As nice as the idea of making money by making pictures for people is, I just don't think it actually works well for me in the long term. It would be because I don't use my freetime wisely due to most of my energy wasted on work, and the motivation doesn't stay strong enough to focus on it (giving some form of reluctance). Another factor could be that even though I may have done some commissions, it ultimately isn't quite much to work with anyway compared to what I make from my actual job.

The common thing I would use the money would be for downloading games from Steam; not so much for anything meaningful like buying a commission from someone since I don't watch a whole lot of people, nor do I know much about their availability.

I could perhaps increase the prices perhaps, but I don't really think my skills could warrant it. Though I suppose that would mean less business to be bothered with while I carry on with my own business, and if it happens I could try it for a quick buck. It could be as rare as getting a tip from FA's shiny donation. But then again I can't be bothered by it.

I don't know how so many big time artists around here get to have the free time to make so much art for a profit, but I certainly would never be capable of being that serious in making a business out of it; not when I have an actual job to begin with. As someone who is just an amateur artist, I can't handle two jobs anyway.

To disregard my last journal entry from 4 months ago, I figured being sociable isn't really for me (I haven't even been more sociable since then). Because of this I'm thinking of not using Discord anymore or any other I.M. for that matter. Instead I'd rather prefer chatting through notes on the sites where I could say something on my spare time than to be present.
So sorry for those who do chat with me on Discord (including ones that I haven't talked to for more than a month or year), I'm just not a very talkative person period.

I just want to share something that may or may not be much of a problem to me, but could be detrimental towards me from around the internet and in real life.

To spare those who don't want to read the long story, I'm a rather asocial person, and that could be a bad thing.

So for the longer version. I don't usually interact with people a whole lot around these art sites very often due to that I don't have much to say in the matter. I never really ask any other artist for anything like commissions or whatever, I don't say anything unless I have something to actually comment, & I don't say "thank you" very often because I figure it's as pointless as a prayer.
It's kind of a problem with the few people I have as friends in Discord that I don't usually socialize that much unless someone speaks first to me, and more often than not, the conversation is short lived. It often results to me sounding rather cynical, disappointing, and off-putting. I don't bother making friends from places like Steam or on other video game platforms. I don't even go to places like Facebook or Twitter for all that matter. As for real life, I don't go out to town all that often, and I don't even socialize with anyone at my workplace.
It could be just because of my Asperger's that I don't socialize much from whatever plane (life or internet), or maybe I just don't have a whole lot in common with anyone. Most of the time I tend to talk to myself about conversations or scenarios that I could have out of the blue with no rhyme or reason; almost like I'm rehearsing for a play, a moment, or (if I did these things) a podcast. Of course that would just come off as crazy if I weren't just talking under my breath.
Not holding any promises, but perhaps I might have to be more sociable other people. Maybe watch some artists that I might like, watch some art streams. At least I'm faving pictures; I hardly ever did when I had some older accounts. As for real life, that could be more difficult. At least I would show some of my art more often than I did over 5 years ago; which is seldom.

Overall, I'm not sure if I would make a change and open up more to people, but who knows, it's just something I want to make clear to anyone.

I've decided to close up shop again, and unfortunately I'm going to cancel the already planned commissions. I just have been putting them off constantly due to outside things like work, errands, loss of motivation, and then just pictures that I want to make. It kind of drives me nuts sometimes to think I have to do something on the sides after having to deal with actual things that I do in my life; which often makes me not want to work on them most of the time.

So for the remaining people that wanted a picture from me, I apologize for the long wait only to just cancel them.

So I'm curious about this art meme going on lately, and figured I'd try it out between the most requested from both sites or what I might decide; which I'll give it a week, I guess.

So what 6 characters should I put on the template?

A morbid idea I've thought of for if I were to be infected by this plague and if I were going to die from it, I would accept it. Because quite frankly, I don't really have much going on for me anyway.
I don't have a family of my own; I'm just the kind of loser whose stuck with his mother. I haven't had any straight forward goals, and never gotten through college. I'm just someone who has very little going for him, and wouldn't really amount to anything in the grand scheme of things. And since I have been having many feelings of despair for quite some time, I would welcome death for when it may be written.

