It has been a rough year for me and I haven't had a lot of energy. If not for Tor I don't know what might have happened. For most of my life I have battled dangerous depression. On Oct 28 last year I lost my mom and it was difficult to adjust to life without her. She has been my rock, my best friend and the one constant in a life that has been filled with extreme lows and very little highs. She was my strength and I was her spoiled baby girl. I feel so guilty as I hadn't spent much time with her in the end. I even took off to Arizona for AZCon while she was recovering from a double bypass because in my mind she would never die and leave me behind to live without her. I didn't even get to say goodbye to her before she passed because I was working a job that didn't allow cellphones (due to potential HIPAA violation) and did not tell me until two hours later that the hospital was calling the family in. I felt like a villain for letting everyone down. I'm feeling better now. It has been almost a year and I'm almost back to my fluffy fun self but I still cry when I think about her and there will always be that shadow on my heart that nothing will change.

So on a lighter note I do still draw and I hope to have something worth posting soon.