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General | Posted 11 years agoI THINK I am getting better. A bit of a cough due to phlegm, and a very mild sore throat.
I had a bit of a fever last night, but so far, nothing today. So...
Good news, I think I'm getting better.
Bad news, I think
demondragon is coming down with the flu, as he said he was kinda achy when he got up.
But overall, I think I just needed a fuck ton of sleep. I mean... I slept for 12 hours today, and about 13 the day before, only getting up to get a drink and use the bathroom.
So, yeah. Almost better *knocks on wood*.
I had a bit of a fever last night, but so far, nothing today. So...
Good news, I think I'm getting better.
Bad news, I think
demondragon is coming down with the flu, as he said he was kinda achy when he got up.But overall, I think I just needed a fuck ton of sleep. I mean... I slept for 12 hours today, and about 13 the day before, only getting up to get a drink and use the bathroom.
So, yeah. Almost better *knocks on wood*.
Yay!
General | Posted 11 years agoApparently I have the flu! Rejoice!
Here's hoping
General | Posted 11 years agoStill sick. Better, but worse.
Running a much more noticeable fever, body aches, and coughing up grey phlegm. Slight cough, and overall fatigue. Bright side: throat isn't as sore as it was.
Downside: I had to take a hydrocodone just to take the edge off of the body pain. I seriously hope I get over this soon. I'm growing tired of eating soup.
Running a much more noticeable fever, body aches, and coughing up grey phlegm. Slight cough, and overall fatigue. Bright side: throat isn't as sore as it was.
Downside: I had to take a hydrocodone just to take the edge off of the body pain. I seriously hope I get over this soon. I'm growing tired of eating soup.
Pain
General | Posted 11 years ago demondragon got sick, then I got whatever he had... I think. Only difference: where he seems to be getting better, aside from a cough, I am getting worse.It started as a scratchy throat and a stuffy nose. Then it was a sore throat and body aches, and now, it's severe throat pain. So severe it made me cry out in my sleep, waking myself up within the hour, and not even the lidocaine gel I'd been given works.
Note: the gel given to me for when I had a sore in throat that has me eating yogurt for two weeks... That gel that numbed THAT pain... It can't even take the edge off of what I am presently feeling.
What the hell is wrong with me...?
New Leaf
General | Posted 11 years agoFor those who have seen my town, you know that I have a LOT of flowers.
Well, I am working at putting them to use effectively, and am quite pleased with the results so far. My gates will be open while I work, if you wish to stop by. If I happen to be asleep, I regularly update my dream.
4500 2146 8319. Check it out and tell me what you think.
Well, I am working at putting them to use effectively, and am quite pleased with the results so far. My gates will be open while I work, if you wish to stop by. If I happen to be asleep, I regularly update my dream.
4500 2146 8319. Check it out and tell me what you think.
Fun Times
General | Posted 11 years agoSo! To summarize what has happened in these last few days: I disowned my father. Completely. I don't even think of him as my father, to the extend where I refer to him as Tony. Note: He's living life as a woman now. Can't have the surgery, so he just dresses the part, and his name is now Antoinette. SO!
Me referring to him as Tony shows that 1) I do not acknowledge what he has done with his life / who he is, and 2) He's not my father. he's not even "sperm donor" status. He's just another stranger whom I feel nothing for.
That's the summarized version of everything, really. Dad was a dick, I got tired of wanting and not getting, so I told him how it was, and I made it a public post in Facebook, just cause (though I know it won't really change anything in reality. I just get the satisfaction of imagining people reading what I put up and going "Damn. Tony really sucks as a human being.")
The entire Facebook post is below, so... Don't pass the line if you don't wanna read it. *nodnod*
So, I sent a text to my father yesterday, because, apparently, no matter how many times I say that I am done trying, I just keep on trying.
"I want to know if I should keep trying to text you and keep contact. You rarely reply, and it is really disheartening."
Simply put: I text him at various times, TRYING to find a time that is good, and I never get a reply. The last time I was able to talk to him at all, it was on the 3rd of April, and he told me that he couldn't talk because he was going to bed. Understandable. But I couldn't contact him the next day, because it was his birthday, and he'd be out with girlfirneds... I texted him anyway. A simple "happy birthday", but no answer. I didn't expect one.
Anyway; I deleted his number yesterday, but felt bad, so I put it back into my phone, and today, I got a reply to the text from yesterday.
"I'm here for the moment. You seem to want me to be available during times when I'm either working, resting, or trying to have a life. Sorry about that. I'm diabetic with a small heart condition, and I'm doing what I can to be happy. I have people who seem interested in seeing me achieve that goal."
This, to me, translates to "I'm too busy having a life to talk to my son, and this is an inconvenience to me."
As a side note: I live with a diabetic woman who has heart problems, numerous health issues AND she's raising two mentally handicapped children.
What I said: "No. What I want is to have some kind of relationship with you even if that means you returning my texts whenever you can. You don't have to answer immediately, but just answer. That is ALL I want, really. But if it is getting in the way of you having a life, then I can stop. Sorry."
