Hey! It's 33x/33xtc.

I don't want to make this a super big thing so I'm gonna keep it as clarified as possible.

A few months ago I deleted all my NSFW art. If my name doesn't ring a bell, I'll fill you in - I drew a lot of BDSM/latex gay furry stuff, mainly of Nick Wilde from Zootopia. Some Bad Guys and Robin Hood stuff too. All of it is still in my Twitter media tab (my account is currently privated and will stay privated), but the rest of it is basically gone off the web. I deleted my Bluesky, identity wiped my Twitter and FurAffinity, blacklisted my artist name on e621, etc.
I still have it all saved to my computer though so let me know if there's anything you wanna see and I'll send it to you, lol.

There's a lot of reasons I did these things, but chiefly I was:
1. Insecure/confused about my sexuality & disgusted by my kinks and the kink community on social media
2. Focusing on my SFW animation/illustration career and found it difficult to balance (links to point 5)
3. Getting really fed up with the trappings of social media
4. Bad relationships with IRL furs that damaged the way I see the fandom
5. Suffering with OCD impulsive/irrational thoughts of having my life ruined by people finding out about my NSFW art, doxxing me, etc.

This basically was a perfect storm for a kind of manic break and I just got rid of everything NSFW and focused on my solely SFW stuff for a loooong time (it's been 2 years...?!!?!?!)
I've allowed myself to sit with my feelings and learnt how to be a human a lot better (any other autistic adults relate...?) and I'm finally kind of at peace with my sexuality.
I'm kind of straight, kind of gay, and I'm into kinky cartoon drawings. Whatever. I like what I like. I get a little excited when I see furries dressed sexy or tied up. It's not that big of a deal. In fact, that's not that weird to normies nowadays... have you read the Letterboxd reviews for The Bad Guys 2? 😂😂😂

I've internalised that this isn't disgusting - in fact it's kind of quirky and silly and harmless to most people who have no idea about our community - and it's just a tiny part of me. It's not the whole, and it's not nothing. It's just something I like. And there's things outside *this* that I like. And nowadays I'll open up to normal people about that. And I'm confident and happy that I'm not manically trying to fulfill this extremely short-sighted fantasy of meeting 'the one' who gets me and feels the exact same way - I can integrate a lot more deeply with normal people now. I'm happy that there's many other facets to me. I'm a rich tapestry, and this is just one thread.

In short, I'm open to the idea of making kinky cartoon art again and sharing it with people into the same stuff.
However I wanna really just be lowkey with it. No networking, no performing an identity, just sharing a little part of who I am and maybe making some other freaks' days a bit brighter.
This is just a little avenue of my interests. There are many many parts of me and my sexuality outside this little world we have going on here. And I'm happy I'm at peace with that.

I wonder how many of you can relate to my feelings and experiences? I'd bet it's quite a lot of you.

Anyway, I want to get rid of this '33' identity so I'll probably make a new Twitter and FA and port over my following and stuff. No BlueSky cause I just hate the vibe of that website, sorry lol.
I just wanna post my kinky art, chat with some people who like it, and then continue with my day/life.
Unless you people have better ideas of how I should do it. Apparently you can change your FA name now? What do you think? I don't particularly want to lose mutuals, but it is what it is.

Would love to just chat nowadays. No pressure to form any big connections.
I don't want to be widely known. I just want an outlet for my weirder interests and to be seen a bit.

So yeah, that's where I've been at. Thanks for sticking around. And shout out to those who've been very nice to me throughout this emo phase!!! If we've messaged on telegram within the last month or so, you know who you are hahaha. You're awesome. (I'll message you anyways).

Alright. Peace!