At the end of the summer, I finally finished university hell and passed my diploma. I drew some of the illustrations for "Thumbelina", everyone liked it, except me. This is a very lazy and bad job. And in the certificate, the marks came out worse than the final.
This year has been HORRIBLE, both in terms of stress and emotionally. A lot has happened, many have changed, there were problems with friends, family, at work, there were nervous breakdowns, my health was shaken, there was treatment, but something still needs to be treated. Fortunately, these are non-critical sores, I can live with them. Also my computer and graphics tablet are often buggy, but for 10 year olds they hold up pretty well. But now I seem to be "back on track" morally again. Only at work there is a very strong load, it has now begun to decrease.
What's with my drawing? Well, I often try to draw simple and curved sketches or very simple "base works" based on screenshots from the cartoon and have big plans for 200+ of my original characters and put my archives in order on my PC ... But I draw almost everything "on the table ". If you followed me all this time in VK (dump), you could see how everything is moving badly and slowly. I have VERY DEGRADED in my painting and I am ashamed to come back here and finish my debts until I learn to work like that again. I AM VERY VERY ASHAMED, I NEVER GIVEN SOMETHING FOR SO LONG :"ссссссс
Now I'm trying again to learn how to draw full-fledged works, for which I am not ashamed, and am practicing in some topics and in my plans to pay off all the debts on the little things, and then finish all the great works that you ordered here. But, again, everything is moving very badly and slowly. Well, we need to renew the gallery here, a lot of "normal" things have accumulated, but it will take a lot of time, and only after sorting the archive for years and characters.
I'm pleased to hear that both here and in another network you are waiting for me, but now I'm ashamed and I cannot return to my previous state (
I really want to GET OUT OF THIS WORK, but then I will not have money, because here I am not ready to carry out activities again. But because of work I have almost NO TIME to prepare my return here ... a vicious circle ...
I'll be back, I promise! I don't know when, but I'll be back ...
Don't grow up, "real" work is a mistake. University was killing time, and she was finishing off potential and skills.