Hi everyone,
As you guys might've noticed, I've kept my prices frozen for the last few years due to the financial crisis affecting almost everyone.
I didn't want to make it even harder to get art from me for people who love my style and really wanted me to bring their characters to life.
The sad part is; I was never making enough to begin with.
The most I've ever made in one year is still just shy of half the minimum wage in my country.
I was compensating the rest of my rent and bills using the welfare money I get for my disability and by not really going out or doing very much.
I'm at my limit at this point and I just can't keep going like this, my car died, I lost my last job and when I tried to replace the car I was scammed and lost over £1400.

Now for those of you who have paid a lot of attention and might be asking yourself why my life hasn't gotten on track even now...
I know I talked about getting married in 2024 and how I was going to have more financial security and stuff...
I don't want to get too personal, but that didn't happen.
I got married, that was the end of the story.
We have spent almost the entire time since separated because they had made a lot of promises before the elopement which they then didn't keep.
I'll just say it; they were hurting me very badly for a very long time.
We have tried couple's therapy but it didn't work, every time I see them now they are distant and refuse to take responsibility for everything they've done.
I'm sobbing as I write this, because it's been eating away at me for almost seven years and I never could be open about it.
It's really too private for me to talk to you all about, but I feel the need to explain this much even if it's unprofessional, because I know you're probably all sick of waiting for my life to get better.
I kept on holding out for all that time, trying different meds, working out, jogging, trying to make new friends, eat well etc...
but even so, my mental health is the worst it's ever been.
I've also lost contact with my entire family for reasons I'd rather not go into.
So yeah... things are... not good.

I really wanted to hold on and make things right and then come to all of you with the good news.
I used to get messages from some of you wishing me the best and telling me you were so hoping for things to get better, for to beat this illness and start making enough money etc.
I really didn't want to let you down, I didn't want to raise my prices, I didn't want to have to write another miserable journal sob-story that sounds (let's be honest) so depressing it's probably hard to believe.
If nothing else, I can say this; thank you all so much for still being here.
Thank you so much for reading this.
Thank you for seeing me and knowing that I'm a real person.
I was never actually given that, growing up trans in a family that refused to acknowledge my identity or any of my conditions (ASC, fibro, etc).
Thank you for liking my art so much you'd follow me to see more.
Thank you for sending me your positive messages, I can't describe it; the feeling for knowing someone made the time to type out how much they like my work just to put a smile on my face.
You are all so kind and valuable and I can't describe how much you've helped me get through this ridiculous life I've been given.
I really hate what a misery-fest my life is. I worked like crazy and got two degrees when I was young so I would have security and make sure not to worry people like this.
I don't know why my luck is so bad, but in honour of you and the support you've given me, I don't want it to be for nothing.
I'm letting myself relax a bit these days, I'm learning how to just have fun and worry less.
That's why I've been closed for commissions so much. I'm so exhausted these days and I just don't have it in me.
If I do raise my rpices, I'd also be able to chill out a bit more.
I know that's probably what you guys would want at this point.
I have been playing so much fae farm...

Anyway, I will be uploading more Ample Time here as well. The Patreon is doing pretty badly so if you're interested, please take a look.
I know Amethyst and Ripple have been female gazing at each other for a bloody long time, but I promise that things are about to really change.
I've been waiting for a long time to show this part of the story and I really hope it's everything you were all waiting for.
If I can get the Patreon back up to $500 per month, I'll be making the pages twice as fast too.
Did you all enjoy the sketch suggestions I took from patrons? I also miss those and I was thinking of bringing them back if we get to $600.

Again, I'm really sorry about how depressing this must be to read.
I know it must be hard to believe, but I promise I've been trying so fucking hard.
Thank you all for everything.