making this journal for the sake of at least putting something on here after 2 months.
i've been taking a huge mental break to myself, a lot's been going on in my life and unfortunately i just don't have the mental capacity to keep going. even after all this.
i don't know when i'll be back on here to upload but it probably won't be for awhile.

thanks for the support over the years. ^^

it do be that time again. im opening back up comms again but this time everything's only $5. even the model making.
so if you're interested, come send me a note and ill get on it!

welp.. its my 22nd hatchday today.

im still kinda trying to get used to still being in my twenties ngl, its an alright time but i still have a shit ton to learn.
here's to 2025 being hopeful!

soooo sup, its been a tiny bit since my last update/journal/whatever you wanna call it lol. happy new years btw, VERY late response on that!

i do have one update i wanna share to all of yous. if you've ever heard of 'Heroforge' (usually a TTRPG modeler maker, i've done plenty of dnd models on there lmao) you'd know that with the pro subscription, you get to use this little thingie called Kitbashing. basically a whole option where to can take materials from the maker and scale it or move it around places like on the model.
i may or may not have done a little practicing and found myself making a shit ton of WAM pieces over by there XD and from what it looks like, its really good! (i've also done around 2 comms on there that were extremely fun to do, so if that sounds interesting note or dm me!)

so i do have one question, do y'all just want me to upload those pieces onto FA on my main? or make a separate account for it? (im aware  MudWuff has been begging me to upload them on FA XD)
but yea, let me know what you all think. ^^ hope you had a good new years n christmas n stuffs~

sup, been a bit. not the first time it's happened ngl.

since I've gotten fired from my job a few months back and I've been dealing with a shit ton of mental issues since then, this account will be on an indefinite hiatus.
how long? I don't have a clue. I just haven't had the motivation to draw in so damn long to the point where I've practically forgotten a lot of basic steps that I was taught awhile back.
can't even do that properly, can't really do anything properly these days without fucking at least something up.

this account won't be gone or deleted or some shit like that, if that ever happened in the future then my mental state would've probably been in a worst condition than I already am now.

one more thing thatll be uploaded would be through  BlazingArachnid99 for their comm, that was the last thing I'm finishing up. they're a good bean.

I might make a separate account for some commissions and art I get for myself, I might come back to this account for more art in the future.. who knows.. maybe neither.

that's all for now, I let you all down again. sorry.. see you in the future.

Well.... that was interesting, huh?
Anyone alive and good after that big ol shitstorm? Hahah

so i just got fired from my job. very swell apparently.

ill be taking commissions this month or so btw.

thats all. bye.

it do be my hatchday today. turning 21 🥳
be sure to also give  XaNtHuS birthday wishes today too, he deserves it ^^

i think its safe to say i'm not really gonna go anywhere with drawing.
i've.. literally been trying day by day on everything, trying to learn everything. but its just the opposite for me.
i keep getting worst.. and worst.. and worst at drawing, providing nothing for this community. so i think its safe to say that i'm gonna be stepping down for a bit.
idk how long.. idk if its permanent.. but.. i'm not really good at anything if i will be honest. i'm not enjoying drawing anymore, i don't even think anyone knows me by my art. so its like.. what's the point in keeping going if both no one cares and if i'm not enjoying myself anymore? y'know?
i'm sorry.. it's most likely you won't really see me active as an artist anymore. i mean sure if i ask, i might upload some commission art i've gotten with the artists permission.
i'm sorry for failing all of you... again. it's not surprising, i'm the biggest failure in this community after all.

hope you all are doing well. i love you all.

i sometimes forget im an artist and i do some certain shit haha. plus art block go brr so i apologize.

anything yall wanna see in the near future? let me know of any recommendations uwu ❤️

i just wanted to create this as a big thank you for 100 watchers. it's a bit late and i don't mean to sound like that generic YouTuber sounding, but it really does make me happy.
Thank you all for sticking around, I'll definitely keep making more content since I can slowly feel myself getting more proficient at art.