What I WANTED to say: "You know what? Fine. Having a son is too inconvenient, and is interfering with you life, then having a father who doesn't care is too inconvenient for me. I don't want every available moment of your time. I don't want you to try to make up for all the years that you have missed, and I don't want you to pretend that you love me. I just want to have my father in my life. That is ALL that I have wanted. But that is too much to ask for. So, I don't want it anymore. I don't NEED it anymore. I've grown up without you in my life, and I can keep moving forward without you. But I still wanted you there. Maybe just to talk if I needed, or something SIMPLE.
But what you have now is more important than the son that YOU helped create, so fuck it. I'm done being the only one to try to have some flimsy form of a father/son relationship, and this is it. I'm NOT trying anymore."
So, seriously. This is it, Tony, or whatever it is that you go by now (I don't know since we never talk), if you can take the time out of your precious day to read this. I'm done reaching. I'm done trying. I'm done HOPING that you can give two shits and try to at least PRETEND to be there for your son. I'm done wondering why you don't seem to want anything to do with me. I'm done with the bouts of depression as I try to figure out why my FATHER doesn't want me.
I'd say that it is your turn to wonder, but you won't. I know enough now to KNOW that you won't. Hell, I'm surprised that you even remember who I am, so... This is it. You number is no longer in my phone. I'm not adding it back. You want a relationship with your SON, then YOU come to ME about it. But until that moment, until you can actually TRY to be there for your son for once in your life... I don't think that I can justify calling you my father.
Side note: I got a tattoo of my dad today. (No, the picture is not me, but... You get the point, right?)
https://scontent-a-atl.xx.fbcdn.net.....05307845_n.jpg
Edited in: I got another text from him. "I'm not saying you need to stop, just that you need to understand. I see your entries on fb and just home that you are able to make the best decision possible for you. Remember, it's been nearly 20 years since I've seen you and we're virtually strangers. Save the drama for your mom."
To which I said: "Yeah. 20 years WITHOUT MY FATHER. It is not MY fault that we are strangers. I have tried. All I ask is that you just take a little time to text me. At LEAST. So we AREN'T strangers. You look at my FB again, and my decision is clear. What happens now is up to you, because I am tired of wanting something that I obviously can't have."
The sum of his response: "I tried to keep contact when you and your sister were small, but Kathryn spent time and energy sabotaging my efforts by keeping your mother and I fighting each other. Since your last statement can be perceived as an ultimatum, it will be taken as such. Have a nice life."
Let's just say these go back and forth. Me, him, and so on. Just so you know.
"My last text, or my facebook post, because really, it comes down to YOU and what YOU want. Do you WANT to have a chance to know your son? Because I WANT to know my father."
"Not acting like this, you don't."
"Yes. I do. But it is ungodly frustrating trying to simply TEXT you. You make it seem like my wanting to contact you is more of a burden than anything."
(And that is where the texts stopped.)
Me referring to him as Tony shows that 1) I do not acknowledge what he has done with his life / who he is, and 2) He's not my father. he's not even "sperm donor" status. He's just another stranger whom I feel nothing for.
That's the summarized version of everything, really. Dad was a dick, I got tired of wanting and not getting, so I told him how it was, and I made it a public post in Facebook, just cause (though I know it won't really change anything in reality. I just get the satisfaction of imagining people reading what I put up and going "Damn. Tony really sucks as a human being.")
The entire Facebook post is below, so... Don't pass the line if you don't wanna read it. *nodnod*
So, I sent a text to my father yesterday, because, apparently, no matter how many times I say that I am done trying, I just keep on trying.
"I want to know if I should keep trying to text you and keep contact. You rarely reply, and it is really disheartening."
Simply put: I text him at various times, TRYING to find a time that is good, and I never get a reply. The last time I was able to talk to him at all, it was on the 3rd of April, and he told me that he couldn't talk because he was going to bed. Understandable. But I couldn't contact him the next day, because it was his birthday, and he'd be out with girlfirneds... I texted him anyway. A simple "happy birthday", but no answer. I didn't expect one.
Anyway; I deleted his number yesterday, but felt bad, so I put it back into my phone, and today, I got a reply to the text from yesterday.
"I'm here for the moment. You seem to want me to be available during times when I'm either working, resting, or trying to have a life. Sorry about that. I'm diabetic with a small heart condition, and I'm doing what I can to be happy. I have people who seem interested in seeing me achieve that goal."
This, to me, translates to "I'm too busy having a life to talk to my son, and this is an inconvenience to me."
As a side note: I live with a diabetic woman who has heart problems, numerous health issues AND she's raising two mentally handicapped children.
What I said: "No. What I want is to have some kind of relationship with you even if that means you returning my texts whenever you can. You don't have to answer immediately, but just answer. That is ALL I want, really. But if it is getting in the way of you having a life, then I can stop. Sorry."
