We all carry burdens and wounds no one sees. But to those who choose a quite rebellion in being kind and creating the narrative that there is something more to this suffering. You create ripples that you we might never fully see, but they are impactful. That is my truth. I'm tired and broken, stuck in a house that gives me no respite even in what should be the safe space of my own room. But despite that I choose hope—not because it’s easy, but because it’s what we need more of in this world.

If any of my friends are reading this you mean the world to me and I'm sorry you've had to see me not at my best these past couple of weeks.. hell, months even. But I am trying to still be here while also giving myself a little break because even in the darkest room, I am a stubborn flicker of light—depressed, bruised, but refusing to go out.



There will be some projects I'll finally start uploading and working on that I'll post here like small sampler scenes of my characters and setting to finally get this small ball rolling because the feeling of not putting anything meaningful out into the world sometimes keeps me up at night. I know that contradicts what I just said earlier that even just being here and being good is meaningful enough but I still have that messed up baggage of having to 'prove' that this life is one that's been worth living, that I can do something that'll change the world.

To quote 'Get Your Wish' by Porter Robinson -

I have to write the meaning of my life
Or else everything's in vain

(That whole album speaks to me on a deeply emotional level. It's kinda been the vibes of my life lately.)

So more to come, It'll be varying degree's of quality because I'm still really trying to find my style and voice. I wanna create stuff that really says something and inspires others to just start creating as well. I grew up a lot being told I wasn't good enough, to stop trying, and that 'It's something your born with' which is complete and utter bullshit. Though I gave up a couple times and stopped for a while, I've always gotten back up for more in spite of those harmful words. You can always start over again even if you stop or forget for a while or a long time. Take your time, meet new people, experience stuff that'll inspire you, and do what you love.