Hi friends.. I hope you all are having a great day. This is literally my first journal too, wowie! Just sitting here smoking a J and listening to the rainfall by my window. This is mainly for myself. Is it even normal to post stuff like this? Idk, this is for me anyway. Quite a bit has been happening lately and overall, only the universe can tell what happens next.

Firstly, I haven't really been liking my art. It's gotten to the point where I deleted most of it from here.. I know, maybe I shouldn't have but the insecurity eats me alive. I'm never happy with most stuff I draw anymore and its lowkey stressful because I want to like my art but its just not there. Good thing is I haven't given up and I don't think I'm gonna. I enjoy being a furry artist despite my audience. Don't get me wrong, I do love showing off what I make but the important part is I enjoy creating! <3

Other than art, life overall has been okay! My boyfriend, best friend and I are going camping to Spruce Knob this July. If you don't know, Spruce Knob has one of the highest elevations in the US being at 4863 feet so the sky at night and the sight seeing is going to be so beautiful. I love camping and being in nature, so I am very excited for this trip. On the side note, I'm still unemployed, lol. The job market is a fucking joke (along with this economy). I did have a job that I kind of enjoyed too but they laid me off and when I called back to get a different job, they didn't have anything for me and still don't to this day.. so yeah, im done with that. I am instead taking care of our apartment and slowly learning how to drive. I gotta say, I'm glad to have my boyfriend who doesn't shame me and understands how hard it is now days. Plus, most of the funds I get from commissions go right into our savings so I'm helping the best I can. In the meantime, I successfully applied for SSI so now I just have to wait and see what happens!

Stinky, poo poo. That's been my guts lately because I'm finally taking my metformin again. If you didn't know, I have PCOS. Metformin helps lower my testosterone levels and regulate my periods with the side effect of LIQUID SHART! It also doesn't help that I am shifting my diet into a better one, which I thought I'd never be able to accomplish, yaaaay!! I been eating lots of salads with healthy meals while also doing a calorie deficit. And for a bonus, I been hitting the gym 5-6 times a week. I'm surely happy with myself there and I feel physically great and more strong. I'm pretty confident that I will be happy with my results this coming July! Oh and about my medication, I've decided I don't need my anti-depressant anymore. My random panic attacks have stopped and I don't feel as I need the pill anymore.

If you read this far, comment a link to your fursona reference sheet! I might just doodle them on an empty queue. Thank you for watching and stay happy and healthy! <3