What I WANTED to say: "You know what? Fine. Having a son is too inconvenient, and is interfering with you life, then having a father who doesn't care is too inconvenient for me. I don't want every available moment of your time. I don't want you to try to make up for all the years that you have missed, and I don't want you to pretend that you love me. I just want to have my father in my life. That is ALL that I have wanted. But that is too much to ask for. So, I don't want it anymore. I don't NEED it anymore. I've grown up without you in my life, and I can keep moving forward without you. But I still wanted you there. Maybe just to talk if I needed, or something SIMPLE.
But what you have now is more important than the son that YOU helped create, so fuck it. I'm done being the only one to try to have some flimsy form of a father/son relationship, and this is it. I'm NOT trying anymore."
So, seriously. This is it, Tony, or whatever it is that you go by now (I don't know since we never talk), if you can take the time out of your precious day to read this. I'm done reaching. I'm done trying. I'm done HOPING that you can give two shits and try to at least PRETEND to be there for your son. I'm done wondering why you don't seem to want anything to do with me. I'm done with the bouts of depression as I try to figure out why my FATHER doesn't want me.
I'd say that it is your turn to wonder, but you won't. I know enough now to KNOW that you won't. Hell, I'm surprised that you even remember who I am, so... This is it. You number is no longer in my phone. I'm not adding it back. You want a relationship with your SON, then YOU come to ME about it. But until that moment, until you can actually TRY to be there for your son for once in your life... I don't think that I can justify calling you my father.
Side note: I got a tattoo of my dad today. (No, the picture is not me, but... You get the point, right?)
https://scontent-a-atl.xx.fbcdn.net.....05307845_n.jpg
Edited in: I got another text from him. "I'm not saying you need to stop, just that you need to understand. I see your entries on fb and just home that you are able to make the best decision possible for you. Remember, it's been nearly 20 years since I've seen you and we're virtually strangers. Save the drama for your mom."
To which I said: "Yeah. 20 years WITHOUT MY FATHER. It is not MY fault that we are strangers. I have tried. All I ask is that you just take a little time to text me. At LEAST. So we AREN'T strangers. You look at my FB again, and my decision is clear. What happens now is up to you, because I am tired of wanting something that I obviously can't have."
The sum of his response: "I tried to keep contact when you and your sister were small, but Kathryn spent time and energy sabotaging my efforts by keeping your mother and I fighting each other. Since your last statement can be perceived as an ultimatum, it will be taken as such. Have a nice life."
Let's just say these go back and forth. Me, him, and so on. Just so you know.
"My last text, or my facebook post, because really, it comes down to YOU and what YOU want. Do you WANT to have a chance to know your son? Because I WANT to know my father."
"Not acting like this, you don't."
"Yes. I do. But it is ungodly frustrating trying to simply TEXT you. You make it seem like my wanting to contact you is more of a burden than anything."
(And that is where the texts stopped.)
It's all in the hair...
General | Posted 11 years agoI see a LOT of gay guys posting selfies, and they always look good.
Perfect hair, perfect smile, perfect weather, perfect freakin' everything. And then there's me...
https://scontent-b-atl.xx.fbcdn.net.....90509961_n.jpg
Posting half-assed selfies in a the bathroom with a POS phone. XD
Hat is on because I cut my own hair and it looked HORRIBLE, smile is bad because I can't smile. I can't even FAKE a smile. XD
And I THINK it was raining and just gloomy outside.
Yep. I'm NOTHING like the stereotypical gay guy.
Perfect hair, perfect smile, perfect weather, perfect freakin' everything. And then there's me...
https://scontent-b-atl.xx.fbcdn.net.....90509961_n.jpg
Posting half-assed selfies in a the bathroom with a POS phone. XD
Hat is on because I cut my own hair and it looked HORRIBLE, smile is bad because I can't smile. I can't even FAKE a smile. XD
And I THINK it was raining and just gloomy outside.
Yep. I'm NOTHING like the stereotypical gay guy.
Forgettable
General | Posted 11 years agoI think I am a rather forgettable guy. I have had friendships with numerous people in the fandom, and we'd talk, have fun conversations and the like, and then those people just kinda... Disappeared.
I can name... At least tem who just... Faded away into near-obscurity. Like; I can remember talking to them, and the conversations, but...
"How long ago was it? Ah well. Doesn't matter, I suppose."
I dunno... Guess people just forget about me easily since I'm not popular or rich. And I don't own a fursuit.
And I've never been to a con.
Feh. Whatever. I suppose it happens to everyone at some-wait a sec... NOT everyone? Just me?
Oh... Okay.
*sulks in a gloomy corner of the internet.*
I can name... At least tem who just... Faded away into near-obscurity. Like; I can remember talking to them, and the conversations, but...
"How long ago was it? Ah well. Doesn't matter, I suppose."
I dunno... Guess people just forget about me easily since I'm not popular or rich. And I don't own a fursuit.
And I've never been to a con.
Feh. Whatever. I suppose it happens to everyone at some-wait a sec... NOT everyone? Just me?
Oh... Okay.
*sulks in a gloomy corner of the internet.*
What the HELL!?
General | Posted 11 years agoI'll admit that I have watched a few episodes of My Little Pony, but it's like... The show is the DEVIL! I swear it is!
