Whew, okay. Got two art pieces uploaded, now let us get a lil more serious. As many of my friends know and many people who use to be regular watchers of my art and such, I have fallen into the background the past few years, and really started to regress into my own personal world the past year or so. I will be fully honest with yall, I was breaking down. Between life, my mental state, my financial state, and my stressful and shitty job, the state I live in being a shit hole with not much opportunity and sky high housing prices, and the state of my country and the world getting worse and worse with every passing day.

Then came earlier this year. I decided to take the first jump to go see a psychiatrist, and was diagnosed with ADHD. Immediately put on adderall, and things... "felt" better, but in reality it was basically picking up the pase on my fuse. Fast forward to last month, my psych was basically fired but left to start his own practice. I decided not to follow him and try a new psychiatrist for many reasons. This new psychiatrist who had been with the company for much longer and had a lot more patient visibility (my bad for not doing the research, I was at wit's end and just wanted answers back in March.)

He gave me a few revelations, in that I had 0 indicators of ADHD, just a lot of uncomfortable movement that was not necessarily linked to ADHD. I infact showed signs of Autism and PTSD from both childhood and re-traumatization by my close following of the political climate.

I probably should have seen this one coming, and it really has thrown me for a loop trying to reprocess my whole life under the new understanding. I do really hope that this will help me open up and be a more true form of myself, as well as let me do more when it comes in the form of art and my other hobbies.

I apologize to any of yall who recently might have been subject to me while being wrongly medicated and blindly following a medical diagnosis from what I thought was a trusted source. Just goes to show you that even our system isn't perfect and usually a second opinion is rather important.

I don't have much else to say on it right now as honestly its enough for me to process on my own. The post is moreso for transparency into why I've been mostly radio silent for the past few years, and hopefully announcing that I will be around in the most true version of myself that I can be.

Anyways, good luck, love yall, and stay safe and love yourselves.