THIS IS ONE OF THOSE WEIRD NOSTALGIA JOURNALS. IF YOU'RE ALLERGIC TO SUCH THINGS THEN I SUGGEST YOU LOOK AWAY.

Hey guys. Sorry for disappearing. For almost a year.

...again. Shit has been just so real you don't even know.

As some of you may or may not know, I'm almost done with college (hopefully), and that means most of my time has been spent preparing to, you know. Enter the real world. Job interviews, job fairs, assaulting people at job fairs because they refuse to take my resume, stuff like that. So I haven't had time to write stuff really.

This last semester I barely had time to sleep. I slept at the library almost once a week this semester. It was awful.

Anyways, I don't really know what made me log back on to fA here, now. Today.

I was scrolling through the list of people who are "watching" me right now, and I couldn't help but to notice the number of people whose great art I used to look at late in the night, the muscle hyper fetish fuel that basically inspired me to do what I'm doing, are currently watching me. And I have to take that to mean I don't completely fucking suck at this, right?

Anyways, I was reading through some of my old stuff for, you know, nostalgia, I guess... and it made me remember...

A whole bunch of stuff. I don't know. Writing and submitting my first story here when I was a freshman while my dorm mate was at his girlfriend's for the weekend.

God I have no idea where this is going. At all.

I'm just gonna spiral down to the inevitable conclusion here: I have no idea what I'm gonna be doing with my life in like, 6 months (like many college graduates), and that means I don't know what's gonna happen with all of... this, here. And there are at least three things I want to write before graduation.

I guess I just feel like if I say it here then I'll be honor bound to actually pull through with it, make it happen.

Which brings me to my final point. Two of the things I want to write are very, very much porn related. And I'm sure you're all excited for that. There's one thing that's, not... exactly porn, technically.

Can you tell how hard I'm freaking out right now?

There's this one thing I want to write that's not porn, and I'm going to put it up here. I's just...

It's gonna happen, people. Brace yourselves.