First of all I want to say I am sorry, especially to some particular people.

I promised things, but still the time passed without any result and for that I am very sorry. The past two years my energy has been slowly diminishing, levels of stress increased and so everything from memory (which was pretty bad before) to focus suffers.

And it wasn't before a week after the exam that I realised just in what shape my body was in, and I promise you, it wasn't very good.
What I planned this summer to be; filled with resting and the possibility to make all those pictures I planned
but that never happened
what happened was me for the first time ever too tired to draw
even when I'm sick I want to draw, but now... I like both focus AND inspiration

Another thing that happens when I'm long gone just for resting I become scared to return because I don't want to face the dissapointment.