Just being self-aware at the moment, but it would seem that on the art sites that I go to, I wonder why some people would watch me when I don't usually do any of the art they would prefer; such as certain fetishes that I don't remotely do.
From the past I have been known to cater to one particular fetish (which has been somewhat been a comeuppance lately this year, and I need to stop that) and some dozen watchers recognize me for that; which is okay. But then I would be watched by people that, based by their favs, seem to cater fetishes that I don't even specialize; like vore, feet/paws, and fat to name a few.
So it all comes down to wondering why would people be watching me anyway when I don't do those kind of pictures.

I'm thinking of reopening on doing sketch commissions. Like last time, it will be $5 with no backgrounds, additional characters will range from $1 to $5 depending on complexities, and more importantly NO MATURE OR ADULT CONTENT.

I'll open up to 4 slots like last time, and bare with me that sometimes depending on life and motivation, it may take some time depending on my whim. All will only be paid by PayPal.

Also depending on subject matter, it may be uploaded strictly on FA than on DA.

Lately I've been considering about why I should have a IM app like Discord when I don't usually chat very often. After knowing someone for the first time chatting, afterwords there's not much to talk about for a long while; usually the next chat with some would just fall flat. Maybe it's just my social awkwardness or maybe there's a lot of things that I can't find relatable with some people to have an engaging conversation. Often times it could be based on people from different time zones that would talk to me when I'm not available and vice versa. Also I don't often ever start a chat with somebody, I would rather have someone start a conversation whenever I make myself available; which I would often times forget to log off when I'm off the computer or phone that someone would say something and I can't respond at the time.

It's been a redundant thing for someone reclusive as me to have programs such as these that I might consider just not having them, and instead if someone wants to contact me, maybe just send notes instead. That way I can at least interact whenever available.

I should probably not think about coming up with a long term project or sorts, and not do anything beyond either the first page of things or a chapter. I have a habit of never really following up things after the first part and so many projects I've tried to start just fall flat. With this habit I don't think I will ever really get to make anything truly worthwhile.
Maybe it's my patience wearing ever more thin or I just don't use my free time wisely, but I need to stop coming up with ideas that I know would never flourish and just keep those ideas in my head. Like I might have said over two years ago, they would all be nothing more than a pipe dream.

Just want to let everyone know right quick that I've decided to close up shop from sketch commissions about a week ago. I've been busy with so much things that it has been slowing my motivation to work on them.

Aside from that, Merry Christmas & Happy Holidays.

So a couple of weeks ago I've turned 31, and once again I have these regressed feelings of what am I doing with my life every time I've been getting older. Being the one who stays with his mother, never gone to college, stuck at a dead end job, etc. Then of course never really "matured" in a sense to ever grow out of things, like video games or cartoons. Then there is the thought of why should someone at my age really be involved with a fandom like this that should have been more like an awkward teen phase or something around those lines.
You'd think someone who would became part of the furry fandom would have been around until at least 20, or 25 tops; like stated earlier, would have been something you did in your teenage years. But for me I never heard of the furry fandom until I was around 20, and you could say I had some hints of being a furry before I ever knew that it was a thing when I was getting into drawing pictures since my teenage years. But here there would be people who are older than me or almost twice my age (?!) and are still in the fandom that I fell like saying to them "What is wrong with you?!" You would say that this fandom would be no different from people who still like anime or comic books and this is just another type of geek culture, but then again, let's be honest, this is all just nothing more than a sexual kink in the grand scheme of things. And I guess for some, people would move out of the fandom because of other things besides the stagnation.
I've noticed some popular artists that I've been familiar with that had recently moved out and I feel like that maybe it could be the same with me too somewhere down the line. Perhaps in a way that if ever I do make something of myself, this whole thing would be like a skeleton in the closet. But since in the current state of things, I'd basically be no different from just another loser of life.

I've decided to open myself to do only sketch commissions. The rules are as follows:

1. Price of the picture will be $5 with no backgrounds.
2. If it involves additional characters, it will be $1 to $5 extra depending on design complexity (as in if the other character is more simpler to draw compared to the other).
3. You don't have to pay until I completely finish the sketch.
4. NO MATURE OR ADULT WORK!!!
5. Payments will only be paid through PayPal.