First off; I'll be up front and say I'm NOT an MLP fan. I'm not "DEATH TO PONIES!", but I'm not about to start talking about how everypony needs to tune in and watch every single episode evar!
What happens is this: The children here turn on the show... I can't look away. It like... Takes my soul, bends it over the nearest table, and starts thoroughly buttfucking it! But I try to watch it by my own CHOICE... Nope. Not interested at all.
I DON'T UNDERSTAND!!!
First off; I'll be up front and say I'm NOT an MLP fan. I'm not "DEATH TO PONIES!", but I'm not about to start talking about how everypony needs to tune in and watch every single episode evar!
What happens is this: The children here turn on the show... I can't look away. It like... Takes my soul, bends it over the nearest table, and starts thoroughly buttfucking it! But I try to watch it by my own CHOICE... Nope. Not interested at all.
I DON'T UNDERSTAND!!!
I really do.
General | Posted 11 years agoIt's about tome I tell you how I feel
You make me slime every time I see you still
You are the beast. You are my lady
Girl, I really want you to hate my baby.
Remember the gay when I bet you?
I knew at that monument I would never let you go
Let's always be clothes together.
Don't go to fat, Heather
Baby girl, I wanna kill your lips.
We can hurl up on a blow up mistress
Oh, and guess who's black
(Who?)
Your ex, Niel, and he butternut text you
-Baby I lobe you.
You know that I do.
Wanna make live to ya.
Girl, you know that it's true.
Torch you all ova
Dim the lights until we are though.
Because I lobe you.
I wanna hate six with you.
(Niel)
I comb back to see the grill I adore
You don't answer my balls anymore
I heard you're searing Doug now. I don't understate.
Just last weed I saw him hissing on Kate.
He's gonna break your harp. He's a total disgrace.
And, of he does it I will pinch him in the face.
I'm the one for you. Why can't you pee?
You get one chance at lice. Baby rake it on me.
-Baby I lobe you.
You know that I do.
Wanna make live to ya.
Girl, you know that it's true.
Torch you all ova
Dim the lights until we are though.
Because I lobe you.
I wanna hate six with you.
(Doug)- He'll yes. I would dye for you.
(N) - He'll no. He's gonna lie to you.
(D) - Shut the he'll up before you get hurt.
(N) - You're a fluffing piece of shirt.
(D) - lykyttbii:hiiciddbeci
(N) - What's that?
(D) - A butt text. My bad.
-Baby I lobe you.
You know that I do.
Wanna make live to ya.
Girl, you know that it's true.
Torch you all ova
Dim the lights until we are though.
Because I lobe you.
I wanna hate six with you.
You make me slime every time I see you still
You are the beast. You are my lady
Girl, I really want you to hate my baby.
Remember the gay when I bet you?
I knew at that monument I would never let you go
Let's always be clothes together.
Don't go to fat, Heather
Baby girl, I wanna kill your lips.
We can hurl up on a blow up mistress
Oh, and guess who's black
(Who?)
Your ex, Niel, and he butternut text you
-Baby I lobe you.
You know that I do.
Wanna make live to ya.
Girl, you know that it's true.
Torch you all ova
Dim the lights until we are though.
Because I lobe you.
I wanna hate six with you.
(Niel)
I comb back to see the grill I adore
You don't answer my balls anymore
I heard you're searing Doug now. I don't understate.
Just last weed I saw him hissing on Kate.
He's gonna break your harp. He's a total disgrace.
And, of he does it I will pinch him in the face.
I'm the one for you. Why can't you pee?
You get one chance at lice. Baby rake it on me.
-Baby I lobe you.
You know that I do.
Wanna make live to ya.
Girl, you know that it's true.
Torch you all ova
Dim the lights until we are though.
Because I lobe you.
I wanna hate six with you.
(Doug)- He'll yes. I would dye for you.
(N) - He'll no. He's gonna lie to you.
(D) - Shut the he'll up before you get hurt.
(N) - You're a fluffing piece of shirt.
(D) - lykyttbii:hiiciddbeci
(N) - What's that?
(D) - A butt text. My bad.
-Baby I lobe you.
You know that I do.
Wanna make live to ya.
Girl, you know that it's true.
Torch you all ova
Dim the lights until we are though.
Because I lobe you.
I wanna hate six with you.
The ultimate question!
General | Posted 11 years agoDoth thou love me?
Xbox
General | Posted 11 years agoI have Xbox live for about one more week, and I have a few games playable online, and nobody to play with, so...
Minecraft, Left 4 Dead 2, Gears of war.... All are available to play. Just let me know if interested.
Minecraft, Left 4 Dead 2, Gears of war.... All are available to play. Just let me know if interested.
sideview
General | Posted 11 years agoWaffles.
Justice.
Confusion.
Make me.
You ain't my daddeh!
Justice.
Confusion.
Make me.
You ain't my daddeh!
A bit of venting
General | Posted 11 years agoOn a whim, I messaged my father today, trying, once more, to establish contact/conversation...
