I freaking love this song. I just discovered the Turisas version and have been playing it nonstop.

Awesomeness in 4 minutes.

It's funny when someone you have no contact with tells you everything about you.

I peruse my ex's journal from time to time. It's very telling. Not telling of her, mind you, but more of me. She's in college for a medical...something, I'm in college for English.

Those who know about degrees knows from that description alone about who is going to go far and who is going to be stuck in a dead end job.

Short of actually writing bestselling books, or getting a lucky streak and becoming a news reporter, or even achieving the dream job I entered into this path to begin with to get, I don't foresee my career in being a critic of either movies or music in print panning out very far, and have been considering switching to something potentially medically related myself (likely an X-Ray technician), if not music production or... i don't know, cooking.

It's also telling to me that I've made some rather incredibly stupid mistakes with my life, and while she may not be in the best of situations, I know she has more experiences than I do. She got a job when we were still together. I slacked, and didn't get a job until recently. While the Recession is one of the main factors to blame (it hit rather hard here), the other major factor (and arguably the larger one) is my lack of drive.

My job is a fantastic one. I love it and I'm lucky to have it. It doesn't pay well enough to allow me total independence, though, and this realization that I've done nothing is what strikes me hardest.

We're both making something of ourselves, but she's much farther along than I am. I hate it. I would like to clarify, I don't hate her. I hate myself more for putting me into this position. I did this, to me.

In her most recent journal, she talks about how she's going to be alone, permanently. She's never been alone, truly. She has multiple friends, and has been in a couple relationships past me. I have...a few friends, not nearly as many as her. I see my friends once a week. Very little contact is made outside of that day. I also have not been in a relationship after her.

Both of these were mostly by choice, though I can tell my reclusive nature has started to have an adverse effect on me. Being alone has its merits, merits I enjoy very much, but when the desire to be with someone you love comes around, it's pretty tough to take. It passes eventually, of course, but involuntary loneliness isn't fun when it comes around.

Sometimes, I catch myself daydreaming about those few years, and what could have been had I made some different choices. "I could have done so much differently," I think to myself, and I think about how I could have seen her more often than...well, once. At the least, I could have made different choices to where I could see her every few months.

I usually try to shake these thoughts out, because if I dwell, I end up feeling godawful for the rest of the day because of what I did wrong, and knowing it can't be helped.

I'm going to go play FL like a villain plays his pipe organ, take my mind off things.

http://www.amazon.com/Watercolour-M.....dp/B003Z142M8/

I bought it, didn't really regret it. I like this guy's voice! It fits rather well. I love the vocoded backing vocals, I only wish I could do something that well, haha.

ZZ13

Have been for a little while, too. This explains why I largely don't upload here anymore, though I may still use this place for some smaller things. :)

http://soundcloud.com/djvee210

Catch ya.

ZZ13

I'm working on and off on some new stuff but it's all still very rough, hopefully some new stuff will be up soon though

Another few things keeping music and general activity down is 1. a special project of mine and 2. reality

In the meantime PLANTS VS. ZOMBIES IS ADDICTIVE AS HELL AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

Also Half-Life 2

<3 Father Gregori

ZZ13

So I've actually got quite a few albums in the pipeline right now, but work on all of them is coming along pretty slowly x3

Current Album List
DJ Vee - I Must Be Crazy!
Vida Astral - Funereal
Vida Astral - Lovely (Funereal Remix Album)
Woohoo Way - The Game You Never Played
Zerstorung - Graduate of FU

On the good side, it knocked my bloated New Submission messages from over 2,000 to 1,639.

Annnnd all my songs are still on here because I'm a lazy fuck and only upload stuff every once in a while.

Bad side, all those submissions I didn't get to see ;-;

DJ Vee

Hai,

 layjin-nailo has asked me to post that she is taking commissions! She has some really great art, you should definitely check her out if you want a great job! :)

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I'm on it

I'M ON IT

LOOK SEE I'M ON THIS LIST!!

I'M SOMEBODY NOW!

Haha.

While FA was down, I decided to flesh out my furry virtual band project, Vida Astral, out.

They now exist on MySpace and of course, Fur Affinity!

Expect new songs from "them" pretty soon. See y'all later!

ZZ13

So, in case you're wondering on just what's up with my last two submissions, here's your info.

Vida Astral is a project of mine. An experiment, if you will. What's the experiment? to see if I can pull off a virtual band. You know, like the Gorillaz, Dethklok, Josie & The Pussycats, etc. Except they're furry.

It's not much, to be honest. All "they" really are at the moment is a cover band, but "they'll" have original material soon enough.

Another piece of this experiment is to see if I can also make a new and fresh sound out of the same instruments with every song. I.E, mixing every song up to sound different from what the previous song sounded like, but with the same instruments.

I intend to separate Vida Astral from my own FA, once I'm ready to release some final songs. As in, once "they're" ready to release songs, "they" will show up on FA "on their own".

In closing, when it gets closer to Vida Astral to be fully unveiled I'll probably post a picture of the group here but be forewarned - There's a reason I don't have any visual art here, so take the picture with a grain of salt when it's posted. x3

I believe that's all for now...See you 'round!