGeyV

time for tubing down the salt river, 1st trip is going to be this saturday morning June 4th. DM or Text me For details.

Posted this is cons because it involved going out of state, staying in a hotel, and just having a blast with other furs.

What: Road Trip
Where: San Antonio Texas, Six Flags and Slitterbauhn Trips
When: Leave Sunday morning June 5, get home Wednesday Night June 8

I will open reservations NOW!!!!. it will be 1st come first serve. there are 14 spots left. price is 260.00 a person. as positions are reserved i will keep this thread up





all the gory details.
Sunday
Pick up 15 person van Saturday night, depart Sunday morning at 8 am. its a 16hour trip give or take rest breaks, lunch stops, and average speed.
stop every 4 - 6 hours for rest stop breaks, lunch break, dinner breaks.
Arrive at Motel 6 in San Antonio around 12am - 1am
we will have 3 hotel rooms at the motel six, each with a double bed. that does mean bunking up with friends, or crashing on the floor.

Monday
*time will depend on when six flags opens* leave in the AM to stop for breakfast
Get to six flags. Pick up tickets, Meal Vouchers, Souvenir Cups for free refills all day, and gold flash passes.
divide into groups and have a blast!!!
when park closes head back to the hotel for R&R (magic game, card games, board games)

Tuesday
Bfast again then arrive at teh water park
pick up tickets, snack bands, find both cabanas, dinner will be catered to each cabana at 530 pm
divide into groups and have a blast!!!
when park closes head back to the hotel for R&R (magic game, card games, board games)

Wednesday
head home.



When you pay i will need to know: What kind of meal you want at 6 Flags.

i have been assigned a room on the party floor!!! *dances* Room 1916.

Oh wow, been ages and ages since I did a real journal entry. I guess between Twitter, and status updates on Facebook really putting down a solid journal is more difficult.

All in all this year has really sucked. I guess that's a little harsh, and probably an exaggeration, never the less, it feels true enough. Don't get me wrong, there have been a few ups too, or at least rebounds to off set the bad a little bit.

January...
January had the convention in San Jose, and the party.... oh wow the party... cheerleaders dancing in the windows, FB2K dancing in his suit, Blue being an awesome DJ. All in all the con ranked around a 8.5. I missed Mike a bit, I didn't get to spend much time with Scot or Travis from Oregon, Or Aaron. There was quite a bit of fighting between me and Josh. But I met a pretty cool guy named Sean and spent a few hours with him just chatting it up in the hotel lobby. LOL met a otter from Monterrey that I got to feed a few pieces of fish too. LOL that was great. Also Saturday night of the con, a group of us bailed on the con and hit up a performance in Oakland. Got to see Eddie Izzard Live again. This was the second time I've been to see him, the first was a small performance in Scottsdale, when he was working on some new material.
The shows were completely different, of course I liked the small show better, it seemed more personable and close, compared to the show in a huge arena with god knows how many ppl.
So January really started off good, until I got back to work after the convention.
The Hotel charged me 1000 dollars for the stains in the carpet, both from my punch punch, and from patricks diesel fuel. But pat paid half so it helped.
I guess at some point in time before I left for San Jose I upset a nurse on 5CD at GS. I was drawing a ABG on a ETOH patient, and he was flailing around. And I said “don't move darn it” I know this exactly what I said, because I was quoted in the write up as saying it. Long Story short, I handed in my resignation to Jimmy and left GS. I didn't get fired, I didn't storm out screaming and yelling, I left under semi-amenable terms. Little did I know how bad this was going to be. If I had been fired, I would have to make an appearance in front of the Board, risking my license, but I could have gotten unemployment, maybe. Hindsight 20/20...

Feburary
Can't find a job, looking every day, applying at every new job I see, savings being depleted.

March
Found job 20 some miles away, and then another 15 miles away, things start looking up. Barnes Jewish Hosptial in St. Louis sends me information saying they are interested in me. I interview 4 or 5 times over the phone, they love me. They fly me to St. Louis for 2 days of interviews and tours, pay for my hotel and my flight. Only to get back home and hear they didn't want me. Talk about crushing, BJH had everything I was looking for, teaching hospital, trauma center, and no children.

June
figure out that the job at Mercy Gilbert is a joke, nothing but power plays there, all the supervisors are just infighting children, its almost non stop, bashing each other, kissing each others butts. The management just vie for popularity, and bonuses. They don’t' care about the employees, just making that dough. I pissed the wrong person off by asking to many “why” questions, and it just went down hill from there. I quit MGMC in October, to focus my attention on JCL. JCL is a pretty good hospital, very forward thinking as far as respiratory goes. The RT department, drops A-Lines, PICC lines, they can intubate, it's pretty cool, I’m sorry I don’t' work there anymore. But thats a good thing.... sorta.

