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Depressed digital artist | Registered: November 28, 2023 03:19:23 PM
Hello, I'm ArtianS. I'm an okayish digital artist, having mainly drawn stuff involving protogens, but now I draw sort of whatever I feel like. I'm 24 and am male.
I love bellies. Pregnant bellies, inflated bellies, chubby bellies, vore-y bellies, all the bellies really. So naturally, I gravitate (gravid-tate?) towards them in my art, albeit that's a more recent development. Expect to see them often in my favs, though.
I have no proper idea what to do in terms of keeping up with my digital art. Don't expect any sort of schedule, quality checks, or anything of the like. Droughts aplenty, whim-draws at random. I'm not giving up though. As someone dear once told me, I need to keep at it.
I'm also dealing with major depressive disorder, which has been unsuccessfully helped through many medications, treatments including ECT (electroshock, frankly I think it made me worse in the end), two goes at TMS (transcranial magnetic stimulation), esketamine (ketamine) therapy, as well as regular psychologist and psychiatrist visits. It has not been a good ride for me, just going to state that.
I struggle with autism, making trying to be friends with me hard, and me trying to be friends with others even harder. Please take that into account when trying to interact with me.
I often have a profile picture done by Henri Lange, https://x.com/SNHenriq. It's a very nicely done piece with immaculate shading, far beyond my scope of creation.
I love bellies. Pregnant bellies, inflated bellies, chubby bellies, vore-y bellies, all the bellies really. So naturally, I gravitate (gravid-tate?) towards them in my art, albeit that's a more recent development. Expect to see them often in my favs, though.
I have no proper idea what to do in terms of keeping up with my digital art. Don't expect any sort of schedule, quality checks, or anything of the like. Droughts aplenty, whim-draws at random. I'm not giving up though. As someone dear once told me, I need to keep at it.
I'm also dealing with major depressive disorder, which has been unsuccessfully helped through many medications, treatments including ECT (electroshock, frankly I think it made me worse in the end), two goes at TMS (transcranial magnetic stimulation), esketamine (ketamine) therapy, as well as regular psychologist and psychiatrist visits. It has not been a good ride for me, just going to state that.
I struggle with autism, making trying to be friends with me hard, and me trying to be friends with others even harder. Please take that into account when trying to interact with me.
I often have a profile picture done by Henri Lange, https://x.com/SNHenriq. It's a very nicely done piece with immaculate shading, far beyond my scope of creation.
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Apologies (G)
4 weeks ago
About last night.
I had been feeling for the past couple of days incredibly down, due to feeling like a failure.
I'm 24, have no job, am too stupid to go to college, and in general just feel like a massive failure of a human being.
So that all lead up to me having an existential crisis, especially after trying to sleep it off and being met with dreams where I needed to scream yet was unable to due to just simply not having any air in my lungs. I couldn't stand being awake, yet sleep was no respite.
I'm doing better as of now, but this isn't the only time this sort of thing has happened to me. I'm majorly depressed, and this will likely keep happening to me until something in my life happens.
I don't know entirely what to do. All I know is I have to keep living.
I had been feeling for the past couple of days incredibly down, due to feeling like a failure.
I'm 24, have no job, am too stupid to go to college, and in general just feel like a massive failure of a human being.
So that all lead up to me having an existential crisis, especially after trying to sleep it off and being met with dreams where I needed to scream yet was unable to due to just simply not having any air in my lungs. I couldn't stand being awake, yet sleep was no respite.
I'm doing better as of now, but this isn't the only time this sort of thing has happened to me. I'm majorly depressed, and this will likely keep happening to me until something in my life happens.
I don't know entirely what to do. All I know is I have to keep living.
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