Some things said here might offend you, an that's just fine. your warned.

Starting with depression.

I get sick of hearing its a sickness, its nothing but a mental weakness the human body has to overcome. That makes it sound easy i know. You have to choose to overcome it, that's where this becomes hard and goes into the gray area with what you want to believe.

Ive drank, used drugs both prescription and not, even talked with a therapist. <--- Temporary relief and they only become excuses in the future to why your still depressed. There worthless in the end.

It comes down to a simple question. We can feel regret and self pity, wallow in that phase for a little while and rebuild where we left off. Or we can choose to suffer. Thats just human nature.

Now when your depressed it can seem hard if not impossible to choose not to suffer, to return to normal life. sometimes you need a crutch and that's fine ( examples above ) but you also must understand you will need to return to normal life and the crutch has to go away.



An on inner demons.

Its a simple fact that we create our own demons, most of the time its on a subconscious level or by mistake, its why we dont notice. Then there are those of us who are self destructive. Who do it on a conscious level, knowing plain well what we are doing, hoping for it not to happen but most often on a subconscious level wanting to be punished for some reason.

Being self destructive is the worst weakness you can have and it will ruin everything you have one way or another. But it can be overcome.


As stated, we do not always realize we are creating these demons and they can come back at any time. Being self conscious helps but it still happens eventually.

There is not much to be said on how to solve this, you rather face down your demons or subcom to them. Rather living with them( choosing to suffer ) or face them down ( choosing to move on ). No matter what its your choice, its also why this is harder for some then others.

The worlds not fair, we are not born equally and we are all different. Not everyone has the willpower to surpass there inner demons and depression, an they may need a crutch. but in the end, its all in our minds. We must choose to overcome our weakness or to choose to suffer.

Ive been down this road so many times i often think ive earned the right to give up. But you don't. Giving up is never a choice nor a right, its just an excuse to remain weak minded and to suffer.


Ranting about this helped me enough through today, and in hope may help someone else.