I first must start with an apology for everyone for this long break. I should've said something and let you guys know that it would take some time for me to come back and be active again. I shouldn't have ghosted practically everyone here but the anxiety and stress was more than I could bare. It has been rough and tragedy struck where I expected it least. My grandpa passed away in August and before that there were numerous visits and trips to the hospital, almost daily for treatment. Sadly not even radiation therapy was enough for his type of cancer and where it was located made it impossible to operate and take it out. For months I had to take care of him and hope for the best, hope things will turn out alright and he'll get to live another Christmas but it wasn't meant to be. In a way I think I was conscious he didn't have much time left but I guess I refused to believe it...
With the stress of this combined with the vet trips for my old dog (thankfully just for checkups and occasional vomits, he's 10 now and hopefully he'll get to live much more than that), finishing my degree and trying to get my already late commissions done it rendered me incapable of answering even the most basic questions or sending updates for my current clients. I wish I could rectify that and explain what was happening this whole time.... but what is done is done and I can't turn back time.
After my grandpa passed I was numb, i couldn't do anything, I couldn't eat, sleep or go outside. I tried and tried for weeks to get myself going but I couldn't... Everything was too much, I was spiraling and couldn't get up... It took 3 months and lots of therapy to manage to come back and write this. I have to keep going even with the pain, even if the wounds are fresh I need something to keep my mind off of this.

Sorry for all the rambling, again I apologise for disappearing and not letting you guys know what has been going on. Hopefully I'll be forgiven and continue where we left off.