He was going to bed. Alright. I understand that. So I asked about tomorrow. It's his birthday, so he'll be too busy with his girlfriends to talk to his son. So, I essentially had to set an appointment for the fifth just to TEXT my FATHER when he's not to busy.
When I have to set an appointment to just text, I... No. Just no. I should not have to be penciled in to talk to a man who has not seen me in 20 years and calls himself my father. So... I'm going to "cancel" my "appointment", cause.. No. Fuck you, dad.
He was going to bed. Alright. I understand that. So I asked about tomorrow. It's his birthday, so he'll be too busy with his girlfriends to talk to his son. So, I essentially had to set an appointment for the fifth just to TEXT my FATHER when he's not to busy.
When I have to set an appointment to just text, I... No. Just no. I should not have to be penciled in to talk to a man who has not seen me in 20 years and calls himself my father. So... I'm going to "cancel" my "appointment", cause.. No. Fuck you, dad.
Zinogre Character incoming!
General | Posted 12 years agoSo!
For those of you who know Monster Hunter monsters, I am making a Zinogre. He's yet to be drawn, but it is happening very soon. So, I figure I'll turn to the people and see what you all think he should have and such.
I've some info in mind, but... It's nice to hear viewer input. The name I have in mind, however... Luz Raijin.
So, comment below, tell me what you think an anthro Zinogre should have for the following:
Name:
Height:
Weight:
Eye color:
Personality:
Potential abilities:
Naughty bits (Sheath? Knot? Barbs?)
Let me know EVERYTHING you think, cause... It could go into the character. You never know. And I DO like thanking people, so.. I can't make any promises, but I'd try to work something out.
For those of you who know Monster Hunter monsters, I am making a Zinogre. He's yet to be drawn, but it is happening very soon. So, I figure I'll turn to the people and see what you all think he should have and such.
I've some info in mind, but... It's nice to hear viewer input. The name I have in mind, however... Luz Raijin.
So, comment below, tell me what you think an anthro Zinogre should have for the following:
Name:
Height:
Weight:
Eye color:
Personality:
Potential abilities:
Naughty bits (Sheath? Knot? Barbs?)
Let me know EVERYTHING you think, cause... It could go into the character. You never know. And I DO like thanking people, so.. I can't make any promises, but I'd try to work something out.
Monster Hunter 3U
General | Posted 12 years agoI wanna play with people. This can be done by the power of 3ds and Wii u.
Anyone game?
Anyone game?
I swear...
General | Posted 12 years agoI'm as stupid as they come sometimes.
I had a page of nothing but commissions, and all the while, my brain just kicked into overderp mode. "I wonder where they got the money for that commission."
"That looks nice. I bet they paid a lot for it."
"I could probably draw like that..."
"Why isn't anyone giving ME money?"
note: I'm not bitter or jealous. Was just... Derping SO HARD. XD
A) Durries work... Most of the time. >.>
B) Good art does not mean expensive art.
C) I could NOT draw like that. I lack the patience to get something perfect to the point where I'd be happy getting it colored.
D) I have no talents that stand out as money-worthy yet, so OF COURSE nobody's throwing money at my feet.
Now... With that out of the way, I DEMAND you teach me to draw... Starting with stick figures.
I had a page of nothing but commissions, and all the while, my brain just kicked into overderp mode. "I wonder where they got the money for that commission."
"That looks nice. I bet they paid a lot for it."
"I could probably draw like that..."
"Why isn't anyone giving ME money?"
note: I'm not bitter or jealous. Was just... Derping SO HARD. XD
A) Durries work... Most of the time. >.>
B) Good art does not mean expensive art.
C) I could NOT draw like that. I lack the patience to get something perfect to the point where I'd be happy getting it colored.
D) I have no talents that stand out as money-worthy yet, so OF COURSE nobody's throwing money at my feet.
Now... With that out of the way, I DEMAND you teach me to draw... Starting with stick figures.
Skin/hair care
General | Posted 12 years agoOkay... I have a problem.
I have what I can only describe as chronic dandruff. I say chronic as in extreme.
Dandruff shampoo doesn't help. Medicated dandruff shampoo doesn't help...
Oils fail, Conditioner fails, just water fails...
Now, this isn't something that has JUST started. no... This has been an issue since forever. Like... I remember wiping dandruff off of my desk in second grade, so this is something that's been going on for at LEAST fifteen years... Fifteen years with no fix yet. So... If anyone has any idea as to what can be done to potentially rid my body of this accursed plague, I'm willing to try just about anything.
But seriously... There's like an inch of this stuff on my head at all times. Like my skin is super-dying and doesn't know how to lice.
My scalp just can't! It lost its ability to CAN, so please...
Teach my scalp to can again...
I have what I can only describe as chronic dandruff. I say chronic as in extreme.
Dandruff shampoo doesn't help. Medicated dandruff shampoo doesn't help...
Oils fail, Conditioner fails, just water fails...
