I just don’t know. I’m alone. I’m always alone. I have myself, and I’m all right most of the time, but... I found someone special. Truly special. And falling in love with her pushed her away. So far away. She made me feel like she loved me too, cared and admired and respected me for all I was.

And now I’m lucky if I get three words out of her.

Life is awful for that. To bring you someone so unique and beautiful and then just... have her fade away from you. Sharp, hard endings I can handle. Fades are... disgusting. They make me sick, quite literally, physically.

I’m sick. I’m alone. I’m so very sad. I’m sorry I’m shouting this to the world and making it all sadder. I should keep to myself.

I should always keep to myself. All that ever happens is I get hurt. I fly so high and then just crash. I’m nice, sure. But I’m never enough for anyone I love.

Never enough.