When some one has taught you for years how to be around them, then changes it entirely, and can't let you have your foot in the door.. what do you do? You stop trying, so I am. I've embraced the fact I'm afraid to sleep with out them holding me once or twice a month, I accepted my body is a wreck, and I'm accelerating it. I will no longer sleep till I collapse, I refuse to eat. It may be putting alot on them, but they aren't even going to read this. All I wanted was a second chance at being good friends, and I know in a relationship I could have done better given the right encouragement.

When she was pregnant with some one else's kid, I had always been there, and would have been if she asked. I always just tried to be friends, even when she didn't let me. I'm going to go throw up again.. I'm done trying FA, for all you furfags out there, I am done trying.