On June 8th, 2025 my mom passed away. I had been taking care of my mom for 10 years ever since she had a heart attack. 6 years ago I left my job to take care of her full time.. we lived off of her social security because I didn't feel that getting paid to take care of my mom was something that I do. 4 years ago her kidneys failed and she started have to do dialysis. On on June 7th I had to do CPR on her they took her to the hospital where she passed away the next day. For two months afterwards I ran around trying to save the apartment and to find work. But everything failed. I found myself homeless August 26th with my beautiful cats Goldie and Bandit. I was able to get a foster to watch over them for a week. But then they were back with me for another week. My mental health had gotten so bad that I had to leave the cats with a place called four paws to watch over them while I went into the hospital for my mental health. I haven't seen them now in two months. I suffer from depression, anxieties, panic attacks, PTSD, ADHD, stress disorder, gender dysphoria & high function autism. My mental health has gotten bad enough that I haven't considered suicidal and I have tried five times. She was more than just my mom. She was my best friend, My mom and my mental health support.. My two cats were my emotional support animals. Without any of them I just keep getting worse. The majority of my family has turned their backs on me. I have three older brothers who have never never help to the last 10 years and now that she's gone they help you and less. In the past 12 years I have lost so many. I have lost six cats, three uncles, an aunt, a second cousin, two family friends, and two friends. It's just too much and I'm getting no support from anyone. I'm seeing a therapist but he's not really helping me. I'm just so lost these days. Remember tell your family that you love them because one day they may not be here anymore... I have no regrets with my mom I told her everyday that I loved her because I always knew one day I wouldn't be able to. Take care of yourselves.