Sorry if anything is a repeat but this is all intertwined so it may be repeated.

A while after I lost my friend but before I got my latest vent picture I was listening to my music I listen to to cope with the bad when i got to the one that the same former friend gave to me when something perhaps unrelated clicked. You guys have seen the mother son dynamic that I have between Casper and Zoran? I don’t even know how that started but I know why now.

The love, caring and affection in the art is what ME the actual person wants from others.

After I made this realization I cried for about 20 minutes yet at the same time I was happy and relived that I finally figured out most of my conflicted feelings which while I still have but a better understating of which I’ll get to in a bit.

All of this started way before though because I’ve been treated so poorly from the community I thought I belonged in and I can only assume for being an AB/DL because I’ve been blocked by people I’ve never heard of for no reason, blocked for asking TOS and about adopting a character, things stolen and being treated poorly and blocked by well known inflatable designers.

2021 was probably the worst year for the hate and diapers and things while still a kink became way more then that. Diaper themselves became a comfort item, a nice hug and a feeling of safety and while I can’t be sure I feel I sleep better in diapers .

Now back to Zoran and Cas. There are things that are kinky and sexual but now because of everything going wrong around me is now a sign of the previously mentioned love and affection but I stress and worry that my ideas would be incest although I’ve been assured they wouldn’t. Examples

As you all saw Casper giving Zoran a diaper change, a simple and boring task but to me is a sign of love and effection and as I said a sacred act.

Casper takes off her used diaper, pokes a hole in it and forces Zoran to fuck it

Casper rubs or wands the outside of zorans diaper till he cums

More a ponder then an Example but Perhaps Zoran fucking a pooltoy version of caper? Also if she was a semi animate or inanimate pool toy could she have an SPH Zoran Is filling?

Again these are a few examples that mean that love and affection and things I want to do/have happen but as for the art I worry and stress that could be incest, I have been assured it’s not and was told that Casper could even Jerk Zoran off and that wouldn’t be incest but if there was any penatration then it would which I would NEVER do with them. I feel because Casper is Zoran’s mom her making him cum at all would be incest.

So I’m not sure where I’m going with this but yeah it’s important to get it out there at least.