Also a thanks to  MudWuff for being literally the best mentor I can ask for in this community. I love ya ❤️

And a biggest thank you to my partners  Superdrake2017 and  StarDrolf for simply sticking with me during my darkest moments. I also love y'all.❤️💜🤍

so at the moment, I've been feeling omega burnt out and just overall not in the best mood to draw.
im not really an artist anywho, i can't even draw on my own anymore without depending on VRChat.

so im gonna take a minute to think on what to do, maybe draw a bit on my own.
could be a short minute, could be a long minute. we'll see.

uhh... a little update for recent times.
i'm sorry i haven't really done anything in the past few weeks or so. i've been severely depressed and unmotivated to draw or to even do anything.
i feel like i've gotten worst over the times and what i'm doing won't even get me anywhere. sorry for being such a massive failure to this community..
i guess i'll try to come back soon but i don't really..know anymore.

if anyone has a VRChat model they want me to sink, I'll be on it soon! Or in better words, if anyone can think of a model that I can find that's available on VRChat, I can definitely do something with them.

$2 for a no color version and $5 for a full color version. (still working on how to do commissions, if anyone has tips let me know uwu)

payment can be through PayPal as well. send me a note on here or leave a comment if you're in!

the reason how my art these days is so accurate to the actual design to the characters is because i use my own VRChat models as draw overs.
this is actually good for me since it's good practice, it's all till i find my own style and I can draw on my own.

.. i really need to draw a watermark soon lmao

Im having some slight difficulty on what character to sink next.
please leave some suggestions!

just the last thing before i brainstorm again.

hihi again.

im sorry it's taking a bit for my next piece to come out, i have a bunch planned soon.
i recently went on a 3 to 4 day roadtrip from north dakota to north carolina, so it'll take a bit for me to get situated back into art.

but i promise, there will be something hopefully rather soon.

love y'all.

ello! commissions are still up btw if anyone is interested.

if anyone asks where my art went, ive decided to take a break on drawing for now. all of my former artwork is in scraps.
ill still draw here and there (got an art trade coming up soon) but the thing you'll see here more likely is commissions and requests done by another artist.

best wishes to everyone

Alright so.. maybe after a little thinking I decided that I'm not gonna go ahead and just quit making art.

I'm still gonna make more future art pieces and hopefully I'll get better. If anyone has ANY sort of criticism please let me know. I'm happy to make my art better.

And yes. Hopefully soon I'll be opening up commissions.

Thanks for listening, I love y'all

honestly with everything in my life just going to shit? im downright tempted on giving up on art completely.
if i really do give up on drawing then im not gonna delete anything on here, everything it gonna stay. but with me getting little to no recognition of something i love to do? i can't do it anymore.
im sorry.

Sorry for not uploading much these days, I'm still working on training myself on getting better with art. But eventually I'll do commissions if anyone is interested one day.

Also going through some useless drama with particular people I will not mention on here. I just feel like I'm utterly worthless in actually doing good shit. So I'll try and do my best with future projects. Please give me some advice, whether that would be on art or just life in general. I feel like I need some sort of advice or critique to get my blood flowing.

If you got this far in reading, thanks a lot.

what would y'all like to see Fang and/or Zondurth drawn in next?
I'm open for suggestions!

ey, it's been a bit.
i apologize for the semi long absence for I was kinda in....a dark thought for awhile and I needed some time for myself.
But rest assured I will continue probably making some stuff. Expect a lot more VRC content more frequently, for I atm am trying to improve my art a bit. It'll be a bit before I feel comfortable about it but one day.

Hab a good day whoever reads this :3

might delete my drawings since they're not good enough but idk

so my knees have decided to choose violence and started to hurt all over.
and also i apologize for the absence, stuff has been happening to me and well.. i can't control it that much .

hopefully ill get back into it soon, expect part 2 of my latest post very soon !! ;3