Welp I was just peer pressured into buying Cuphead, everyone says it's a very good game but I just feel terrible over the way it came into my hands. This memory may screw with my experience playing the game...

{EDIT} It's my own damn fault

{EDIT AGAIN} The game is fine but I doubt my laptop can handle playing it too long, it overheats and the fan gets very loud.

I've been slowly migrating from Skype to Discord, so far it's been working out well but my only problem is a lot of people I regularly spoke to on Skype don't have a Discord. That's really the only thing keeping me using it.

I went out and bought the first Sonic game to get me excited in nearly fifteen years.

Only problem is I have to wait a bit cause it's the PC version (i don't have money to fork over for any new consoles) But this is actually worth the wait, Sonic Mania is mine and paid for.

Changed it to something more appropriate for this account...

Well lots of times I've wanted to quit doing art for good but something has always stopped me from that, myself.
Hear me out as I was the one who got me started, it's basically the best explanation for why I don't post as often as I'd like. Sometimes you feel like your art is the absolute worst and other times you feel like you need to rely on a gimmick or requests just to get recognized but actually you don't need any of that.

Doing requests will without a doubt attract some of the worst people you can find in this fandom and relying on a fetish can cause stagnation in your art (although there workarounds for this) Also certain gimmicks can trouble to artistic development. What I'm trying to get at here is do art for yourself, improve for yourself, it's okay to be a little selfish if it means you'll enjoy yourself. What good is doing art if it's not fun in some way?

Ive seen many an artist with a mediocre style have loads of followers and it used to piss me off but over the years I've noticed that those guys have pretty much fallen off the radar (or at least mine) but I gradually improved a little, became a little more confident and kept my mind open to learn, it's great. I've learned that it's easier to be recognized for your style by varying things up, doing more than porn/fetish stuff and putting fear aside.

Being an artist can be a real pain in the ass but I can't exactly give up at this point, so when things get a little too unmanageable even for me I take a break, managing stress is another part of keeping your passion alive. That being said my mood gets really screwy at times (blame home stuff) but I still enjoy art websites in general, I met lots of people here many of which have encouraged me to stay and create art.

One final thing of note, don't feel obligated to draw/ take commissions if your not in the mood or aren't in good enough health to do so.

Updated to reflect the ever so slight redesign of Zeto's helmet.
(he's always had eyes like that, it's an alternate way to draw em)

I may not seem like the kind of person that cares about others but I do, I just don't quite understand certain emotions so I avoid them. This is an obvious hint at the fact that I need to stop being alone all the time, I can't do everything in solitude it's just not me.

I'm a furry "artist" with a main porn account and a hidden clean account, and when I say hidden I mean nobody goes to the profile page.

Also that makes another journal that accomplished nothing, just like me.

Aside from the art I get from other people, I want to post more stuff that I've done but I feel like it'd be for naught.

....

To anyone who wanted a request, raffle or whatever attempt at free art are shit out of luck. I don't do that kind of stuff anymore ever again due to some people not being able to take no for an answer, hell I can barely draw for myself and these entitled asses think I'm gonna drop what I'm doing to draw their goddamn sonic OC or whatever crap they have, you blew it and grow up.

This aint directed at anyone I just feel I NEED to say this considering what website I'm in and the kinds of people I tend to attract.

I'm bad at it, people keep convincing me that I'm good at it but I'm not, it's even worse having let people down before many times. Overall it's left me bitter in regards to art, namely my own, that's right folks I hate my art cause I can't live up to anyone's expectations including my own, drawing is becoming less and less worth my time because of it and I'm fed up with it.

[EDIT] I needed to say that, I really did, well at least in my eyes I did.

Enjoy your pity sex

https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1.....rm?c=0&w=1

It's cool stuff

I've been gradually using discord more often than skype, mainly due to it being more functional (and less riddled with viruses) also the people I speak to most are there.
So here's my discord: Zebbo the boring #4766
btw, like with skype i'm more likely to chat with you if you have an actual icon, so you don't look suspicious to me.

Okay this will take some explaining but I'll try my best.

There's a strange behavior I've noticed over the years back in my time on deviantart and it's a problem that persists even today. I don't fully blame art community websites for this but they are one of the main issues, most if not all comments are all purely positive without the slightest bit of criticism, comments should have more substance than "wow cool" or "cutest thing ever" cause a lot of artists just stop pushing themselves after a while.
Worse still are the ones who get angry at someone giving out legitimate criticism or art advice, they sit around under the assumption that their art is perfect despite all the obvious flaws they believe to be correct. I'm not saying I'm a great artist by any means but I do know my flaws and shortcomings (perhaps too much) and I try to work through them. More people need to keep themselves open for input and be ready to learn new things, it's a major part of being an artist but some folks forget this and stagnate sometimes for a few weeks, sometimes for years.

This is why I call it devianyart syndrome, I've seen artists with art from several years ago thats identical to their current art, you should always strive for some degree of improvement even if it's just a dumb hobby to you, I'm well aware that everyone progresses at their own rate but still give it some effort, it's only natural to.

Blah issues, everyone has them so deal with it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WhDHx6Cisdg
Just ignore the butthurt rednecks in the comments (which are oddly few).

Please don't use the generic request message cause I'll assume that your a spammer/troll or whatever, at least tell me who you are.
[Edit] Also be sure to have at least some sort of icon so you don't seem like a scammer [Edit]

I sure hope there's a fan club for goats, the best farm animals of all.

I don't think FA is a good place for me to do it, I cannot tell if anyone here is being genuine or is this place cursed with false niceness. Also it's to be noted that I'm not good at social interaction, so there's gonna be times when I accidentally offend people even though that wasn't my intention. It makes me wonder if being around other people is actually worth the effort, I can't read minds and my mental disability just makes things that much harder for me, I don't know how people will react and I don't cause any conflicts because I don't understand the norms. So let's get things straight, I'm not gonna leave nor am I gonna stop posting my bullshit art, but I am gonna comment alot less. People don't need to hear me, I don't need to hear me and that's that.

Unless you actually come to my page/submissions...

........please wait......