July
summer time means almost NO hours for respiratory, I make a few extra dollars because some ppl went on vacation, but I couldn't go home again for the second year. I really miss some of my family, mom says my grandparents are getting really sick and I need to come home soon... they celebrated year 65 together but again I couldn’t' make it home to celebrate with them.

August
pretty much the same, still not getting hours at work, still barely getting buy. But now more issues are popping up. Fighting with roommate more, about bills and money, I have to ask for help to pay some of my bills, and this made things nasty, not going to get into that line of thought, but I have learned another lesson about bending over backwards to help people out.
My birthday, number 33 was here. I spend the after noon with a counselor being told I’m arrogant and condescending to people, but then I was able to spend the evening with a complete stranger from Denver, It was really a good time, it was very nice, I was sad to see him go back to Denver, he really kicked it off with some of my friends.

September
at this point in the journal i'm getting way to burned out on it, September was just the same as the last few months, barely getting enuogh money to get by, more fighting with Owen, until we moved out. At which point, I was blocked on AIM, YIM, FA, and XBL. Accidentally of course, I’ve talked to Owen and we've reconnected, but I don’t' think I’m going to waste my time asking for his half of the last bills. Collections has them now, I’ll just pay them when I can. I moved in with Sean, its not great by any stretch of the imagination. I'm apart from everybody, I live in the ghetto, work is 20 miles away. I've lost all my personal space. Its Seans house, he wants to just Hang out in my room and chat, I feel bad, but how do I say, “give me my space in your house?” sean is bending over backwards to help me out. And without him, i'd prolly be headed hoem to Indiana to live with my mom..... *shudders*

October
same as September, still no hours, still barely getting buy, rent gets paid, but I get 3 or so calls every day from different collection agencies. By this point i'm so depressed and low, I dont' want to talk to my friends, I don't want to see people, I dread the question “how are you?” the answer is always the same choice, Lie, or tell the truth and have to explain everything. I quit Mercy Gilbert so I could focus my time on JCL.. I end up signing up for 6 days a week, only to get 4 hours in a single week. Hell I only got 4 hours cause somebody called in sick. I've started looking for new jobs, but there are not many positions in Arizona.

November.
Here I am now, I finally found a new job, it's a college clinical teacher. I'm excited, but very very nervous. This year has been horrible, and while I’ve already had 1 day of work and sat in on a meeting, I refuse to accept that I have the job until I sign papers. I ask JCL if I can go down to 1 day a pay period, I don’t' want to lose any clinical skills... they say no and ask for my resignation. It was such an awesome job, I miss It already. I hope if this job fail they'll let me come back.... but I doubt it.

Some things I forget when they happened, I got into a pretty public fight with a friend, I said things that I felt were true, but worded poorly, so I ended up being blocked from his stuff and he refused any sort of interaction with me. (this might be resoling slowly, we talked a little at a party, and I’m glad to say we twitter each other again. LOL) found a really awesome guy to chat with... straight. (this actually has happened 3 times now) Crushed on one guy that turned into a massive slut, that really hurt my feelings, but nothing I can really do about it.


Here I am, burned out, depressed, withdrawn, crushing on the wrong people, going father and father deeper into debt, and I’m totally lost. I just don't know what to do. Every day is an anxiety attack, i'm covering and faking as best I can, but I’m so just... totally lost. This job has to come through, or i'm going to start applying at burger kings again...

Posted this is cons because it involved going out of state, staying in a hotel, and just having a blast with other furs.

What: Road Trip
Where: San Antonio Texas, Six Flags and Slitterbauhn Trips
When: Leave Sunday morning June 5, get home Wednesday Night June 8

I will open reservations at the beginning of December. it will be 1st come first serve. there are 14 spots left. price is 250.00 a person. as positions are reserved i will keep this thread up to date.





all the gory details.
Sunday
Pick up 15 van Saturday night, depart Sunday morning at 8 am. its a 16hour trip give or take rest breaks, lunch stops, and average speed.
stop every 4 - 6 hours for rest stop breaks, lunch break, dinner breaks.
Arrive at Motel 6 in San Antonio around 12am - 1am
we will have 3 hotel rooms at the motel six, each with a double bed. that does mean bunking up with friends, or crashing on the floor.

