but I won't be logging in here really. This page is a relic to a narcissistic ex who manipulated and gaslit me into compliance and art, and it's exhausting knowing it exists.
The only reason I dont delete it entirely is the fact that I don't keep a record of my artwork any longer, and several pieces I did I only uploaded here. I've lost the entirety of my physical art portfolio through school and college, through countless cross-country moves, and creation is not something inside me any longer.

for those still watching, I appreciate you. I have grown and evolved through so many forms of myself that I dont even remember how this person felt to be. So many memories of people or friendships forged that I blocked out, thanks to the trauma of it all, and the simple wish to never be reminded of it again.