I understand that it was not the best thing ever to delete everything...I just felt like my stuff wasn't very good and just eyesores for everyone. I thought that anyone I had ever drawn something for deserved better than the garbage I was only capable of creating. It is one of the biggest regrets of my life, I drew those pictures because I enjoyed doing things like that for others and hoped to improve over time. I draw because I like to make others happy...but I was not happy. When the enjoyment was gone because I was setting my standards too high for what I wanted to make...all that was left was anger and resentment towards the ideas and images that I could just not get onto paper in the the way I wanted and started seeing them as terrible wastes of paper. I want to redraw every single thing that I had made...even for people that I once knew but drifted away from because of me being unable to overcome my awkward shyness, maybe even for those that have long since left or I knew outside of FA and used it to host the image.

There's probably no chance of anyone reading this because this profile is probably long forgotten and I wouldn't want to bother anyone who didn't unwatch me for whatever reason with a pointless journal. But if someone does read this and you do somehow remember me because I had done something for you...I truly apologize for deleting anything I had drawn for you. I would love to start over and redo anything I have done in the past and hopefully it will be an improvement. I have realized how stupid it was to delete an entire gallery for something as simple as not being skilled enough to draw what I want and forgot the main rule...PRACTICE PRACTICE PRACTICE PRACTICE PRACTICE PRACTICE PRACTICE. That is not the only reason though, I wasn't doing so well in real life during that time...was very depressed over some things but I got over it because I realized it was not worth dwelling on stupid things and just move on.

This may be really dramatic to post...and I'm not one who likes or does things like that, but I just felt really terrible and would love to make it up to anyone who was disappointed.

Anyway I know I moved before but I will be using another FA account here -  redstiza

Again...I am very sorry.