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Writer | Registered: April 4, 2016 02:55:56 AM
Hello there, I'm a Fringe scientist that has plenty of hopeless ambitions, which I pursue regardless. I'm sustained in a myriad contaminant of psychological illnesses which perpetuate me;
however, In a sense It fuels my abyss of literature, and with commentary comes thought, I may be surrounded by it, perhaps even consumed by it. But It forces me to answer. It's my encouragement for looking into the eyes behind many of those who close them.
I'd love to be a doctor one day, I study alongside the curricular systems, unrecognized and given no credit. But maybe I can still offer assistance, even if It's psychological.
I have many names, but the one I fought for most was Layton, people told me a person with multiple personality disorder shouldn't undergo transgender paths, but even still, there is a dominant identity, at least for me, enough for me to go to such extents. those who say transpeople are less of the gender they are, really seem so distant to the reality of it. You were born happy with your chromosomes, something that is impossible to change, instead we have only options of accommodating the physical illusion through countless examinations, surgeries, medications, bills upon bills. we are extreme tax contributes due to that! so, if anything, we earned the gender we are more than you ever will.
Anyways, Im a furry, as you can tell, the animalistic identities I have seem to be content with the notion of me being something primal in general, so my species of fursona matters little, It simply offers me some happiness and freedom.
In regards to my art performance, I have something called synthesia which alters my perception on colour manifestation and context, even if there's no colour in the picture. so I do have my moments where things work out, I just need good reference, or else everything turns to chaotic squiggles, zig zags, blurry memories and multiple things all at once overlapping one another. but I mean of course art is beyond pictures, tangible things are my strong points, because even if they aren't what I think they are, they're still enough of what they are to be things to people.
I love conversation, questions and curiosity, things that keep you up at night, feel free to message me regarding anything at all. also feel free to email me at Laytonsh[at]gmail.com
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9 years ago
I've Always Wanted to Teach, But To Be Heard you must be Of eligible Age, What Does it mean to be An Adult? When You're wise Enough To Formulate Your Own Truths To Life Maybe? Bur Then Arent Thoes Truths Just Opinions? Completely subjective to Pertaining To one Life Only? So Whats The Point Of Teaching Something To someone If It Doesnt Even Apply To Them? Maybe You Become An Adult When you Realize Everything Anyone Ever Taught you Was Just an Opinion? So What Exactly Do you learn Growing Up? The Opinions Of People you'd Most Likely Be Around To cope with Them Better, Their Rules Their Lifestyle Their Morals, At What Point in life do you Form your own opinions, And what bonds Are you Willing to Break to Enforce them? Whats Socially acceptable and Whats not? Who Defines What Socially acceptable anyways and why should i Care? They're just a bunch of people Who were taught the same opinions, Right? But when Opinions stick around awhile, it becomes something Called Common sense, "You lack common sense" was a phrase i heard. But i Couldnt just accept things for what they Were. I Had to Question Everything. Everything Needed a Reason. I cant steal because "Its Wrong" is too vAgue. there'S No way Id Steal because the Happiness Of Material Possessions Doesnt Out Weigh The fueling of guilt Blahalahalajja" Is Acceptable. But thats just My Opinion. If I Were Looking For the Truth in this Sea of Opinions, Were Would i Find it? The Only truth is that Truth Doesn't Exist. And Even that is an Opinion. So where do i go from here? I Always Thought if there were one true thing in the World, IT would be feelings. "Hey How come you dont talk to US?" "I dont have anything to say" "Aww come onn dont be shy!" "Im Not Shy I Just hAve Nothing TO Say And You All just seem Like a Pain in the Ass" "Uh Okay We were Just Trying to Be NIce Geez" Actions are Only Facts. Facrs that determine How Others Perceive You. "JUst Kidding hahahaah" And unlike Feelings, THey can be controlled. Your actions Become the Truth to others. But Only You Know the definite Truth, Your real feeelings. But WHy? Why would You Hide he definite Truth? Because Feelings are Temporary. And Actions Are Permanent. So If the only definite truth Is Constantly Changing. IS there a Definite truth After all? Turns out, Being an adult is learning how to handle the balancing act. Planning my actions according to control how others will SEe me. Ill be diligent to my bosses and landlords, Law abiding citizen locked in a cage of good moral. ILL Become things For other People Until i Lose Sight of WHo I wanted To be. IS that Really SOmething To Look FOrward To? How can i become something Like that? And then each others As if they should Look up To me? Why did i Want to teach again... And yet..... Somehow these thoughts I had written down before i went to sleep, Ended up Being a lecture.. I think....In This sea of Opinions, I just wanted Mine too Matter. Selfish IsnT IT? Maybe its a phase .. But if i can find a way to SHare These thoughts....TO somehow create Something beautiful.. Something that can't be transcribed through speech alone.. And presen it in a Way where People Would Listen..And maybe Even understand What i Have to say.. I Wouldnt just be INSane....
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