I know I've done a few people wrong. I've taken on more than I could mentally or physically chew.

I'll be honest when I say I think I've been a child.

I could be like every other person and keep running away from the problems.

For anyone that talks to me, you know I've had a lot on my plate.
I've had to forcefully move all around this damn country. Just when I start to try to fix things, we've had to pack up and leave and I feel I've been doing that all my life. When things get bad, I know to pack up and leave.

I packed up and left from this account and I did it with my first account.

I run.

I put up such a front that I'm some strong person that can deal with everything.

I help others before helping my own problems.. I can't fix my problems because I'm too focused on helping other peoples' problems.

I've always done this.

I don't like that I do..

So I'm not running anymore.

It'd time to grow up. It's time to stop running.

I'm going to post the same for my first account and hey, might actually go back to it.


A lot has happened these past two-three years and I want things to be good again. For myself and for  crushdood
I've changed jobs, he's changed jobs and his last day is today and is getting back to the army, I've been sick too much, working too much, and have a major issue with my only really working eye which is whats probably causing my constant sick feelings(migraines are the devil). I think I've felt like I'm holding him back a little but at the same time I'm pushing us forward.

We've been fighting down a long road just for a chance for normal life.. And normal life is in our sights. Its close.. but it will still be another few months.

I want everyone I owe art or costume pieces to- to get a full refund or your piece with extra things. Like if you ordered a character piece and still want that piece, I can throw in an extra piece.. Refunds will be coming. I promise they are coming. I've given out most the refunds back when I sold my suit, but I know there are a few still out there I didnt have enough for after vet bills and stuff. And quite frankly I seem to just barely make bills and now that Crush isn't working until the army- Im the only source of income for our bills.

PLEASE ADD ME ON SKYPE
I dont do well with notes cause its easier for my brain to want to run.

MY SKYPE IS THATANNOYINGCAT
If you need it, my AIM is the same, however I dont use it much.

IM me and tell me what you owe and please, be mature and understanding about it. Dont just be like "hey, a year ago you promised me art you lying whore".

I want to compile a list and keep you up to date, which is why I say to add me and IM me on skype.

As soon as he's back in the army, I'm going to be scheduling refunds.

Im so sorry for hiding. I know it was the immature thing to do, and I've come to realize my issues. I just hope people can forgive me for being scared. Everyone does make mistakes and when you feel you've made more than one- it feels overwhelming.


Also if you didn't know, I've been using my side account recently and since I dont have my Mao suit anymore- I have no real reason to use this account. I'll keep all the art up and everything- but will most likely be using HyenaButts or my first account- Itsuya again.


Thank you guys for reading.
Time to start over.