- I will be open for at least 4 slots, so after I have 4 customers in stock, anymore offers will have to be on hold until I have a space available; which will be updated on my profile tab.
- Depending on the subject matter of the sketch, as in if it's something fetish related, chances are I will only have it posted on my FurAffinity page since I would rather keep DeviantArt as my more publicly presentable gallery.

I'll try to make these picture done as soon as possible whenever I'm not too busy with other things in life like work, domesticated needs, or loss of motivation, so bare with me if I take a long while to process a picture.

I've been contemplating if I should do quick and cheap sketch commissions, like ranging from $5 to $10 depending on complexity.

Aside from some of the people here who knew me from an earlier account, what is it that people watch me for?

After a whole month of job searching, I haven't had any luck, so I've decided to go back to the old pizza place. I was starting to lose money, and no one wasn't going to hire me. I tried getting one job down, and even had an interview, but they never called me in for drug screening more than the week afterword. So again, for like the 4th time I think, I got back to the pizza job. At least it should hold me up for who knows when I ever get a better job. Unless I should try to go back to school and try to get a bachelor's degree, if I can ever deal with living with the peeves of schools all over again.

I've quit my pizza delivery job after giving a 2 week notice. So now I just need to find myself a new job and hopefully have one where I can last more than half a year, and maybe hopefully it should be a job that I can live off better from.

At this point in my life I'm more likely gonna be stuck with dead end jobs more than ever.

I've decided that I'm going to close up on commissions for now, because lately I've been rather clouded up with things like work and life that it has been rather taxing on my motivation. So whenever I get done with the following commissions on the list, I won't be accepting any more commissions until further notice.

I just have to get over this art block so that I don't have something else clouding up my mind along with other things going on with me outside of art.

It seems from a statistical stand point that when I make a picture that I actually put some effort into, such as with a background and everything, it doesn't get as much attention as opposed to a picture that I didn't put much effort into. It often happens a lot with some of the pictures I make, and it makes me wonder if I shouldn't really bother with putting so much work in some pieces.

Does anyone think that maybe I make Wile E. look a bit too "anatomically correct" or anatomically structured from his general design?

Yesterday I got me a job, and it was the old job that I quit over a year ago. After a while of having some unstable jobs and having a couple of months of unemployment (along with a short lived moving out plan), I figured I'd have to go back to the one job that I had worked for 6 years. So now I guess I should good be enough to finally sustain myself until then.

I am still open for commissions, though that would mean that I would be slower to produce them since now that I have a job and all.

Since I have been unemployed for over a month, and having trouble finding a good job, my money is starting to become scarce. So now I've decided that to open myself for commissions to at least have some sort of income until I may find myself a good job or at least have something for standby.

The information is stated under my profile page; with price ranges and rules. You can note me for information about what is allowed and not allowed.

I'm hoping to get back into doing a Flash animation for the first time in years. Could be a rather ambitious project, but I hope it will turn out as great as I hope it will be since it has been in my mind for quite a long while.

As much as I try not to return to a fetish that I used to specialize, it seems I get watches and faves from people that cater to it despite that I don't do it very often. Even though I have been having some yearnings to do some lately, I soon start to remember the things that I didn't like about doing them, and that really, at the end, I feel rather ashamed when I finish them afterwards.

I feel like my mind is slipping into madness and despair. I'm really starting to lose my grip with everything: my home, my family, and even myself. I just want to be left alone, and have nothing to do with anything. I can't stand it anymore.

I feel like I have no options at all to better myself, or to truly progress in this world. I'm never going to be satisfied with anything, and I will never be able to achieve anything at all. I lack any practical skill, and very little social skills whatsoever to be fit for this life.

I'm almost 30 years old, and what do I have to show? Nothing. Nothing at all. All my life I've done nothing wrong, nor have I done anything good; I just went along living doing nothing at all, just going through the motions of life. I don't know what's the blame, either myself, or some factor of my life.

There's no hope for me at all.

I just want out from this life.