Monday
*time will depend on when six flags opens* leave in the AM to stop for breakfast
Get to six flags. Pick up tickets, Meal Vouchers, Souvenir Cups for free refills all day, and gold flash passes.
divide into groups and have a blast!!!
when park closes head back to the hotel for R&R (magic game, card games, board games)

Tuesday
Bfast again then arrive at teh water park
pick up tickets, snack bands, find both cabanas, dinner will be catered to each cabana at 530 pm
divide into groups and have a blast!!!
when park closes head back to the hotel for R&R (magic game, card games, board games)

Wednesday
head home.



When you pay i will need to know: What kind of meal you want at 6 Flags.

i'm planning a road trip next summer, the 2nd week of June to be more exact. the plan is to drive to San Antonio Texas. spend 1 day at Six Flags, spend 1 day at Slitterbaun http://www.schlitterbahn.com/nb/ and then come home.

van rental, tickets, 1 meal in each park, lodgeing. would be included in the price. right now i'm just looking at who's interested.


EDIT #1
Hard Core Details will follow later, but this is what i have so far.

looking for 14 other people. why so many? both parks offer discounts for groups of 15.
i have a van company I'm looking at, for this road trip others, they have 8/12/15 person vans at pretty reasonable prices and mileage.

park info

six flags - http://www.sixflags.com/fiestaTexas/index.aspx
Ticket, parking, Meal voucher, Gold Level Flash pass (allowes for line hopping) for groups of 2 and 3.

Schlitterbahn - http://www.schlitterbahn.com/nb/
Ticket, Meal vouhcher, snack voucher. and i'm looking at a refillable sports bottle for unlimited soda.
2 cabanas to rest and relax, and dinner catered to the cabanas: pizza, delux nachos and chicken tenders.

Hotel:
motel 6, 5 rooms each with 2 full beds. this number can change, 5 was a good round number, it allowes for couples to sleep together, and if some ppl don't mind floor space.

thats about all the info i have right now, as the year moves on, i'll post more definite details

the big questions: cost.

right now it looks like 250 will cover everything execpt for food that isn't covered by vouchers or catering.

when i start taking names, because i have to buy many of the tickets in advance, i will need the money by the beginning/middle of may. space will be first come fist serve. 250 will guarantee you a spot.

questions, comments suggestion to be left here or hit me up via PM,text, or in person.

i was really really looking forward to spending Saturday with everybody at ren fair for somebody's birthday, but due to communication errors, i kinda got ditched, my fault I'm sure but that's just how i feel.

my roommate reset the cable modem and i lost my secure connection with the application server and lost a lot of information (1hr of work) for my job I'm applying for.

I have friends calling asking me for favors to help them out, when i can barely help myself at this moment.

My mom called yesterday and told me "hey, i might have cancer, i don't' want chemo, and i want to be DNR. You'll be in charge if your step father can't do it."

so then i went and hung out with a friend, who's a smoker and had a huge astmah attck due to the smoke smell. after getting that undercontrol at home, i made plans to go to Matsuri, thinking that it will be fun.

not so, I get a call from somebody i'm supposed to be avoiding for a little bit just to have space "i'm coughing up blood, should i go to the hospital?" "oh, well nobody can take me can you?" of course i'll take him, he's still my friend no matter what, but i'm not really getting any distance here.

i finally get hom after 5am, crash, sleep through my alarms, and miss matsuri... :( what a shitty weekend.

so all this stacked onto me losing my job, and fighting with my friend has me VERY stressed out. please don't take it personally, please don't hate me. i'm just not in a happy point.

The Good
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Drove to San Jose for FC, the drive was alright, got into a few arguments and tiffs with  carebearslinkgrumpy. Was part of a caravan with Me and Link in one car, and  commissarpazyryk,  Mohr, and  falcon3d in the other. Stopped in Monterrey Bay because I wanted to go to the aquarium, but it was 30$ a person and nobody could afford such a tragic price. So, instead we wondered around the area acting like tourists and doing nothing special. I got a couple of candles and a magnet. Took lots of verbal shots at a non present otter. even being exhausted it was a really great experience. after a few hours and following a delicious lunch we headed on to San Jose.
FC was fantastic, Thursday and Friday my room had an awesome party, ppl were talking about it quite a bit. (so I'm told.) I rather enjoyed having the Klingons come over and sample the Punch Punch.
Saturday night there was a communist party that Patrick threw, but i was able to go with  streakthetiger, Tabbie, and Khortl to go see Eddie Izzard. I really do like that man, his humor is a little sophisticated for some but he's really funny to me. I didn't drink much at all Saturday night, just mainly wondered the hotel chatting to various people. Sunday was spend relaxing and Monday was the trip back home. The trip back was mostly uneventful.
I'm so happy to have see some of my out of town friends, Spots and his mate S.P. and their friend T.F. from Connecticut. Travis and Tawn from Portland, and then Sohjin from.. well wherever he's at at the moment.