Now, this isn't something that has JUST started. no... This has been an issue since forever. Like... I remember wiping dandruff off of my desk in second grade, so this is something that's been going on for at LEAST fifteen years... Fifteen years with no fix yet. So... If anyone has any idea as to what can be done to potentially rid my body of this accursed plague, I'm willing to try just about anything.
But seriously... There's like an inch of this stuff on my head at all times. Like my skin is super-dying and doesn't know how to lice.
My scalp just can't! It lost its ability to CAN, so please...
Teach my scalp to can again...
Mood: Accomplished
General | Posted 12 years agoI'm tired.
I'm in "polar bear/Tunder mode where I just don't give a fuck.
So, I poked at an artist who has owed me art for years VIA skype.
No response.
Waited a bit... Still no response.
Said person KNOWS how to contact me and hasn't. Last I heard was that my art would be worked on once home from a con.
Now, I plan on posting a copy of said message here, but let me say something first: When an artist says "I am too busy with work", but then has time to go to a convention that's one HELL of a drive away... Yeah... No... That doesn't typically go over well. Which is where This came from.
I'll be up front and honest with you. I don't expect my commissions to get done any time soon, if ever.
I don't want to sound like a dick, but... It's been what... Three years now? Before, you said that you were busy with work, which is fine, because... It's work. I can't expect you to not go just to do what you owe me and potentially put yourself out of a place to live. I'm not that kind of person. But when you have time to go to cons (where, as an artist, I'd assume you'd draw for people there) and stay for however long, but lack the time to draw owed art... That's frustrating. It really is.
As things stand now, Once I am working again, I doubt I'll be commissioning anyone that doesn't provide art before payment, as that trust is gone. This has not only happened with you, but another artist who has had me waiting for a year now. It may not be your intention (or it may be, I dunno), but I feel scammed. Like every time you tell me that you're going to work on my art, or you plan on doing it, you really don't intend to at all.
I've tried trusting. I've tried waiting... And waiting... But patience only goes for so long, and I'm about at the end of mine, and at the point where I don't really care anymore. To me, that money is gone. Spent, and of no further value to you, or myself, and since it is no longer of use, as is our agreement. The one from customer to artist (Ie: I give you money, you give me art).
As stated before, I have given up all hope of even seeing a single scrap of art, and if you need to ask, just know that no, I'm not angry. I'm just... Disappointed. In you, and myself. Primarily myself because I let myself get my hopes up, expecting something to happen time and time again, even though deep down, I really felt that it was highly unlikely...
Take this as you will, but... I'm just tired of waiting. Tired of expecting and getting nothing. Tired of being told "It will be done" and getting no results at all. We can still talk and such, but at the end of the day,there's a slim chance I'll be a returning customer, nor will I be able to recommend you for any form of commission in good conscience in the future.
So... Yep. That's the note/message. I'm not gonna say who it is. I don't want anyone TO say who it is in the comments. As I have stated in the past; I'm not looking to start any fires, so to speak. I'm not looking to amass an army.
All I'm saying is "This person owes me art, and HAS owed me art. And I feel good, cause I sent a message that is clear and to the point. Mostly because I'm in polar bear mode, but... What the hell"
Yay polar bear mode.
Yay inner Tunder...
Yay sleep! Speaking of: I found a way to stay asleep longer now. Still have bad dreams, but...
Headphones. I go to sleep, listening to my MP3 player. Blocks out all sound and such. So... Yeah.
To lazy to read everything? Let me summarize.
Stuff things, something about an artist and sleeping. Maybe a sleeping artist.
Peace out, and all them testicles!
I'm in "polar bear/Tunder mode where I just don't give a fuck.
So, I poked at an artist who has owed me art for years VIA skype.
No response.
Waited a bit... Still no response.
Said person KNOWS how to contact me and hasn't. Last I heard was that my art would be worked on once home from a con.
Now, I plan on posting a copy of said message here, but let me say something first: When an artist says "I am too busy with work", but then has time to go to a convention that's one HELL of a drive away... Yeah... No... That doesn't typically go over well. Which is where This came from.
I'll be up front and honest with you. I don't expect my commissions to get done any time soon, if ever.
I don't want to sound like a dick, but... It's been what... Three years now? Before, you said that you were busy with work, which is fine, because... It's work. I can't expect you to not go just to do what you owe me and potentially put yourself out of a place to live. I'm not that kind of person. But when you have time to go to cons (where, as an artist, I'd assume you'd draw for people there) and stay for however long, but lack the time to draw owed art... That's frustrating. It really is.
As things stand now, Once I am working again, I doubt I'll be commissioning anyone that doesn't provide art before payment, as that trust is gone. This has not only happened with you, but another artist who has had me waiting for a year now. It may not be your intention (or it may be, I dunno), but I feel scammed. Like every time you tell me that you're going to work on my art, or you plan on doing it, you really don't intend to at all.
I've tried trusting. I've tried waiting... And waiting... But patience only goes for so long, and I'm about at the end of mine, and at the point where I don't really care anymore. To me, that money is gone. Spent, and of no further value to you, or myself, and since it is no longer of use, as is our agreement. The one from customer to artist (Ie: I give you money, you give me art).
