"I wish...idk, i wish for so much. but that's all kinda pointless now. I don't think i've ever had so many conflicting emotions about one person before. I guess you're probably in a similar boat. Trying to put my thoughts in order is so hard. I miss you. I hate you. I love you. I won't pretend i've always been the best friend, but even after we drifted apart you were just..idk, you were beloved constant in my life, even if i didn't show you that like i should have. I'd love to say i'd go back and change everything that led me to make the choices i did, but i can't. I regret them, and i'm doing my utmost to get out of that incredibly dark place i had let myself slip into, but i can't say i'd go back and change things. I'd rather cherish the memories i made with you than change anything and risk never having them. idk if you're ever even gonna read this, or if i'll send it to anyone but this empty chat. idk much of anything anymore to be honest, almost everyone i promised to love and cherish forever left me of their own accord, idk if even really know what any of it means anymore. I guess i hope life treats you well,sorry i turned out to be something you can regret." For the people that know or care, I guess this letter is all I can do. For the people that have just stumbled upon this or had it pop up, please treasure the people around you and do your utmost to live in a way theu can be proud of and love you.