21 year old Aussie ferret boi with autism~ I love animals, especially ferrets, otters, foxes and dogs! I am at my happiest around animals!

I only want to interact with adults please, I don't want to discriminate but it just feels weird and uncomfortable talking to minors, sorry.

I am learning how to draw and make music, but I'm fatigued a lot of the time so I'm learning slowly. I'm always looking to make friends who love animals or who share some of my same fandoms, or can relate to some of my experiences - any of the above! <3 The most important thing I look for in others is tolerance and acceptance. If you are okay with anyone else, no matter how odd they are, so long as they're not hurting anyone, then we can be friends!

I'm shy at first but outgoing once we get to know each other. I use emoticons too much ^w^ I'm academically smart, but lack common sense. I am kind and generous and try my best to be nice to everyone, and usually I succeed, but I feel emotions intensely and can say dumb shit when I get emotional. There is no excuse for that, it's my responsibility and I'm working on fixing it, but it'll take time.


The amount of suffering and unfairness in the world distresses me a lot and I don't know how to cope with that. My most common coping mechanism is escapism, by spending time with my pet dogs or other animals, or spending time enjoying my favourite fictional worlds or creating my own.


I try to make things better by reducing animal products in my diet, donating to charities, and adopting animals from shelters, but the world's problems are so much bigger than my ability to fix them, and I keep falling short of my own expectations and burning myself out. I wish I could find some way to convince myself that there is some greater force for good in the universe, that will ensure that all animals and people will find relief, kindness, healing and contentment after this lifetime, even if they didn't find it during this lifetime. I want to believe that, because it's the only way I can not have a breakdown, but I don't know how to prove it to myself so I can be *sure*.








(**Trigger warning for the next few lines, several very sensitive topics, do not read any further if you are under 18, or if you have any kind of trauma that may be triggered**)








I'm a survivor of child sexual abuse, and am fighting a lifelong battle with complex PTSD. Probably as a result of the sexual abuse, as well as a result of internalized ableism because of the way I was criticized by primary school teachers for my involuntary autistic behaviors, I have been struggling with depression, fatigue and self-hatred since age 8. Some years are better than others, and some days are better than others, but I haven't given up hope that some day, I might be able to get rid of the depression for good.


I am sexually attracted to animals and many fictional characters, including some underage characters. I would never do anything sexual to a real child or animal, and I would never view real child pornography or bestiality pornography as I believe that is incredibly sick and wrong. But I admit I do view drawings of these characters, and photos of animals that were taken for purposes other than pornography, and fantasize about them. I am very ashamed of my sexuality and I hate myself for it. I want you to know about this upfront which is why I am telling you now. If you don't want to be friends with someone who has these attractions, I understand. I would rather you know that straight away, so that you can leave now if you want to, rather than finding out later after we've developed a friendship and our feelings might be hurt.








(**Trigger warning over**)