As stated before, I have given up all hope of even seeing a single scrap of art, and if you need to ask, just know that no, I'm not angry. I'm just... Disappointed. In you, and myself. Primarily myself because I let myself get my hopes up, expecting something to happen time and time again, even though deep down, I really felt that it was highly unlikely...
Take this as you will, but... I'm just tired of waiting. Tired of expecting and getting nothing. Tired of being told "It will be done" and getting no results at all. We can still talk and such, but at the end of the day,there's a slim chance I'll be a returning customer, nor will I be able to recommend you for any form of commission in good conscience in the future.
So... Yep. That's the note/message. I'm not gonna say who it is. I don't want anyone TO say who it is in the comments. As I have stated in the past; I'm not looking to start any fires, so to speak. I'm not looking to amass an army.
All I'm saying is "This person owes me art, and HAS owed me art. And I feel good, cause I sent a message that is clear and to the point. Mostly because I'm in polar bear mode, but... What the hell"
Yay polar bear mode.
Yay inner Tunder...
Yay sleep! Speaking of: I found a way to stay asleep longer now. Still have bad dreams, but...
Headphones. I go to sleep, listening to my MP3 player. Blocks out all sound and such. So... Yeah.
To lazy to read everything? Let me summarize.
Stuff things, something about an artist and sleeping. Maybe a sleeping artist.
Peace out, and all them testicles!
Own worst enemy
General | Posted 12 years agoNine times out of ten, I am perfectly fine sitting alone, but then...
That ONE time, my brain goes : "Hey! Remember how you were owed this? Well, this person is doing this other thing..."
Then something clicks. "They probably forgotten about me."
I think I am an easily forgotten person.
That ONE time, my brain goes : "Hey! Remember how you were owed this? Well, this person is doing this other thing..."
Then something clicks. "They probably forgotten about me."
I think I am an easily forgotten person.
Tired
General | Posted 12 years agoBetween the's here making so much damn noise all the time, and recurring nightmares, I have not been able to sleep more than a few hours a day. And when I am able to sleep, I'm sweating, restless, and having another nightmare.
Bah humbug. I'll be able to sleep eventually, I'm sure.
Bah humbug. I'll be able to sleep eventually, I'm sure.
Spiders watch you on the toilet
General | Posted 12 years agoJust finished playing some Gears of War 2 with my friend in Las Vegas and my stomach starts acting up, so to the bathroom I go. (Potential TMI below. Depends on how you think of it. Read if you want... Or don't. We shall see.)
So, there I was, sitting on the toilet, minding my own business, and, typically, while in the bathroom, I think of random songs. And I just happened to think.
I always feel like somebody's watchin' meeeeeee
Then I turned my attention to the sink. There, with all eight beady eyes on me was a big ol' brown spider. Dunno what kind it was, but it was almost as big as half of my pinky! Note: I'm not saying that the spider was huge, but it was a decent size, and I couldn't do anything, cause I was on the toilet! So...
The next little bit was spent, watching the spider watching me to make sure it didn't move. If it did, I'd totally just up and leave, cause.. So. But...! It stayed put.
Once done with the toilet business, I leapt into action! There were explosions, a 72 hour standoff, rockets... Thousands died... But I won! And the spider perished, and Chuck Norris came and thanked me personally.
Okay, okay... I grabbed a bottle of oxy clean cleaning spray and squirted it a few times, then drowned it in hot water as it tried to charge at me. Like.. Seriously. It ran AT me. When I moved, it turned to follow and kept trying to charge me down... Many may ask why I'd kill a spider when it's more afraid of me than I am of it. Well, I did it for a few reasons.
A) Spider + me = NOOOOOPE.
B) It was big and brown, and I thought that it could potentially be a brown recluse...
C) As stated, it seemed to be aggressive when I sprayed it.
D) It had seen too much. NOBODY watches me when I'm on he toilet and lives... Unless they're human and into that, even though it would be kinda weird...
So, there I was, sitting on the toilet, minding my own business, and, typically, while in the bathroom, I think of random songs. And I just happened to think.
I always feel like somebody's watchin' meeeeeee
Then I turned my attention to the sink. There, with all eight beady eyes on me was a big ol' brown spider. Dunno what kind it was, but it was almost as big as half of my pinky! Note: I'm not saying that the spider was huge, but it was a decent size, and I couldn't do anything, cause I was on the toilet! So...
The next little bit was spent, watching the spider watching me to make sure it didn't move. If it did, I'd totally just up and leave, cause.. So. But...! It stayed put.
Once done with the toilet business, I leapt into action! There were explosions, a 72 hour standoff, rockets... Thousands died... But I won! And the spider perished, and Chuck Norris came and thanked me personally.
Okay, okay... I grabbed a bottle of oxy clean cleaning spray and squirted it a few times, then drowned it in hot water as it tried to charge at me. Like.. Seriously. It ran AT me. When I moved, it turned to follow and kept trying to charge me down... Many may ask why I'd kill a spider when it's more afraid of me than I am of it. Well, I did it for a few reasons.
