So hello there to anyone who knows me and still is around, first may I say sorry to you all. This journal will be long and in case you don't read it, that's okay.

In July of 2017 I decided to go to art school, specifically The Art Institute of Tampa. Ended up being a huge mistake. My first year in school I ended up tearing the ligaments in my dominant hand which is of course my drawing hand. After that I wasn't the same anymore. I learned basically since then I have to rest my hand a lot in between projects. The fall of 2017 was my "best friend's" bachelorette party/weekend (had a horrible time so many effed up things occured), stuff went down and since then our friendship wasn't the same and the wedding was when I lost my friendship to someone else who didn't see their toxic behavior and I decided I didn't need any more toxicity in my life so her and I went our separate ways. The now married "best friend" didn't need rides from me anymore and slowly we too went our separate ways as well. Do I miss either one? To be honest, NO! I was their convenient friend and once I was no longer needed they found me obsolete. That Christmas I was dating someone who was a truck driver and on my Christmas break I went on the road with him. Another mistake I made, I ended up getting so sick in the first few days and it activated Bell's palsy (reaction to a viral infection. It rarely occurs more than once. Bell's palsy is characterized by muscle weakness that causes one half of the face to droop. Bell's palsy usually resolves on its own within six months) freaked me the hell out i basically was stuck in Stroke face, then at the end of the vacation we were at a truck stop and it was dark coming from the truck to the truck stop building the dude i was with fell broke his ankle and arm ended up being a crazy situation and i ended up taking care of him but his place was like an hour away from me and my school. Still had the bells palsy once I went back to school from break and man it messed with emotionally and mentally.

Now in 2018 I was now working at school in the student lounge and trying to do good with classes. I was with the truck driver still, now at this point I made a lot of friends. One friend was a younger male who was really awesome, he had a step son and him and his wife were expecting one of their own. They were both veterans and attending different schools. To help them I babysat their eldest son so the wife could attend classes at the same time as her hubby. The truck driver accused me of being in love with my friend who was married ( I DO NOT ROLE THAT WAY!) on Valentines day and dumped me. They became this whole crazy thing. I don't do the whole break up and get back together, too old for games like that. He tried bribing me with gifts to get me back and blew me up in messages and calls apologizing then accusing me I had someone else already. Closed that door myself and moved on.

Still in 2018 Dealing with that school was insane. Let me break down how the school works:

Courses are 11 week courses with 4hr classes weekly. To receive financial aid you need to take 3-4 classes each semester. Each class gives homework that needs 8-20 hours per projects weekly and mainly start traditional (I HATE TRADITIONAL I'M SPOILED BY DIGITAL lol and not to mention that's how I tore ligaments in my wrists.)

Lets take a look at how the class structureis:
Week 1 - Intro no work or homework
Week 2-4 - Cram information down your throat with no examples or simple explanations and if you can't keep up you're fucked and thats where a lot of homework comes from
Week 5 - Mid term Exam
Weel 6-9 - Big project
Week 10 - Final Project
Week 11 - Final Exam

Now most student are working jobs, taking care of families, trying to pay bills, and balancing all these drove a lot of people into deep depressions.

The teachers there were assholes most of the time. Most of teachers worked other campuses, were free lance artists, worked other jobs and had families so if you needed advice after class on work you were fucked. They barely taught by examples or took the time to see if someone actually understood what's going on. They also wanted perfection, now mind you these people worked in their fields for 20+ years with experience from school to professional jobs their skills were incredible but never expect perfection from STUDENTS they are there to learn how to be that good!

Oh and class availability was insane! Say you need to take Class A in order to get to Class B then B to Class C, makes sense? Good stay with me now. They wouldn't have Class A or B available but only C would be open so the admins put you there and they expected you to go into Class C with the Knowledge of Class A and B but you don't have the chance to take em so now you're struggling hard making your GPA plummet but next semester Class A will be available but almost a year later Class B still hasn't opened and you need that credit to graduate and you still need to retake Class C. Then sometimes no class you need in your field will be available at all so now they give you class that has nothing to do within the field you're trying to be in and substitute the credit later which makes no sense at all.

Summer of 2018 I met a wonderful fella named Kevin (We are engaged now) and he has two sons a now 12 year old who is deaf and autistic and a now 5 year old normal hyperactive kid who loves to read and write (hes really smart!).

Now into 2019 things in school are getting even more nuts. Our location had became independent just before campuses all over the US had closed with no explanation to their students. Then the online half of the school closed in mid semester that created a HUGE MESS students GPAs were getting fucked left and right. Then in the end of Spring to early Summer I had a few different health issues.

It started as a lump in my neck that lead to a Lymphoma scare (Lymphoma is cancer that begins in infection-fighting cells of the immune system, called lymphocytes. These cells are in the lymph nodes, spleen, thymus, bone marrow, and other parts of the body. When you have lymphoma, lymphocytes change and grow out of control). Turned out after so much testing and what not that I have Type 2 Diabetes and Lupus ( Lupus is a systemic autoimmune disease that occurs when your body's immune system attacks your own tissues and organs. Inflammation caused by lupus can affect many different body systems — including your joints, skin, kidneys, blood cells, brain, heart and lungs.) After finding out about that I decided to leave AI because it wasn't helping me and I stopped drawing because I couldn't draw without my hand swelling after just a few hours of work. Although one thing I'm thankful for is that I found a love of story boarding <3

Oh and the dean of the school was escorted by the police off campus during 2019 fall semester and the rumor was that there was sexual misconduct with a student.

2020 I know now that the Lupus is why I have an allergy to the sun which is called Polymorphous light eruption (also known as polymorphic light eruption, is a rash caused by sun exposure in people who have developed sensitivity to sunlight. The rash usually appears as red, tiny bumps or slightly raised patches of skin) and why I have Juvenile Arthritis in both wrists.

I slipped into a BAD depression that I am now just started to come out of. I'm tired of crying and wanting to take my own life so I'm pushing myself to step back into art. I got myself a brand new built in screen drawing tablet as well as my own work space (FINALLY!)

New things too is I finally got my dream doggy. I have a soon to be 9 month old Red Husky named Helios (From sailor moon so it's not pronounced 'Heel-e-os' its 'Hell-e-os') Goliath (From Disney's Gargoyles) and have 3 newer tattoos.


Art Coms may start in the next month or 2 months but right now I'm catching up on A LOT of owed art. I never liked drawing NSFW pieces so from here on out I WILL NOT BE DOING NSFW and my Cheebit is off limits to anything like that because my fiance does not wish me to use my character that way which I'm okay with because I feel like I can say that now to anyone who may want to commission me in the future I am doing only things that make me comfortable and I know sex sells but I'm working on doing things that make me happy not doing things because that's what others want from me.

Thank you for reading if you did read this. If you want to chat with over something please send a note don't start anything in comments if it's complaining about something rather deal with that privately.

A lot of other stuff happened but I decided to cut this to the short story version. lol


I'll be uploading current work in to this gallery but if you want to check out my main portfolio site you can visit https://www.artstation.com/cheebitcreations