Based on the number of concerned notes I got after my sudden disappearance several months ago, I figured I should probably let you all know that, no, I'm not dead. I just... got very busy.


Between still attempting to finish that last bit of schooling I need (because life hates me and something comes up every time I try), taking care of my family, health related issues, getting Patreon up and running, commissions, and working on the eight art/story blogs I run, I just... don't really have time for Kin anymore, and I don't think I will any time in the foreseeable future.

I've also got a bit of a confession to make.

I've never really identified myself much as a baby/diaperfur. I invented the persona and character of Enderkin as a writing exercise, because I needed desperate practice at writing child/baby characters, and I'm a huge method writer. I have a hard time writing a character without getting into said character. I knew from my observations that the baby/diaperfur community were all little at heart, and that it would be the best place to learn. I knew that I'd never get anywhere by attempting to talk to an actual baby/toddler (because if that would work, I'd just ask my kid, but we all know that wouldn't have gotten far), so this was the best option. I wasn't sure what to expect, but I thought I'd give it a go.

And it turned out that the people I met here were the sweetest, most honest, genuine, accepting, caring and all around amazing people I've ever met. Never in my life have I met a community that was so open and unconditionally accepting as the baby/diaperfur community has been to me. I got to know so many kind people with happy smiles, incredible personalities and warm hearts.
Each and every one of the people I've met here only furthered my belief that you cannot judge someone by their appearance, lifestyle, beliefs or any other superficial things, and must simply look inside to see how wonderful someone can truly be. You've all been so supportive and awesome to me that I can't even put it into words.

After realizing that I was having too hard of a time playing the role of an actual toddler, I decided to turn Kin into a babyfur, so my mature side could shine through a bit. And while I didn't exactly say in strict terms that I myself was a babyfur (at least not to my memory), I also didn't clarify that even the mod's persona was "in character", and so I've been feeling quite a bit of guilt over that. I feel as though I've lied to you all in a way, and for that, I'm so, so sorry. I should have been honest from the start, and if this revelation hurts in any way, I hope that one day I can make it up to you, or you could find it in your heart to forgive me.

That's not to say that Kin hasn't benefited some other part of me aside from the author inside. Because of the time I've spent as Kin, I feel as though I've regained a part of my inner innocence, and gotten back some of my ability to just... enjoy life in the moment, like a child would. I learnt from the people here that sometimes things will be out of your control, and so the only thing you can do is just find the thing that makes you happy and secure, and just embrace that. I've learnt a lot about myself here from all of you, and for that I thank you.




As for what this means for Kinny..

I may occasionally still draw little doodles of her here and there, and maybe even the odd short story, but with how focused I've been on running my blogs alone, particularly one I hope to one day actually make some money off of, I don't think I'll really have much time for her on her own.
However...
I love Kin's design, personality and just... all around species so much that I can't live with the idea of just scrapping her completely, keeping her around only for a character building tool, so I've decided to incorporate her into my other stories as her own individual character. She won't be the main character, but she'll still be pretty prominent and perhaps even the beginning of her own species.


So... if you weren't too hurt/upset/offended by my confession to continue reading this far, thanks for putting up with me and taking the time to read this. Even if the lot of you forgive me, or don't even have a problem with the situation in the first place, I'll likely still feel a pretty hefty amount of guilt for a while, and I can even understand if some of you hate me after this.

I still occasionally pop by to check my messages and different things like that, so if you want to contact me here feel free. I'm usually most active on my many Tumblr accounts, which I can provide if anyone is all that interested. Just a warning though, several of them are pretty full of profanity and/or blood and/or sexual content, so... y'know.. tread with caution..


Cheers.