Hey everyone!

I just wanted to say that I've been struggling with art ever since 2015, now.
It's been extremely difficult finishing both my digital and traditional drawings. It's very challenging for me to even start my digital drawings. If I even do start a digital drawing, it takes me ages to finish it.

I feel like the death of one of my best friends, which happened in late 2015, had a big impact on my life and changed me as a person.
I sometimes wonder if I should even consider myself an artist.

A part of me has been wanting to open point commissions on DeviantArt, but I don't think I'm good enough. I'm also worried that if somebody commissioned me, I would never get to finish it and the commissioner would get angry with me. :c

I was really looking forward to this summer. I'm really disappointed in myself, because I feel like I've been wasting my summer so far.
During the school year, I was excited and looked forward to what exciting things I'd be doing, and the drawings I'd be making. All I've been doing is sit on my ass, do nothing productive, and feel depressed, really.

I seriously wish for all this mess to just end. I don't wanna feel like shit anymore. I just don't know how to make this all feel better.