it seems like months have passed since the last time I truly used this site, and I'm sure it actually has been a while...

allot has changed in my life, and I've seen allot of the darker sides of life over the last short while, and its funny too because it seems like the more I slip into the realms of discovery and changes the more people abandon me, and the funniest part is... I'm starting to truly not care what happens anymore...

life is all about experiencing what we can before we die right? so I've decided that even if I loose everything and anything around me then I will choose to not let it bother me. I have my dog, my phone, and my best friend ro moved in with me, so I don't give no fusks no more. I will walk down whatever paths are lead to me, and I will experience what ever comes my way and I will choose to let everything wash over me and I will gather all I can from each event, person, and opportunity that crosses my paths in life.

-shrug- seems like a legit plan to me.

I want happiness in my life, and that is where I will let the winds take me. I will become like a particle of water, and I will let the tides, currents and other entities of life guide me where I am suppose to be. I choose to let life lead me to happiness and experience, you may think what I'm saying sounds crazy or like some weird ass fortune cookie or some shit, but believe it or not, I felt this year would be a new experience for me, and I felt that many things in my life would change, and so far, even though some things are not what others might consider desirable or good, I have chosen to learn and take from every experience I have had thus far and I've put it together in my mind and in my life to move in a forward motion with those memories and experiences integrated into my spirit.

-yawn- anywho if what I have said in this journal makes no sense or seems like I've gone off the deep end then please ignore this journal and return to your normal broadcasting lmao, but otherwise that's what I got for my life, and for those of you that might feel drawn to this same crazy almost righteous feeling then please join me in this endevour to change our lives for a brighter, happier, and more experienced futures....