It's been awhile. A lot has happened.

tldr: I am doing a lot better and I intend to start drawing more again and I apologize for the delay.

December is a really really hard month for me because of a really shit Christmas a couple years ago. Christmas always kinda reminds me of some very negative thoughts. Basically, I got to a very very low point in my life again. The start of this month was the lowest. I was fully prepared to just give up. To do something drastic.

On the 7th, I had a medication appointment that I was driven to by my roommate, just to ensure that I go and stay for it. That same day, my therapist pulled me in because of my responses to the wellness check they do, and after some discussion, both my roommate and my therapist thought it would be best for me to go to a mental health clinic.

My stay there was a bit personal, so I don't want to go into detail about it, but it did help. I wrote down five things that I want to do better on. Some involve my relationships with my friends and partners, one involved getting back on a specific medication, which I have successfully done and the last one was to draw more.

My D.I.D and the headspace in general has shifted and changed a bit over the past few months as well. Most excitingly is, Kyeley actually started drawing! Seeing her do something other than just watching YouTube is very very exciting for me. I have felt bad about her having nothing to do around the apartment for quite awhile and I just have even more plans to get her some more to do.

I appreciate any patience you all have for me. I know this isn't the first time I've just kinda disappeared with no notice, but I always feel kinda bad about it. A lot of my friends tell me how much they love my art and my style and I see how happy it makes them, I just want to do more.

To any of you that read this and are in a rough mental space right now, let me say that you aren't alone. Someone cares about you. Don't let negativity rule your life. Take your little wins, celebrate the small victories. Stay strong :)