Did you ever feel like despite anything you've done to try and better yourself, to try to come back after making mistakes, that you were going to fail regardless? I just can't take it anymore. I live in a low rent trailer, I had a job that paid decently, and a vehicle that got me from point a to point b, My life wasn't perfect; however i was able to manage a day to day life and be done with it. Then my jeep that I should of never bought from a cheap used dealership up and after several trips to a mechanic to keep it alive as if it was on life support up and died on me. So I lost my mode of transportation and my ability to go to that job which was over a half hour drive away over a bridge no less. So for a few months I had no job, no income coming in [ which includes my SSI payments] i had nothing. and I was and still am panicking. I was struggling to find work due to personal reasons that I do not wish to bring up here and for a while I had to get financial help from my family to stay afloat. As of right now i only have a little more then $200 in my account, I have several bills that need to be paid that I am behind in not to mention my rent. All i can think right now is that I will either be homeless out in the street or... worse... Though after some struggling i managed to get a job as an "Event Specialist" with a Walmart associate. I am already feeling that I am not right for this job, that I am going to fail and get fired and not be able to get another job in time to make the crunch. I still have that jeep because I was too focused on trying to find a job to deal with getting rid of it. This job isn't a steady job and comes in scheduled days. So there are times I'll be only working fro three days of the week and sometimes less. I lost interest in drawing completely, as well as many other things. I've pushed people away and just been out of my head due to being emotionally unstable. I dunno what to think anymore , I just want this to end, I'm so tired of feeling like I'm one step away from complete disaster. I want to be stable and secure, I want to be able to feel love again and be happy. I want to be inspired and be able to draw as feverishly as I used to. But I just dunno if that is possible anymore. I feel like there is nothing left for me but this crap I'm in and there is no escape. I miss the way things were, when life was much simpler and easier. I'm sorry for this vent and feel free to ignore it and get on with your lives. I'm sorry for this rant....