Setting up my lighting show file for Furrydelphia! Come hang out!

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Live now! Animal Music might get me Copyright strikes! Converting old cassette tapes to digital!
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For anyone who's interested, my next stream will be a Discord Exclusive. Gonna be converting some old cassette tapes to MP3s, so there's some concerns about copyrights and such. Gonna try for either Monday or Wednesday. Here's the Discord link. Let me know if you have trouble with it.

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Going live to play Among Us with randos! And maybe friends, if anyone wants to join! Will update with the lobby code once I get started! Stay tuned!

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Going live now! Friday the 13th Spooky Season Stream, with the original Luigi's Mansion on the GameCube!

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Come keep me company for a bit!

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More of the usual schtick! #NintendoSwitch #ACNH
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Gonna do some more Animal Crossing and time travel on stream tonight, aiming for about 7pm (about half an hour from now!)

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Ok, here's the deal. Got home early from work, so need a bit to take a shower and settle in, then gonna stream for a while. Tune in and see what happens!

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Maybe streaming later this evening, if I can get my shit together.

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Gonna be streaming in about half an hour. I'll be making the lights flash and stuff while my friend DJs! Come check it out!

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I started streaming on Twitch a couple weeks ago. Gonna do an extended stream this weekend, probably Saturday afternoon and evening. Plans include Animal Crossing New Horizons and Breath of the Wild. Come on by and see what happens!

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It's been a while, so just giving some updates here.

I will be attending Anthrocon 2022 in Pittsburgh, PA. It's my first con since the pandemic began, and I can't wait to get back to it. The last con I attended/staffed went well, or so I thought, but a lot of behind-the-scenes stuff came out about it later, and it's left a bad taste in my mouth. I'm ready to put that one behind me, and start again.

That being said.... I'm planning to try something new (at least for me) at Anthrocon this year. I'm planning to wear skirts while I'm there. Maybe not the whole time, but enough to get a good feel for it. I've been thinking lately that I want to experiment with my presentation, and I think this will be a good step in that direction for me. So with that, a note to the 18+ crowd: If you see me wearing a skirt around Anthrocon, please feel free to reach under my skirt. Or just grope me in general. Please. I'm touch starved.

I don't know how many are going to read this, but I want you all to know that I now own a Nintendo Switch. If you'd like to add me as a friend, my Friend Code is SW-6133-7152-5053.

Gonna keep this short.

My older brother's fiancee passed away this morning, after an ATV accident last night. She was 30 years old, and leaves behind her mother, my brother, and a 10-year old daughter.

I know there's not really anything that can be done about it now, but my whole family could really use any thoughts and prayers you can spare. Also, I know things are rough all around, but if you have some change to spare, my other sister-in-law set up a GoFundMe page for them. They could really use the help, so please consider it if you're able. https://gf.me/u/x7yhwa

I hope this works...... Tilt your head to the left, and read the mouths.

So I'll get the "other stuff" out of the way first. There's been a lot going on in my life, that a lot of you might not know about, since I mostly lurk around here and don't post much these days. This will at least partially explain that.

Just under a year ago, my boyfriend at the time broke up with me, and is now with his roommate from college that he moved in with. See previous journal. I'm still not quite ok, but I'm getting there. I've realized that I don't miss him as a person as much as I miss the relationship we had.

In happier news, I got a new job about three months ago. Full-time with benefits and all that good shit. I love the job, the people I work with are cool, and it's just a lot of fun. I'm starting to realize that my life isn't nearly as boring as I make it out to be.

Because of this new job, I had to move out of my parents' house. I have my own apartment now, and I'm still working on getting settled in. It's a nice 2 bed, 1 bath unit, and the rent is decently affordable for me. Sure, it gets lonely sometimes, but overall I'm happy with it.

And now, our Feature Presentation.

Anthrocon 2016 Meme!

Where are you staying?
Hampton Inn. Can't beat included breakfast and parking.

