So, I guess it's best for me to give an update once more (I really need to write more of these I guess);

7th of November this year was my last day for preliminary studies for industrial engineering.
If I passed, I would have been accepted into studying further into welding or CNC-machinery but sadly since I failed the very thing I was there to learn- grinding metals... That was it.
No teacher told me what I was doing wrong and I guess I was supposed to already know how to do this? I don't remember any paper saying that I needed to know this in beforehand.

At the same time as some other students hardly weren't able to speak swedish (it's a swedish school after all) or failed massively on the theory test they still were accepted into the larger course.
I thought when I almost aced the theory test that I was all but assured to continue my studies but apparently the same evening students who where accepted got e-mails about the news.

Which we were supposed to hear the 7th. Even the teacher was late and some students spread their news in the classroom- so of course I checked my e-mail which was empty.
So I knew then and there that no, no more studies for me. Three more weeks of my life wasted for no reason.

Sometimes I wonder why I even try to struggle to fit into society as I fail over and over again.
These 2.5 years of studies wasted have now pretty much destroyed my energy to draw currently, so I am more and more opening up to "doing something"- as soon as I am reenergized.

No, not commissions. But if things aren't improving I may have to do something, as it seems like drawing may be the only thing I can actually do.
Which is also a problem in this AI-slop era we live in today. If I were ever to take payment for drawings, I really really need to figure out how to draw faster- and face less self doubt and just press "SUBMIT" for my sketches or something.

I also wonder more and more about streaming. But I wanna stream me attempting to draw someday rather than just gaming.
I may be terribly slow when it comes to drawing, but I do love talking about arts and stuff if you were to join me along the ride.