Yeah I have kind of just not been active for like, 6 months. I don't really know who really follows me here - I was never the most active on FA, but I don't really have anywhere else to post this except maybe F-List lol.

So, what's happened? In short I've had some major changes in my life - for the better, don't worry. If you know me, you know what's going on. Somewhat related to that, I have lost a lot of interest in Roxanne. Roxanne was a character originally inspired by the short story "The Most Dangerous Game" which saw an aristocrat hunting his fellow man for sport. I mixed the themes of that with a generalized "colonial/new world" theme. So that's how a European lynx that hunts other anthros for sport and trophies was born. Now in 2015 when I first made her this didn't seem like much of a issue to the far less worldly and ignorant person I was then. Needless to say these past few years and revelations about both myself and the world have changed my thoughts significantly. I'd like apologize for her, I really do - but to whom? So all I'll say is this; she should have never been created in the first place.

Whats worse is that in the absence of a fursona, Roxanne became my fursona whether I liked it or not. People saw Roxanne as me. But she was never really intended to be one, she doesn't represent me or my values, and really she is a villain. She is tooled and designed to be an immoral killer that justifies her slayings, maiming's and enslavements because those she harms are "inferior". And because she became my defacto fursona, I attracted the types of people drawn to such discrimination. The amount of times I'd get PM'd with "god its so nice to meet a furry girl that's not corrupted by liberalism!" was astounding, as if they really thought I was this subliminally racist character. I've attempted to retool her to avoid all of the above mentioned issue but ultimately, I decided to stop using her in lieu of other characters.

Furthermore as I grew older and as my sexuality changes I realize a lot of the edgier, grimdark themes I got for comms, RPs, etc; don't hold my interest as much any more. While I think a bloody or gruesome end can add a lot of punch to a story, it doesn't do much for me in the absence of context, like in a piece of furry art or RP.

So, where do I go from here? Well, I'm not sure really. I'm kinda chilling doing my own thing with other characters. It does feel like a waste to let her sit unused, but what do I even do with her? Do I sell her? If so, who on Earth would buy such a pile of shit?