Doc Ed Wilkie was created to be me, and I have used him in many works on Elftown. He was never a good fit, always neuter and being a centaur separated him from others leaving him alone without having to explain why. Until this post I have carefully avoided using personal pronouns with Ed and never used them with DocWilkie between them you purity much have the lie I tried to live by meeting other peoples idea of what I was supposed to be.

A second chance is the last thing I will post to this page Doc Is dead because he had no future. He had no future because ultimately he was a lie.

Every day for the last four and a half years I have thought about suicide. I had a plan, a backup plan and a timeline. Therapy counseling and drugs were in-effective. It is strange beyond belief to be high on SSRIs and thinking cheerfully about killing yourself. The surprise was who had to die. Doc Ed Wilkie [way too close to my RL name] had no future and is no more. Consider this his obituary.

Someone survives but she will not talk about the future in the grave yard of the past. If you are watching Doc close the link nothing more will be posted here. The survivor will check messages for a short while and if appropriate answer from her page.