This is going to be a long one so please listen:

1. College

I have been under a lot of college work. It's my last year and I've been focusing on that for the most part. So with that, I haven't been able to really sit down and make art with all the love I could make. Along with that, I also have been working hard on improving my skills with Quantitative Reasoning. (Math, barf)

2. Moderating Servers:

I am a mod in several discord servers. Mainly I'm the one who keeps track of the members who are on warning, suspension, banned, and or blacklisted. Along with that, I am also staff for an online convention about MLP and I help in that discord server. And let me say this, it is not easy to moderate when people don't read the rules, even after we do an @ here or @ everyone to say "REREAD THE RULES" (we do the command properly, just was typing it out like that because I am a bit concerned if it does at someone here XD)

3. Stress, Depression, and Anxiety

2021 so far for me has really been just a major mind fuck. I've had too anxiety spells that have resulted in me nearly vomiting (if I'm getting anxious, I start releasing very odoriferous flatulences. If it is getting worse, I start dry heaving. And if it is really bad, I actually vomit). I also have been under a lot of stress IRL. Especially considering we in my family have 2 people who are too rambunctious. I've even gotten close to bonking both of them with my sandal. And lastly, depression has hit me a lot too. Mainly though I'll be happy one moment, then all of a sudden, my mind fills with thoughts like "I'm a fucking annoying idiot" or I end up thinking I'm horrible at helping those close to me. Or that I'm easily forgettable. I know those aren't true at all, but my brain overthinks and causes me during that spell to think otherwise. I will be going to therapy to help me with controlling these thoughts, but we've been struggling with finding that takes my insurance.

4. My environment

Art can be affected by your environment. I do my best keep my room clean to help me keep ideas flowing, but when people can simple slide a card between your door and doorframe to pop the lock, you have pretty much lost any form of privacy. Especially considering you end up doing a lot of work to clean with no credit at all.

5. Setting up my Vtuber

Yes, I have a desktop computer. And soon I'm planning on being a vtuber. This means I will be able to expand my content. The issue i have been having is with my college schedule and family stuff. The only time I can do stuff is when people are out of the house.


Hopefully this update did shed some light on where I have been. And as always, I do hope to make more.