What day are you getting there?
Arriving in Pittsburgh Thursday evening

How are you traveling?
Driving

Who are you rooming with?
  djkyota   zuruikitsune and   hoxaus

Who will you hang out with during the convention?
Probably my roomies quite a bit, as well as anyone who wants to hang out with me.

How is the best way to find you?
I'll have my badges. Maybe I'll post a RL pic shortly before the con for the face-matching types. If all else fails, the best way to get in touch with me is to text me. PM for my number, if you need it.

Are there any panels you might be attending?
I'm definitely planning to attend a lot of the concerts and performance type events.

What do you look like?
Goatee, glasses, shoulder-length hair tied back, t-shirt.

Will you be suiting?
Nope.... I don't even own a fur suit.

Do you do free art?
Sure! Though a word of caution, I'm not very good at drawing.

Do you do trades?
Same as above.

Do you do badges?
Same as above.

Do you do commissions?
Same as above.

What is your gender?
Male.

How tall are you?
about 5'9"

Can I talk to you?
Of course!

Can I touch you?
Hugs are fine. Anything else, please ask first.

How can I find you?
Come look for me! I'm probably gonna be in or around the DLCC most of the time. If all else fails, text me!

Can I visit your room?
Only if I invite you

Can I buy you drinks?
Yes please!

Can I give you stuff?
Sure!

Are you nice?
I try to be.

Do you have an artist table?
Nope

Will you be going to parties?
I'm not sure yet. If someone invites me, I would!

Will you be performing?
That depends on your definition of "perform". I'm a lighting guy... If they A/V crew lets me touch the lighting console, you might get to see some of my work!

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Jump! Wave! Yell! Throw things at me!

Where will you be most of the time during the day/s?
Probably in or around the Convention Center.

What/where will you be eating?
I like to make my rounds of all the Downtown Pittsburgh staples, like Furnando's (even though it's called something different now). And for all the times I've been to AC, I've never been to Tonic.....

Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
Absolutely!

Can I take your picture?
Sure! And let me know if you post it somewhere!

What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
Mostly, I just want to have a good time. I'm planning to volunteer on the A/V crew in the main ballroom a lot. I'd love to meet a lot of people and make some new friends.

Some of you have already heard, but for the rest of you, let me explain why this journal isn't following the standard "Anthrocon Meme" format. Unfortunately, my current circumstances have dictated that I must skip Anthrocon this year. I conceded back in January that I won't be going this year. The short story is that I can't afford it. The long story is that 2015 hasn't been good to me and I can't afford it because there's been a lot of shit going on in my life over the past 6 months or so. So if any of you are inclined to care, please read on.

I think it all started within days of the new year. The first weekend of January. My boyfriend and I had gone on a relatively short road trip to visit his mother and sister. As we were getting ready head home, my car died. RIP my 2003 Chevy Tracker. The thing had to be towed for the 2-hour, 100-mile trip home where it sat in front of my brother's garage for a month or so while I tried to figure out if I had the money to get it fixed or if I should get rid of it. I went with the latter, glad to be rid of another problematic vehicle (see HERE). But that also left me without my own car, which continued for a couple months.

During this time, work was incredibly slow for me. I had started a part time job back in August, but by spring I found myself with less money in the bank than when I started working. These were not happy times.

So then April rolls around. A family friend happened to be selling a '97 Chevy Tahoe. Older than I would have liked, but it was low-mileage because he had kept it as a spare vehicle. And the price was close enough to "right", so I bought it. Around the same time, my boyfriend and his roommate from school had signed a lease on a small apartment, planning to move into it at the end of the school year. The expectation was that I would also move in with them, so all the bills were (and still are) split three ways. Sounds like a good deal, but my work was still pretty slow, and now I have a car payment, rent/utilities, insurance, and other bills I have to cover. I never fully understood the phrase "living paycheck to paycheck", but I do know that I had to drain my savings, and still didn't have enough money to cover everything.

