Hey everyone, I've been thinking about streaming, my streams would consist of video game play and interaction with my viewers like chattin and stuff not really art streams like your used to more like a live viewing of game grumps lol

but the question is would anyone actually join these streams or would i just be wasting my time?? be honest no feelings are hurt here i want opinions thanks everyone!!!

what are the odds lol any who follow the link for details

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4515999/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4515999/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4515999/

Yay another birthday passes thanks so much to those who have gotten me gift's and gift arts you didn't have to but it dose mean the world to me thanks to  Disastress and  servo117 oh and also  Wild-Kitten for her osm button and steam credits thanks so much guys it means alot to me!!!

to those who are planning to get me gifts or gift arts thank you!! and to those who can't and just want to wish me a happy birth day thank you as well the thought matters just as much!!

Has anyone ever felt worthless? like just absolutely unnecessary, i don't mean like depressed more like a feeling that your unneeded, I have been feeling this way alot lately I try to make everyone happy but it seems i only manage to make my self miserable, I hate seeing people upset especially if there people close to me, but i can't exactly force my help upon them can I? idk its been on my mind alot lately, like what if all my friends suddenly became happy and didnt need me anymore? sometimes i feel as though im only a friend when people need me and other times I feel like i try to get close to someone but they only push me away... i was told by someone once "your just a stranger online, I don't really know you or anything" and although this is truth i couldn't help but be hurt by the comment, i responded saying "im only a stranger because thats what you make me" all i wanted to do was help and what i said was just if you need someone to talk to ill be here, and they just shrugged me off and went on moaning in later journals about how they had no support.

Dont get me wrong my life is grate right now!! I have everything ive ever wanted, im on the way to a great career, Im mated to the person of my dreams whom i love more than anything, my home life is grate and my work is as well!!! and yet i feel.... sad, I cant shake this feeling that my whole world is about to come crashing down upon me and it scares me to death, a part of me thinks i just worry to much and i should enjoy being happy, but another part reminds me that in my life when ever there is a small amount of joy a tidal wave of misery and stress is soon to follow, I have said many times that life is a series of patterns constantly repeating themselves and the people who can identify these patterns will be more prepared for what life hurls at them.

I cant help but worry that something will happen that will take me back down into my depressed state, and i feel useless sometimes..... Idk

Thank you to those who actually took the time to read this =, this means you care and that means the world to me!!!

your friend-Zer0

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4479589/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4479589/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4479589/

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Hey im doing my very first live stream!!!! id love it if ya came and said hi!! ima be live streaming gameplay of APB with  servo117 hooray

from my point of view: http://www.livestream.com/zer0sanguine

From  servo117 point of view: http://www.livestream.com/ServoTheHusky?t=520973


THANKS EVERYONE

So as many of you know I recently got a laptop its so osm!!, but i started looking for a game to waste my downtime on I found one on steam called ABP RELOADED, omg think gta the mmo its so cool!! i highly recommend it for any fans of the 3rd person shooter thing has some rpg elements thrown in as well!! but best of all everything is customizable, meaning that unlike many other MMO's your avatar is always unique!! its really osm

https://docs.google.com/forms/d/1v2.....5rQ3A/viewform

posted above is a link to a collage students Servery it takes about 10 minutes to complete and helps him out alot Please spread this around to help out a stranger!

....I OWN A LAPTOP!!!!!!!!!! im super stoked I cant really mess around with it until Sunday but still its super osm !!

flood my mind, ima try that thing where i put headphones on and type down what comes to mind, ofcourse doing this means this journal is nonsense so bare with me, Ive been thinking alot recently about all the bullshit problems alot of you think you have so Im here to point out that what you consider to be big problems and issues arn't> to put it simply get over it!

By now i must seem like an asshole well good cause i am one but in reality im just honest.... or rather im blunt thats a good word for it yea, blunt i need to point out here that currently in life i don't have that many problems other than trying to pay bills rent and feed myself, but these arnt problems are they??? NO this is life simple and pure, it sucks in the words of a talented rapper "life is naturally hell, we have to work to put a smile on"-Hopsin so why then do things as simple as living seem hard? i mean i know some people who are really really struggling right now and yet they do there best mebers of my faimly an.... there it IS JUST LIKE THAT See this time i was able to keep my train of thought going for a while but ya know how it goes.... Ya wanna know something fucked up??? i want to kill..... I want to dig a knife into someone I want to watch them try to run from me as there blood pours from there fresh wound, I want them to beg for there life as i corner them!! but more than anything... I want them to fight back! I want them to strip me of my blade and thrust it deep into my heart i want them to make me suffer as i have made countless others suffer, HMMM perhaps this is getting a bit to dark, but we will continue down this train of thought for a while still til it derails... I WANT TO RELAPSE, I want to wake up to three lines waiting for me I want to pass that meth pipe to the left I need that costume cut EX made just the way i like it! I want to deliver sell and rob, yet i dont want any of this I quick cold turkey ya know i quick it all, Well except Marijuana ya know whats funny they say its a gate way drug yet i start on meth and ended with pot funny huh?

