So a few weeks ago or so now...I had sold me fursuit to a friend of mine. As much as part of me didn't want to give it up, I knew I had to do it. Since I haven't been involved with the fandom in forever, my fursuit just sat inside its case with no purpose. Which for a suit that is a lonely existence. He deserved to be used more because he was a great friend I got to wear from time to time. I will say before I packed him up in his box to send him away, I cried a little. Allot of good memories were had in that fursuit and I will never forget him. His personality will always stay with me, so I know he is never really gone. He spirit lives within me.

I know that he is in a better home now and I know his new master will take good care of him as I did. So the question is...will I ever fursuit again? It;s hard to say as of now...but never say never

Again, I thank you so my for the few year I had you, I love you with all my heart and will miss you much *Cries slightly*

Yes its been FOREVER since I've been on FA and what not. I'm sorry I haven't been more active. But as some of you know I'm not as involved with the fandom anymore. haven't even seen many of my friends in the fandom that are in arizona except a select few. I will write a more indepth journal when I post my last fursuit video on here.

I will be posting a new journal concerning my existence in the the fandom and something else that involves a video.. Just pay attention in the next few days or so.

So some of you know about that one journal I wrote about feeling distant and not really connected to the fandom..well its still true but now different. I say different because this time I know what I actually meant to say. So 2012 is coming really soon and there are allot of changes coming for me. One being a farewell to being apart of the fandom. Now I know your like "not another one these furs that say they are leaving the fandom because of drama? but its not that way. In some weird way my mind and soul feel as if I don't need the fandom anymore. I appreciate all those who I have met, all the fun times I have had and how I learned more about myself as a person. I will also still be close to certain furs who I have met even when I'm gone....I just think its my time to move on from being a furry and just be Adam and not zorin fox anymore. Being a furry in a way is still apart of my personality but not as important anymore. I know this may sadden all who may read this and didn't expect this of me but I know it has to be done.

As far as fursuiting goes I still like to wear it when I feel like wearing and it but that too might cease to be. I know the last thing major suiting event I will be hopefully doing is being able to wear it during my states gay pride parade, which is in April, and after that well I'll either just hold on to the suit and keep it in a storage box in my closet or sell it on Furbid..I don't know just yet.

So yes thats what I wanted to say and if you still want to be apart of my life when I am gone from the fandom, then send me a private message with your contact info and I will give you mine. There will be one more journal before I leave. I hope you all understand. Thank you for reading.

My friend is selling his bear suit..check out his journal....

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2748695/

So its been a few months since I have posted a journal and I'm sorry I haven't.

On a different note, I've been feeling distant with my group of furs out here in AZ or maybe furs in general.Idk what it is or why. I still have a good number of furiends that I still see every now and then and do talk to some online but I'm feeling different, almost like I'm out growing furry in general. Even with relationships I don't feel I need to have one with guys in the fandom. I've been reaching out more into the non fur community for new things and more. I'm not giving up being furry just yet but who knows what I will do next.

Yay me lol

I'll be going to Phoenix comicon tomorrow and will be fursuiting there with my friend. SO I was wondering who is going friday? And if you are maybe we can suit together?

My friend is doing something cool soon and so I'm reposting his journal on here...


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So This is just some footage of my good friend :Tarakoicon" fursuiting around Fc 2011. I want to make a full video of what I took of FC but I'm having some technical issues with video making software DX.. but enjoy this none the less hehe.

Well I'll be flying into San Jose Airport on thursday around 9:40am and Hopefully be at the hotel around 10:30am or sooner. This Should be a fun time. Though it maybe my last con for awhile because I'm starting to get cond-out. I'm sorry for those who would want to see me more at cons but its just how I feel. Though I'm thinking of only doing one con a year. Things can always change in the future, ya never know.

Well gtg now but I see you guys at FC 2011!

Well last week friday me and some of my other fellow AZ fursuiters went on a little mini golf adventure. Here is a video my good friend made of it.

If you haven't seen the new Harry Potter movie yet, then join me tonite when I go see it around 930pm to 10pm in the Phx area, Just message me on here and I'll tell yas where and what time the movie is.. See yas later!

SO due to certain circumstances and what not I will most likely won't be going to Mid West Furfest this year.. I know allot of you want to see me there and i Know i want to go but just the way things are going for me $$$ wise it doesn't seem likely... Although if I see any good deals on flights I will let yas guys know that I'm going...

BUt most definitely I am going to be at Further confusion 2011. I'm right now saving for that con. Only because my good friend got me a room spot which is super nice of him to do so hehe.. So in closing I will keep you all updated to when you'll see this fox next.

Well as you can see it my lastest submissions i have done some cool fursuit photo shopins for a 2 of my fursuiter friends. Many seem to love what I do so I guess I'll start taking commisions for people who would love their suits super imposed in some form bei it movie poster or whatever they want. I can even do some coo Fursuit photo badges. This is still speculation about how i'll do this but yeah lets see what happens..

$15 for fursuit put into something (whatever you want) $10 badges Another $10 for printing and laminating art

All money payed will be thru paypal, I will send you amoney request through ther before you recieve the finished product. You will how ever recive a black and white version to help proof read/see what it looks like so far. More info will be told thru email or notes on FA

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http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4300344/

Ask me 5 things, can be anything. I will answer to the best of my abilities depending on content.

This is a repeated journal that did and i though it was interesting.

Here is a vid thats already on youtube but it is the full version of it.

Ok since my last journal ive decided that from this point on in order to move on with my life and to not think about the issues i've been writting about lateky on here. I'm goona stop ranting to my freinds and even tyoing anything even close to the idea because i really don't want to be sad any more...

SO please no one mention anything about my past issues..i am thankful to those how have helped me so far with all your good advice..it has helped me. I just really need to divert my thoughts to better things than this..

Thank you

How do you tell your heart and mind that you don't need love and to just try and move on with your life? its sooo fucking hard to stop my mind from thinking about relationships or the mate issue. Im soo sick and tired of trying to go after someone and it just blows up in my face and *cries hard* i just take it any more.. TRYINg isn't worth the pain and time, it just makes things worse in the long run. Love is hirting me more than helping me. Somebody remove these past few months of pain and suffering ive gone thru cause its not helping me move on with my life.

As most of you know from my last journal i was sticking to the plan of letting love finding me instead of me going after it..and just after a few hours thinking about it..it sucks not searching for it and getting it.. i feel a little depressed and sad about this. Waiting makes my feel more hurt than it was. And i curse the day that my ex hurt me so =bad and now ive come to this point of pain that still lingers in me.. *sighs heavily* i need a lover now so bad.. I mean i know i have the love of friends and family but mate love is better that that.. Damn the waiting...

Why is it when ever i invite any of you to hangout with me that you never return the favor and call or message me to have me join you in something fun or interesting. I sick and tired of having people who seem to generally like me and like being around me and they don't even have the balls to want to be with me and expect me to do all the dirty work. I'd hate to have to wait for anyone to call and text me to do somethiNg every week but maybe its something i need to do to see if anybody truly cares.. I mean i know i have some friends that will invite me on occasion to do something but its sometimes very rare to happen.

SO IF ANY OF MY AZ FRIENDS CARE ABOUT ME AND GENERALLY WANT TO HAVE ME AROUND, PLEASE MESSAGE OR CALL ME.

Totally random chatting about art, i recorded this and had
and talk about this painting above my couch lol