Also, on top of all the money problems, I've just been feeling pretty depressed for the last few months, and I have to admit, it's at least partially because of my inability to attend Anthrocon. It sounds stupid, but since my first Anthrocon in 2009, it's been the one thing I look forward to every summer. There are parts of myself that I keep hidden through the rest of the year because I don't feel comfortable enough with anyone to let them show. One of the reasons I love Anthrocon so much is because it's the one place I've found where I can really let loose and express myself however I want, and no one really cares. And it's not just that no one care, it's that everyone I've met at Anthrocon has been incredibly awesome. I get the feeling that we're all there for the same reason: Anthrocon is one of the most accepting environments I've ever had the pleasure of being a part of.

And on top of all that, I've been having a hell of a time trying to get in touch with "friends" that I haven't seen or talked to in a while, just to hang out and catch up or whatever. Text messages go unanswered. Phone calls not returned. Even Facebook messages seem to be ignored. I'm left feeling lonely and sad, and I feel like people are intentionally avoiding me. (Side note: never felt that way at Anthrocon.)

"But what about your boyfriend? Why don't you just go cuddle with him or something?"

Believe me, I there's nothing I want more than to be with him right now. As I mentioned above, he and his roommate from college got a small apartment back in April, with the expectation that the three of us would be living together. The two of them are all fully moved in, and have been since May. The problem now lies with me. It's taking me much longer to move in that we anticipated. Between work and stuff going on with my family, plus this ongoing depression, I've been having trouble getting all my shit together and moving it to the new place. In fact, I often find myself staring at a wall, not really doing anything. I've been getting bored really easily. I can't sit still for long periods, yet I can't bring myself to do anything productive. And this compounds on my frustration, dragging me deeper in to the cycle.

I was talking to a close friend last night. I mentioned some of the things I want to do with my life, and concluded that what I'm really lacking right now is momentum. Sure, it's easy to say "just get up and do it", but for most of the big goals I have for myself, I really don't know where to start. Example: I want to open up a night club and market it particularly to Furries and other "alternative lifestyle" communities in the area. The biggest problem I've come across is that I know absolutely nothing about starting a business.

Le sigh.

Well, enough of that for now. To those of you who will be there, enjoy Anthrocon for me. To those of you not going, have a good time this weekend anyway.

Where are you staying?
Hampton Inn

What day are you getting there?
Thursday, July 3rd

How are you traveling?
Driving with  the4th and  djkyota

Who will you be rooming with?
 the4th and  djkyota, among others. We have a full room. Sorry to anyone looking....

What is the best way to find you?
I'll be walking around. Most reliable way to get in touch with me is by either texting or calling. Note me if you need my number.

Are there any panels you might be attending?
A few, including some in the writing track, a meet & greet or two, and the Kage and 2 performances.

What do you look like?
I look like a guy. I wear glasses and I have a goatee. I'll be wearing at least one badge that says "Z. Wolf"

Will you be suiting?
No, as I don't own a fursuit.

Do you do free art?
If you ask me to, I will. Though I can't garuantee the quality. I'll do my best.

Do you do trades?
Sure, if you don't mind the quality (or lack thereof) of my art skills.

Do you do badges?
Again, if you want me to, I'll give it a shot.

What is your gender?
Male. And it's not hard to tell.

How tall are you?
Average, I guess. Last time I checked, I was 5' 9".

Can I talk to you?
Of course! Though you might have to be the one to start the conversation.

Can I touch you?
Hugs, hand shakes, hi-5's, and things like that are ok. Anything else is negotiable.

Can I visit your room?
Sure, when I'm there. Get in touch with me first.

Can I buy you drinks?
Yes please! I like things like Angry Orchard, Redd's, and ShockTop. All beer just tastes the same to me.

Can I give you stuff?
Sure, as long as it's nothing illegal.

Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Hugs are fine anytime. Snuggles are negotiable.

Are you nice?
I try to be. But I guess that depends on how you define "nice" and how I feel at the time.

How long are you going?
I'll be there until Monday morning.

Do you have an artist table?
Nah, I'll leave those to people with real talent and skill.

Will you be going to parties?
I don't know yet. If I get invited to some, then sure!

Will you be performing?
Not in front of large crowds.

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Yell, wave your hands, jump around, throw things at me...

Where will you be most of the time during the day/s?
Probably walking around.

What/where will you be eating?
Definitely gonna make a stop at Pizza Parma at some point. Also gonna be looking for Furnando's (or the equivalent)

Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
Of course!

Can I look in your sketchbook?
Sure! There's not much in there right now, but I'll have it on me at all times, just in case.

Can I draw in your sketchbook?
Yes please! I might even draw in it a bit, too!

Can I take your picture?
Sure!

What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
Have fun, hang out, and be myself!

(TL;DR at bottom)

I drive a 2003 Chevrolet Tracker. I don’t legally own it (it’s still in my mom’s name), but for all intents and purposes, it’s my car. I take care of paying for insurance, gas, and maintenance. This includes necessary repairs.

And speaking of repairs, it has a number of known issues. It burns oil. It has an exhaust leak. The air conditioning compressor doesn’t work, I’ve been told that it sounds like the lifters (whatever those are) sound like they’re collapsed. It needs new tires. I’m sure the brakes need to be adjusted. Long story short, it needs more repairs than I can currently afford, and at the point it’s at now, it might not even be worth fixing.

The big problem, then, is that I still need a vehicle to get around. Sure, I could borrow other people’s vehicles as needed. There’s plenty of options there: my mom’s Jeep, my dad’s Suburban, or any of my younger brother’s four trucks. But that doesn’t always work, for as many reasons: two of my brother’s trucks aren’t drivable, he’s doing work on one, and he uses the fourth one for his everyday needs; my dad absolutely hates letting other people use his truck; and my mom needs her car to get to work.

Another option is that I could buy a new vehicle. There’s a few models I’ve had my eyes on recently that I’ve heard good things about. But I can’t do that right now either, since I don’t always have a reliable source of income. On top of that, I’m still paying off a loan I took out in November 2012 to buy a 1998 Ford Expedition that I only had for four months. I sold that one to my uncle in March of 2013 after the front passenger seat caught on fire while I was driving.

On that note, here’s the solution I came up with, based on my current feelings of frustration and spite. I’m sure there are many of you reading this who have a significant amounts of pent up aggression. What I’ll do is clean out the Tracker at my earliest convenience, possibly this weekend. Then we’ll have a party in my driveway during which we’ll all take turns swinging a baseball bat at the offending vehicle. Once it’s sufficiently destroyed, I’ll haul it to a scrap yard and get whatever I can for it.

TL;DR: Let’s beat up my car with a baseball bat.

...the don't say anything at all. You've all heard that saying. Personally, I live by it. It's tough sometimes, but I get by. Usually I just come off as one of those quiet, pensive types. Which is all fine and dandy for me. I'm not much of a people person anyway. But sometimes there are things that you need to say, that there's just no way of saying nicely. Things such as, "Guys, I know we're in the middle of an RP, but it's 4 am where I live, and I need to wake up in five and a half hours." Or "You know, when you take ten to fifteen minutes to type one post in an RP, I have to fill that time somehow, and I get distracted and lose interest. We should have finished this scene two hours ago."

So you see where my problem lies. On one hand, it's incredibly rude to just "poof" out of a role-playing session, and even if you just out of nowhere say "I gotta get to bed. Night." it's still not generally accepted. Especially if someone's already called you out once for what they perceive to be "power-gaming." But on the other hand, it's almost quarter after four in the fucking MORNING. I should have gone to bed two hours ago. At that point, there's no way to say it politely.