I think ill have to stop this train as these tracks are stable and ive said so much already but huh seems like i have alot on my mind dont it?

also in regards to the start just know that this was not directed at anyone i was just venting as most of the people who write said journals are, and to be honest i wasn't even venting but instead putting what popped into my head down Also I have no intention of relapsing i haven't touched hard drugs in about 5 years with the exception of Coke which i did about 3 years ago but yea i have it under control, so no one needs to worry nor should the people who didn't know this about me, the me you know now is the real me I dont plan on changing but if this information changes how you look at me that is also understandable, i keep thoughts pent up and this is a simple way of releasing them Heck i don't expect 90% of my 80-somthing watchers to even read this


For those of you who have read this I thank you for wanting to take a step into my head its a scary place and you were very brave lol

Love-Zer0

Is there an anime-furs group on the site, I feel like there is one but can't seem to find it, also I'm having such a hard time trying to figure out who to cosplay as I need at least one DBZ outfit to go with my group, I'm thinkin of either going as future trunks or maybe..... I got nothing XD I just drew a totally blank CURSE YOU HANGOVER lol

Here are all the juicy details!!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4363186/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4363186/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4363186/


And good luck !!

If your a hybrid and want a shot at some freebies go here

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4360747/

I recently found a great artist that i feel needs a ton more traffic!!

She recently posted a commission list with great prices her work is high quality and im very please with what ive gotten so far!

ill be sure to return to this artist very soon!

with out further adue i give you  Disastress give her a look and throw this artist a bone

here is a derect link to her commison prices!!

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9931858/

dont waste time here im sure shes gonna run outa slots quick!
she comes highly recommeded by me tell her i sent ya XD

Today earlyer at 3:00 AM my first male crush died due to gunshot wounds, he was guned down by a fellow student because of his sexual prefrence, he was killed because he was gay. I will never forget you, you had the voice of an angle and now you've joined then rest in peace my dear friend.


Never take fro granted how loving and suporting out comminity is most of us dont care about whether were gay bi straight transgender or trapped in the oppisite sex's body. My favorite thing about our commiunty is its full of love i dont want that to ever change, hate has taken many people and oppourtuintys away from me dont let it do the same to your lives, because no matter how hard it seems one person in your life always cares about you... even if you havent met them yet.

Happy V-day to all you couples out there!!

(Also just to be clear Larry has been gone for a good couple of years he didn't die as in today today)

Welp I went out in the truck for the first time! No driving just ride along to learn things, and I've officially decided to get my permit I think I'll be getting it some time next month, this will let me go on a real trip like being out for a couple of weeks at a time and of-course getting hands on with driving this beast!

I gotta sleep til 6 now, a good three hours of rest before heading to San deaigo which I'm sure I spelt wrong but then it's straight back to littlerock but yea I think I can do this! Night night my furry friends

I just found out I'm going to anime expo 2013!! For the four days!!! I need to find a cosplay costume!!! I really wanna go as Dante like eitheR DMC Dante or maybe devil may cry 4 Dante, and maybe someone from DBZ!! But needless to say I'm super excited!!!!

In case anyone was worried don't, I'm strong I've always been strong.... I need a drink but ill be ok thank you all for your support it means alot

My mate broke up with me but wait there's more!!! My snakes missing and I have been gone for about 4 days so there's no telling how long he's been gone he's not in this room nor is he in my brothers room or the bath room or... Bottom line is he's probaly gone.... Like long gone, He's dead. I've come to terms that at this point I'm searching for a body... One I may not even find because there's not telling of he got out the window or hell Babe(my Dalmatian) very well could have eatin him... I have been meditating after exhausting my self searching for him and many tears and deep breaths later I think I'm going to be ok..... But I can't help but ask why? Why did these things happen to me and how long will I have to pay for my past until I'm finally able to be happy? This sucks and I really just want to keel over but I can't I must go on and be strong... If not for myself then for those around me

Welp my mate broke up with me to day, a pack of shock top and a bottle of captin Morgan later I've come to terms with it... I don't think ill date for a while now but that don't mean I can't have fun!! I may end up turning into a slut because of this lol no no bit all joking aside I am now open for fun

I'm in the market for some spreader bars!! Now I found some for about 50$ (including shipping) and its a leg and arm spreader set I think this is a pretty good price but to be honest I haven't really bought any smexy stuff before so I'm not sure ( my only toy was a gift lol) but lately I've been thinking I'd like to explore and try new things!! I've already had tons of fun with bondage tape and a ball gag here and there but yea! I'd love some advice if anyone knows anything about this kinda stuff like what's good vs bad and stuff like that I'm mostly looking for bondage gear nothing to extreme but I'd love suggestions and things to look out for!!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4280058/

Hurry hurry join join!!

http://www.livestream.com/ServoTheHusky?t=32527
http://www.livestream.com/ServoTheHusky?t=32527


Come join!! It will be fun let me try not to fail at this game!!

Well I completed the game on hard at 1:30am started playing around 2:00pmdo 11 hours wow!! Though admittedly this is due to the fact that I got stuck a few places but still that's a pretty long game by today's standards!

Relaunching a franchise as successful as the devil may cry series is a risky move and before gameplay footage was even released many fans of the series out right hated the new Look of the main character Dante and this alone made long time fans swear that they wouldent go near the sure to be disaster that is DmC.

Now as many of you know I am a hardcore gamer and out of the thousands of games I've played none grabbed me like devil may cry, from its playstaition release all the way up to devil may cry 4, it is the only game I can truly say I'm a huge fanboy of that in mind. I LOVED THE NEW GAME!!!

No it's not the same Dante we fell in love with and yea they did away with a ton of lore but my friends don't let the change scare you away from an amazing a hack and slash experience, to DMC vetrans like my self and people who are new to the franchise I say give this a try!!

As for me I'm hittin the hay before taking on the next challage... Son of Sparda difficultly!!!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4209393/

Check it out the more entry's the better the prize so come on in and bring your friends!!!