I was recently diagnosed with cancer on Thursday.

reason I am saying this is that they don't know what cancer it is.

the doctors and surgeons are 100% sure it is not bowel, lung, testicular cancer which leaves a limited list but right now that list points to brain cancer.

IF and its a massive IF it is brain cancer this could explain why I went blind in my right eye and suffer huge left side weakness which includes pins and needles on the left hand fingers, some memory loss, blackouts, dizziness and various other ailments.

I'm not doing this for sympathy but as a warning.

if ANYONE has basic symptoms like what I have mentioned then please for the love of that is your deity get checked out.

if it does turn out I have brain cancer I don't know how long I have and it is scaring the hell out of me.

i'm 42 years old and I am legit terrified, I lost all of my grandparents through cancer, o lost my dad through cancer my mum is currently going through chemo for cancer which is showing signs of retreat but me ... I and scared.

I've downed a 1 litre of whisky because its took me that to write this .... I am terrified of this and I am not religious in any sense and yet I find myself asking a god I know does not exist to help me live through this fucking disease