So let's review what we know. Someone said that someone did something bad, and because of the popular opinion concerning that bad thing, everyone jumps to conclusions and assumes that it must be true, so they immediately express their support for one side, and their contempt for the other party. To hell with the respective authorities or legal system. To hell with the actual, physical evidence. To hell with the fact that we don't really know what happened. Someone accused them of something, so it must be true.

Right?

Let's look at some other cases where the Court of Public Opinion over-ruled the legal verdict:
the George Zimmerman case
the Casey Anthony case
the Duke University lacrosse team case
the O. J. Simpson case

Now, you might be thinking to yourself, "Great examples. We all know all those people are guilty." But consider this: how many of them were convicted, legally? The key thing to keep in mind here is that some or all of them may have in fact done the things they were accused of. However, there was insufficient evidence to formally convict them.

So before you all get up in arms and start forming lynch mobs and going on witch hunts, do yourselves one huge favor: get your facts straight first.

I also need to say that I personally don't support either side in the current issue for several reasons. First, and most importantly, it doesn't affect me. I have other things in my life that I need to worry about. Second, I don't have all the available information, and therefore am unable to make an informed decision regarding the events in question. And even if I did have all the appropriate information, I still wouldn't be able to say for certain that I knew what happened. This brings us to my third point: I wasn't there at the time, so no matter what anyone says, I'll never know exactly how things happened. Sure, we can be all like "Well, here's the evidence, and based on that, here's the most likely explanation." But even that is an educated guess as to the events that transpired.

In conclusion, I am hereby politely asking everyone to shut the hell up about it already. Thank you.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5153321/
It's not every day that someone says "Hey, I like drawing! I'll draw stuff for people for FREE!" But if you look Here, you'll see that  DJTrance is doing just that. She's looking to improve her skills as an artist, so she's offering to do free art! Simply click the links above, and follow the instructions.
Oh, and before you say to yourself "Free art? Must be a raffle. I never win those things," consider this. Yes, it's sort of like a free raffle. But there's going to be multiple winners! And you could be one of them!
Good luck to all!

Just taking an interest poll here, for potential future events. Would you, or would you not, like a chance to get some free money? Does the dollar amount matter? What are your thoughts on free money?
Just so everyone's aware, if only one or two people are interested, it's hardly going to be fair. If you're reading this, I really would appreciate some feedback.
Thanks!

First, i just noticed that I have 3503 pageviews. How the HELL did that happen? I mean, I don't post things often, I'm terrible at drawing, I haven't written anything worth posting in a long time, I have 96 submissions and 77 watchers.... Am I doing something right? I don't get much attention on here. I mean, I'm sure at least one of my submissions has absolutely no views. Where did 3500 pageviews come from? Weird. Must be aliens.

Anyway, here's the main point I wanted to make when I started. It has nothing to do with any of the stats I listed above. A few years ago, I started developing some characters for a story/comic I intended to write. So far, it's gotten almost nowhere, but the characters and idea are still there, and lately they've been quite persistent. That being said, I have almost no artistic ability to draw, so the option of drawing out a comic myself is completely out of the question. I could write it out as a series of short stories, but I haven't written anything significant in a long time, and I'm kinda "out of practice". And to be totally honest, I'm not even very good at writing. But I try.

So here's what I think I'm trying to get at. If anyone's interested, I don't see why a collaborative effort can't come out of this. I have tons of ideas just waiting to become visual. I just need someone I can funnel ideas to, who in turn can channel them into an image. I don't mind doing all the writing and dialogue (if applicable). I don't know how other people handle collaborative work like this.

Now the part no one wants to hear. Right now, I can't really offer anything for this, except, like, my undying gratitude and Keep in mind, all I get out this is a way to visualize ideas I've had for years. Granted, if this does turn into a regular comic thing, I would definitely look at publishing. I don't know how that works, so that's all I'm going to say about it for now.

So all that being said, anyone interested?