Hey guys, for those who wondered - I'm not dead.
I'm not a sociable person and I don't feel very comfortable sharing personal things, but I guess I should probably explain why updates are so rare. I love drawing and I think I have a decent skill, but every fricking time I see new art from one of my favourite artist there's a moment of admiration and inspiration and then I'm drifting into deep frustration cuz I look at my art and it's not good enough. It's never good enough. I know it's wrong to compare yourself to others, but I just can't help it.. I feel apathy and I don't even want to touch my pen, because why bother? Whatever I draw, it's not gonna be good enough anyway. I honestly have no idea what to do with these intrusive thoughts. I've tried to put all my feelings aside and treat drawing only as a job, but it didn't work :/
I guess I just need to shut the fuck up and keep working like normal people, lol
Damn, there's so much I want to draw, so many cool ideas, but I only have enough willpower for commissions (although as you've probably noticed I'm super slow at this ^D) and sketches which I never show to anyone.

There won't be any conclusion, just wanted to explain the situation.
And as for those to whom I owe smth, I'm sorry it's taking so long, but please don't worry, I'm working. Slow and with long breaks, but I'm working and I'll do my best (as always). Thank you for your patience.