Other good items of January

Got a new phone, the Droid from Motorola
got to the gym a few times this month, not much to talk about but a start.
Made a few new friends at FC, including an otter, that works at the Monterrey Bay Aquarium.
Was again part of a shipping fleet for some of my friend's company, but this year it wasn't as exciting as last year's 30 gal. of lube.
Watched a couple hyena, a wolf, a dragon and some others devour a 5 pound burrito.
avoided con crud

The Bad
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in no particular order.

got a speeding ticket on the way home from FC.
wasn't able to spend as much time with a friend from portland as i wanted. i was really hopeing to rekindle a friendship.
the graphics card in my computer is about to die.
i think i might have an infection on my nose, O_o LOL
get to sum up the last 10 months with my doctor tomorrow


The Ugly
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Was given the choice at work, either resign or be terminated. I took the resignation. The story is that i have a horrible tone of voice. if I'm upset or irritated, i come across as condescending, arrogant, and belittling. several complaints had been made in the past. this was just the last straw. I'm nervous, scared and a little worried, but I'm doing my best to keep my head up. the initial panic is over, i have several job leads out there, but i don't know how stale they are. :| we'll see.

lost my job this morning. fired for making a nurse upset. Sometimes my tone and the way i talk comes across at condescending and arrogant. this has got me in trouble in the past. it was a matter of time before i slipped.

i'm okay, doing well, have a few leads. no need to panic just yet.

back from FC, more will follow but the hotel is going to charge me 1000 dollars for replacing the carpet. I guess the punch punch caused a bit of a stain. not to mention the black mark on the wall from moving the bed. or the permanent smell of cabbage and beets from the Communist party.


more details to follow.

Everybody else is doing it, so i might as well too. who's all going to FC this year. If i havn't already invited you, make sure you stop by my room for some taasty Hawaiian Punch^2 (or Hawaiian punch punch) or a vodka martini. We'll be on the party floor and friday night will be my party. Saturday night will be  commissarpazyryk's party see his flyer here.

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3270615/
-and-
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3246464/

One last thing. for my party friday night, i could really use an extra hand keeping the kiddies at bay. :( i dont' wanna be bartending my wonderful drinks and have to stop everytime somebody new comes up just to card them. Any body want to help just let me know

Ladies and Gent's,
Rapidly approaching is the time of year many of us trek to San Jose for the ever entertianing, slightly insane, FutherConfusion. This year i have decided to get a room in the con hotel. Last year was okay in the non con hotel, but that walk at 2am was freezy and lonley. I have this beautiful room in the hotel and i don't know that i want to stay in an empty room all by myself.

So i have space avaliable, but there are some things you need to understand before asking for a space of your own.

1. I am on the party floor, i will be having parties, a friend of mine will be using the room to throw his own party. it will be noisy, messy, but hopfully not full of total insanity.

2. Dates: I will be in the room from wednesday the 20th and will leave on the 25th. if you want the room forlonger you'll need to talk to the hotel.

3. i will take requests from almost anybody, but, space goes to who ever pays me first, and i want the money before the con. just protecting my intrests here.

4. what kind of space. i have a bed that i will let go for 300, 1 person, or 150 a person if you want to share. my bed is already occupied by somebody, sorry ;). I also have one floor space for 100.

If you are interested,just ask, i'll put you on the list and i will give you some time to pay the money, but only a reasonable amount of time. Questions should directed as notes or comments.

Went to the fair with  fuseldar and  Carebears_Link_Grumpy tonight. Had a blast. posted a few pics in my gallery. love turkey legs :) yum!

oh wow, so from one little nap, all i remember.

I'm around my old home in Indiana, same trailer part, but looked nicer. I was escorting Santa Clause in his sleigh, and singing Xmas carols. all the while keeping an eye out and hunting Vampires.

*shrugs*

so in my mad dash to get out of my apartment after a fight with my old roomate, somehow, accidently, his wii sensor bar got packed into my stuff.

for those of you that have met Dave, or have heard of my interactions with him, when i find the bar, should i return it?

I want :(

I'll be honest i don't care for Glenn Beck all that much, but i have some friends that LOVE him. that's fine no big deal, not really the point to this post, but i have to say thanks to Beck for this one.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mqfuZ7hiap0


basicly, the government is trying to be an even bigger big brother.