Well I have been through a lot the past few years and have only been pushed further from the lifestyle I have tried so hard to earn. I was unable to finish high school do to one class. I have lost a lot of value on my truck. I sold my race bike for 250 dollars to pay bills. I saved up money since I was like 10 for one of those bikes. I sent myself into debt fixing a streetbike that a mechanic fucked up anyway. Nearly lost my truck during that. Then there was the wreck wich was more debt. Now my roomate is moveing back with his parents and I am out of places to go. I can honestly now say I wish I didn't even try.

Even if things stay the same I can't keep doing this. I have lost intrest in just about everything. I just don't want to do anything anymore. I know I am depressed and I shouldn't let it bother me. I worked hard for what I had. I made the rich kids in high school look broke and I earned it all working for min. Wage! Now that it's pretty much all gone and fucked up I'm pretty screwed.

So I am back to square 1. Just minus the high school grad part. Wich is pretty important. If anyone has an idea on where to go from here please let me know.