So I am bored and *gasp* I am actually using a messenger, so if you haven't yet come and add me to skype as I am feeling chatty. I won't do RP's so don't even try. Beyond that anything is open game. Feeling sociable feels so wrong lmao

So for the past few months this seems to be a question i have been asked a lot. To answer said question I honestly do not know.

Between being a full time college student and worker I barely have enough time to get sleep let alone work on anything creative. Even between semesters I only have about a week of down time which is typically dedicated to recharging my batteries for the next semester. A few stories have been completed for friends that had been in the, "to do list," for a very long time. I have the practice of not posting such stories even with the recipients permission.

I will admit that the writing bug has been biting at me so I am hoping to have a few completed by June but I can't make any promises as life has been throwing curve balls at me; so paws crossed karma decides to be nice to me for a while.

-Zeran

Today is my bday. Gives me lots of hugs

so aside from this whole quitting smoking thing this past week has been well hellish to say the least. got into an accident, nothing major but it did leave a dent in my front bumper which is going to be 474 bucks to repair luckily the other persons insurance is covering it. last week i found out my uncle was diagnosed with prostrate cancer. and i was like ok, it was caught early they will treat it no problem. well turns out i was wrong in my line of thought and dad was telling me yesterday that the doctors say it is too far spread to treat and now has 6 months to live.

I tell ya the good people in the world die to young (only 52) and the hateful people live for freaking ever.

So thought i would just throw this up here to kinda give you all an idea of what is keeping my scaled butt busy. I am working on 4 gift stories for some of my close friends, my novel when I have the spare time, plus a special seceret (for now) project that i am currently preping my 5 beta testers for. In addition to that work keeps me uber busy as does trying to quit smoking not to mention dealing with everything else life kindly tosses in my direction.

So now that you have an idea of what is stalling me up a bit allow me to give you a glimpse of what is in the pipeline. i have about 14 or so stories on the back burner (all basic ideas jotted down) not including the 4 WIP's for my friends. some of these include both sequals to "The Crazy College Life of Mikkle" and "To Tame a King". Also the next chapter in my Darkness series, some hot argonian and orc action, a little TF action, some bondage and some other intersting things my perverted little mind can address ^^ so in advance thanks for your paitance and understanding and especially all the overwhelming support.

That's right ladies and gents Zeran has returned to the grand story telling scene. After many personal issues in my life I finally have found my self on stable ground again.

Now I have returned with a new look, out look, attitude, and stories can't forget those. so welcome to one and all who have stopped into my little corner of the furry world hope you enjoy my writings and various other musing.

so the other day i was reading the paper and came across this article. I warn you now this is pretty grotesque.

[New York- A New York teenager has admitted that she didn't let a kitten out of an oven after a friend put the animal inside and left it to roast to death. After pleading guilty to charges of animal cruelty and attempted burglary, 17-year0old Cheyenne Cherry confronted a row of animal activists that the kitten named Tiger Lily was "dead". Authorities say Cherry and a 14-year-old friend ransacked a Bronx apartment before putting the cat in the oven, where it cried and scratched before dying. The 14-year-old was charged with aggravated animal cruelty and burglary in May 6 incident. Cherry will serve a year in jail under a plea bargain.]

I have to tell ya folks being here in Iraq it has gotten up to 120 degrees, and it is hardly bareable. the fact that somebody could be that fucking cruel and only get a single year in jail is sickening to me. The fact that she did this so calously is a clear indicator that she will be heard about in the news again when she goes on a killing spree. I wish that we had an eye for an eye punishment, just so that she could feel the torment of that poor kitten who was completely helpless to get out of the hot oven. this story disgusted me so much that i actually cried a bit from it and wanted to share this outrage with the community.

so as many of you have realized that talk to me on a regular basis that i suddenly went very quite on Friday and haven't really been seen around too much. I am afraid that i woke up that with a terrible pain shooting from my left shoulder blade down my spine and a feelings like my chest was being sat on by an over weight rhino, i have to admit when i first felt this pain i thought it was a heart attack. so what was my reaction "i have to get to work" so i struggled to work and after about half way there one of my coworkers founded me walking quite in a delirious state, so they forced me into the vehicle and kept asking me if I wanted them to take me to the hospital.

I kept saying "No, No I'll go to work first then they can take me to the hospital" well they finally convinced me to go to the hospital, now everything was fading in and out at that point but i knew i was in some serious shit when i walked through the door and the Nurse there dropped his jaw and was like "give me his weapon get him laid on the bed now" I vaguely recall a blur of movement followed by multiple forms hovering around, then i got stuck with an I.V and had two bags of antibiotics along with two chest x-rays and a shit load of other tubes stuck into me. apparently though i was the first person in a long while to be sick enough to get hospitalized overnight with needing to be transported to another military out site. So i was kinda like a chance to test their bed side manner which they need a pretty good job.

To all my friends that I promised i would be safe i apologize.

yep so i made it here. Yea im still in one piece i think anyway... though they have this funky green water and i swear i saw a three eyed fish beckoning me into the water.

So yea life has been overly super craptastic. Aside from the sever depression that im suffering from and constantly endless stress from being in a war zone my life has truly become a rotting hell. As i have told the one or two friends that still attempt to hold conversation with me.

It is simply fated for my life to be overly difficult and lonely. I have come to accept that there is no such thing as love and that I will spend it pretty much alone.

EMO sounding oh no doubts about it. However it is proven time and time again with stone cold fact to which i am not inclined to really go into details any time soon. suffice it to say that i get sick of people telling me how great and wonderfully sweet that i am and when it gets mentioned that i am interested in them they suddenly get mated. Then i show im hurt and all they can say is "sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you" How the fuck can you not mean to hurt someone that has set up plans to come out of a war zone visit you and you grab the first person of the street to call a mate. then say that I am a great person and deserve to be happy serioiusly what the fuck.

i digress i have gotten off topic. Its not a Merry Christmas, nor a happy holiday's so while you all sit at home in your nice warm houses i hope that you take a moment to think about the people that aren't at home with their families and remember to take the time to give two damns about them so enjoy your time at home and know there are those who aren't cause they are fighting for you all.

so today i leave for IRAQ lets us see if i make it back. Place your bets ladies and gents.