A) Spider + me = NOOOOOPE.
B) It was big and brown, and I thought that it could potentially be a brown recluse...
C) As stated, it seemed to be aggressive when I sprayed it.
D) It had seen too much. NOBODY watches me when I'm on he toilet and lives... Unless they're human and into that, even though it would be kinda weird...
Do you even LISTEN!?
General | Posted 12 years agoI think it's because I'm alreagy grumpy about previous eventa, but...
demondragon and I went to pizza hut, and per usual, the waitress asks "What would you like to drink". Seirra Mist, no ice.
I got water with ice. So, we asked her to correct it, and I made sure to speak clearly to let her know... Sierra mist with ice...
It made me most unhappy. And when asked for a refill, I politely declined, lest I get rude, cause... Twice I told her what I wanted, and twice, she did not listen...
The world sucks at the moment.
demondragon and I went to pizza hut, and per usual, the waitress asks "What would you like to drink". Seirra Mist, no ice.I got water with ice. So, we asked her to correct it, and I made sure to speak clearly to let her know... Sierra mist with ice...
It made me most unhappy. And when asked for a refill, I politely declined, lest I get rude, cause... Twice I told her what I wanted, and twice, she did not listen...
The world sucks at the moment.
Oh, yeah~
General | Posted 12 years agoI've been meaning to,but keep forgetting to mention...
I potentially got my toe fixed, temporarily, I'm sure. I called the hospital that I have been going to, asking if there was anything I could do to self-treat at home because the antibiotics that they gave me for my toe did not work. They reduced the infection, but within a few days, it was back and awful as hell. So what was supposed to kill of the staph didn't kill it off.
I told them everything that I had taken and done to get rid of it, and they proceeded to tell me that I'd have to go to the hospital if I wanted anything done. The funny thing is that the woman I was talking to advised a DIFFERENT hospital, so... Apparently, they just sucked.
So, I put it off, day after day, because I REALLY don't like going to hte hospital, then one day, I casually said "my foot burns", and so... demondragon decided to take me to the ER... In Mt. Airy. Not the local hospital. After some waiting, the doctor came in an dtook a look. Said he was just gonna clean it and send me on my way, but when he looked, he decided "Nope! That's too bad to just clean. Imma go get my tools and I'll be back."
Three shots of lidocaine, and I was not completely numb, which SUCKEd, but he cut anyway, and took out half of my nail.
Turns out, the other hospital didn't remove the nail right, and because there was still some of it there, the infection spread. BUT! It's not their fault, so I can't blame them.
The woman who cut it out told me "I don't notmally do this. This is not what I do. But if you want me to try..." and I said "fuck it. Do it". So...
Half of the nail was removed, I was given new antibiotics to take three times a day, two pills at a time, and...
So far, the infection looks to have cleared, but I JUST finished the antibiotics, and I am (mostly) pain free. So... Just waiting to see how it turns out in the end.
BUT!
I wore shoes, like... Closed toed shoes for the first time (aside from my grandmother's funeral) in over two years.
TWO YEARS!
I potentially got my toe fixed, temporarily, I'm sure. I called the hospital that I have been going to, asking if there was anything I could do to self-treat at home because the antibiotics that they gave me for my toe did not work. They reduced the infection, but within a few days, it was back and awful as hell. So what was supposed to kill of the staph didn't kill it off.
I told them everything that I had taken and done to get rid of it, and they proceeded to tell me that I'd have to go to the hospital if I wanted anything done. The funny thing is that the woman I was talking to advised a DIFFERENT hospital, so... Apparently, they just sucked.
So, I put it off, day after day, because I REALLY don't like going to hte hospital, then one day, I casually said "my foot burns", and so...
demondragon decided to take me to the ER... In Mt. Airy. Not the local hospital. After some waiting, the doctor came in an dtook a look. Said he was just gonna clean it and send me on my way, but when he looked, he decided "Nope! That's too bad to just clean. Imma go get my tools and I'll be back."Three shots of lidocaine, and I was not completely numb, which SUCKEd, but he cut anyway, and took out half of my nail.
Turns out, the other hospital didn't remove the nail right, and because there was still some of it there, the infection spread. BUT! It's not their fault, so I can't blame them.
The woman who cut it out told me "I don't notmally do this. This is not what I do. But if you want me to try..." and I said "fuck it. Do it". So...
Half of the nail was removed, I was given new antibiotics to take three times a day, two pills at a time, and...
So far, the infection looks to have cleared, but I JUST finished the antibiotics, and I am (mostly) pain free. So... Just waiting to see how it turns out in the end.
BUT!
I wore shoes, like... Closed toed shoes for the first time (aside from my grandmother's funeral) in over two years.
TWO YEARS!
oh dear!
General | Posted 12 years agoI have not played animal crossing in over a month...
I'm terrified to touch it and see what has become of my town...
WHAT DO I DO!?
I'm terrified to touch it and see what has become of my town...
WHAT DO I DO!?
